The Very Little Things I Did Being Home Sick

Good Evening, World!!! If you read my last post you would know I stayed home sick. I have done very little to day. I did spend a lot of time cuddling with my cat Billie especially when I was reading. I read a few chapter in Ship of Magic by Robin Hobb. So far I am enjoying it. I’ve also been reading Wonder Woman comic books.

I’ve been reading when I have not been sleeping. I hope I am able to go to work tomorrow especially since I only have two week left before my lay off date. I really don’t like sleeping during the day because I am afraid I might not sleep at night.

I don’t have anything else to say except I need to eat dinner and then cuddle with my cat Billie again. Thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Too Sleepy to do Anything but Self Care

Good Evening, World!!! I’ve been tired and sleepy all day. The only thing I could do today was volunteer at PAWS Cat City which helped with my depression. Of course when i got home from volunteering spent some much needed time with my Billie Dean. Billie is such love bug.

I’m been tired and sleepy all day due to insomnia last night. So I decided to read most of the day with Billie in my lap. I read some science fiction books as well as comic books. I think the reading and cuddling with my cat, Billie helped a great deal with the sleepiness and depression.

Sometimes time just lay back cuddling with my cat and reading helps with my depression.. Depression sucks shit. At least self care is helping the depression a little bit. It’s not eve eight forty five in the evening here is Seattle and I am reading for bed.

Thank you reading my blog. I hope you all have a good night sleep. Good Night and Peace Out, World!!!

Not a Productive Day

Good Afternoon, World!!! Today has been a pretty unproductive day. I have been asleep all day due to the fact I waited to attend a twelve step meeting. I got the right time but wrong day. I did attend another twelve another meeting last night. I’m glad I went.

I also did some reading of some science fiction and fantasy books that I could not stop reading. I love those king of books that I couldn’t put down because they are so good. I spent four hours reading two different books last night.

On another plus note, Billie Dean, my cat was a happy camper because he got a lot of play time as well as some catnip. My cat is now wanting my catnip but he will have to wait to later this evening.

As far as attending twelve step meetings today, I am not sure if I am going to attend as I am really tired that I might not be able to fully focus on the meeting. That kind of goes for my chores I was planning on doing today. I just don’t have enough energy or focus to do my household shores.

I did get my daily walk in which is an accomplishment concerting how tired I am from not having any sleep last night due to my own doing. I at least completed something today. I also am planning on playing with my cat Billie Dean. He deserves all the play time he can get especially since he need to loose two to three pounds. I love my cat, so much It’s hard to believe that tomorrow will be his two you gotcha (adoption) date. I am love how loving and cuddly Billie is.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank your for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out. World!!!

No Sleep Again In Seattle, Last Night (But It Was Completely My Fault)

Good Morning, World and Happy Saturday especially those who have it off. It is now 9:00am Seattle time and I got absolutely no sleep. But this time it was completely my fault and nothing to do with insomnia, neighbors arguing and fighting with each as well as an idiot neighbor pulling the fire alarm.

I stayed up attending Twelve step meetings as well as reading twelve step literature. Specifically the Big Red Book (aka the BRB). I am learning a great deal from the meetings as well as the literature. I am grateful that I am making this part of my new years goals as well as my part of my recovery.

I am also grateful that I had time to read some books that I am reading for pleasure. Specifically, I am reading science fiction books as well as some fantasy books. It helps me with my self care and escape from the realities this world how now a days. Books are a great way to escape from reality.

Another thing that kept me awake and my cat was thrilled about it which as I played with him a good portion of the night now he is sleeping like the beauty queen (or should say king) that he is. My at is so amazing and tomorrow is is two year official gotcha date. I love my babe boy Billie and he has help me a great deal with my recovery.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I will be going to a twelve step meeting before going to bet to take a nap. I also want to thank you the reader for reading y blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Have a good weekend all and happy Saturday. Peace Out, World!!!

Yet, Another Post About my Depression

Good Afternoon, World!!! It is two days shy of a month since I last blogged. I do not have an excuse of why I haven’t blogged in nearly a month. Or at least an excuse that I feel okay with because there isn’t an excuse good enough for why I haven’t blogged.

Right now my depression is acting up. I am wondering if the increased depression is due to the time of year or due to Covid-19 or due to the up coming elections here in the United States or all of the above. No matter the reason the why I am dealing with increased depression symptoms at least I am aware of it and that it is currently a mild case for me. I know I shouldn’t be dismissive of my depression symptoms as being “mild,” its just that they could be much, much worse.

As far as trying to make myself feel better, spending time with my cat, Billie Dean is quite helpful. Billie is very much a cuddly cat and loves to spend as much time as he can on my lap. I love Billie so much and am grateful for his unconditional love. The love of an animal is the best feeling in the world.

Another way, I am going to do to help with the depression is to read. I most likely will read the fantasy/science fiction book that I am currently reading. Reading helps me cope with my reality. It helps me forget my reality for an hour or two at time without doing harm to myself.

I do not have much more to say as I want to go read. I want to thank you all for reading my blog. I am greatly appreciative that you have chosen to read my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you all have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

A Two in the Morning Post

Good Morning, World!!! It is nine minutes after two in the morning in my corner of the world. After working on some are for almost an hour and a half, I decided to make me some food. I made me some spaghetti with homemade spaghetti sauce I made awhile back and froze. I froze the sauce because I live alone and always make too much. Anyway reheated the homemade sauce to put on my noodles. To go with my spaghetti, I made garlic bread. I love garlic.

After I am done writing this blog, I am going read the book I am reading. It is a science fiction book called Dragonsong by Anne McCaffrey. So far I am really enjoying the book. I am going to be starting chapter five and look forward to what is to come in the book. In fact this book is the first in a series. Actually it is the first in a trilogy. I love book series for a number of reasons. One of which is I tend to get immersed in the story and with the characters so much that I hate to say goodbye. I know that sound silly but it is true.

I, of course will be reading and Billie Dean, my cat most likely will be curled up on my lap. I really enjoy the fact that Billie is a lap cat. Billie is such a cuddle bug and I appreciate it. With Billie, my cat, being such a cuddle bug, it has gotten me to slow down and be in the current moment.

I am hoping to stay awake till at least five in morning. I really do wish I could go to sleep now but I cannot. I cannot because I work a twelve and a half hour night shift on Saturday nights. That means I need to sleep during the day on Saturdays. I wish my shifts weren’t at night because it messes with my sleep schedule and I already have difficulties with my sleep as it is. Even though I don’t like night shifts due to the sleep thing, I am grateful that I have a job that I enjoy for the most part.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you all for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has an awesome Saturday as well as a great weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

Feeling So Much Better

Hello, World!!! I am feeling better that I was than my last two post. I spent time with family. Actually, I spent time with my grandpa and uncle as I did laundry at their place. It is always great to spend time with my family. I love my grandpa so much.

After spending time at my grandpa’s, I came home and spent time with my cat, Billie Dean. While spending time with Billie in my lap I read. I am reading a science fiction book. So far so good. I am only on the third chapter but I like thus far.

As I was reading one of my neighbors who has become a good friend asked me if I wanted to go to their place to play some card games. So, I went to her place and we played cards for a couple of hours. I had a great time. I really enjoy spending time with friends.

I do no have much more to talk about in this particular blog post. I want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you all have an awesome weekend ahead of you. Peace Out, World.

Boredom Sets In As I Wait For….

Good Morning, World!!! At this very moment I am sitting in the waiting room of my doctor’s office to see her for our ever two week check up even though I have not seen her since November. Long story short, our schedules didn’t mesh well and the holidays didn’t help with the scheduling. Any way I am sure we will be discussing how things have been going with me both physical health and mental health wise. I am sure we will also be discussing how I have not been using the emergency room on the regular basis and only going to urgent care once as seeing her every two weeks is to help cut down on the amount of times I go to the emergency room. Anyway, one of the things I plan on doing is asking my doctor if she can prescribe me some Ativan for my upcoming dental appointment. Actually, it will be for my oral surgery of taking out all of my teeth. I have anxiety over going to the dentist. I know it sounds a wee bit silly but I do. I know most likely my doctor will not prescribe me the Ativan but at least I will have an answer as if I don’t ask the answer will be an automatic no.

As I wait for my doctor, not only have I been writing this post I have been reading the book Lost Boys by Orson Scott Card. It has been quite helpful to me as I wait to see my doctor. Hell, it was quite helpful to me last night when I was unable to sleep due to sleeping too much for about three days due to depression. I love to read. It helps me get out of my own head space and think about something else for once. It is quite helpful for me and my recovery journey.

I best be ending this particular post as it is getting closer to my appointment time with my doctor. I hope to post more later on today. I hope everyone has a good Monday. Peace Out, World!!!

No Sleep For Me

Good Morning, World!!! I am unable to sleep right now. No matter how much I try, I am unable to sleep. I have taken my sleep meds as well as some Melatonin and neither are working. I am starting to get quite frustrated with not being able to sleep.

Thankfully, I have electricity because it keeps going out due to the windy weather and power lines keep going down. I am grateful for electricity at the moment because I have been watching movies which has been quite helpful to me.

Unfortunately, yet fortunately the electricity would go out due to the windy weather and I then get a battery operated lantern and read. I am reading a book that I keep putting down and picking back but have to reread from the beginning due to forgetting where I left off. I am reading a science fiction / fantasy novel. I love reading

So between reading and movies I have been keeping myself busy. Lil Gertie, appears to be happy that I am awake right now as she is getting a lot attention as she is a night owl. I love my cat so much. She makes my life so much better.

I want to write more but my lights are starting to flicker again so I want to make sure this post gets posted just in case the electricity goes out again. The weather in Seattle the last few days has been yucky to even those who have spent their entire lives in the Seattle area. I just wish it wasn’t so windy.

Again, I really should get going. I hope everyone has a good Friday as it is officially Friday everywhere in America. Before I go, I would like to wish everyone a Blessed Solstice. Have a wonderful weekend everyone. Peace Out, World!!!

 

 

Anger = Call to Therapist

Good Afternoon, World!!! As much as I love my family, they are driving me nuts right now. Driving me nuts over petty shit that I shouldn’t let get to me but I do.

I talked with my new therapist about this and he suggested some things for me to do so I am not so angry with them. The cool thing about everything is that he knew what questions to ask about me and my anger. He now knows that me calling when I am angry is a good. This is a way for me to be preventative to do self harm urges and self harm acts. Thankfully, the anger toward my family didn’t lead to self harm urges which is why I was being preventative.

Something that my therapist and I came up with is to keep my mind busy so reading and books. I found out that my therapist is also an avid reading. His enjoys science fiction and fantasy genres. Knowing something as simple as this helps me with trusting my therapist. Talking about ways to not be so angry and books with my therapist helped lessened the anger a great deal.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World.