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Unable to Sleep & It’s Not the Cats Fault

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Good Very Early Morning, World!!! It is seven minutes after two in the morning in my neck of the world in Seattle. Yes, it means it is 2:07 in the morning. I am unable to sleep at the moment it is starting to frustrate the hell out of me. It is frustrating the hell out of me because not only is my anxiety is acting up but by PTSD is acting up as well. In my opinion it is the anxiety and the PTSD that is keeping me up which is helping with the helping the insomnia.

On the plus note, the Seattle rain is quite soothing helping me calm down and be mindful of being in the present. In fact my cat is also helping me be in the present moment. I love the fact how the Seattle rain and my cat help me be in the current present moment.

And of course the other thing that is helping me is right now is is listening to the podcast on philosophy. Specifically, I am listening to “Philosophize This” and am feeling like I am getting a great education about philosophy. I know it seems weird but I feel like I am learning a lot and getting an informal education.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do what to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Geeking Out of Weird Ass Stuff

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‘Good Evening, World!!! It appears to me that I am geeking out on podcast. Specifically a podcast on philosophy. The podcast I am geeking out on is “Philosophize This.” I feel like I am getting some education on the topic of philosophy. I am really enjoying this podcast and have the ability to get some form of education on philosophy.

I am not only Geeking out on podcast about philosophy, I am geeking out on comic books. I am geeking out reading Wonder Woman comic books. Being able to geek out on comic books is quite helpful with dealing with my anxiety and depression.

Another thing that I am geeking out on is my cat Billie Dean. I am such a geek when it comes to cats. Especially my own cat, Billie. I love Billie so very much. He is such a love bug as well as a cuddle bug.

Everything I have mentioned in this particular blog post, I geek out on because they help me deal with my anxiety and depression. Knowing what helps cope with my mental health diagnosis is always a good thing.

I do not have much more to say in the particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

The Comfort of My Cat, Billie Sitting in My Lap

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Good Evening, World!!! Today has been not one of my best days at work. It also hasn’t been one of my worst days at work. The type of day I had at work is like riding a rollercoaster that goes upside down on three different occasions. Not get me wrong I love riding rollercoasters for fun. I just don’t like when my work day feels like a rollercoaster. I hope I am making sense with what I am trying to convey.

Anyway, I had an uncomfortable interaction with a colleague today. Not meaning to offend this colleague because I admire this person. So, long story short, I was able to check in with my supervisor who validated my experience and informed me that I didn’t do anything wrong. My direct supervisor is finally back from FMLA and she is awesome. My temporary supervisor is awesome as well. Hell, all the supervisors are amazing and feel supported by them as well as the clinical director.

One of the best parts of my job, the clinicians come to me for advice on help to help the clients we serve at my employers. It feels good when people come to me to be of help for our clients. It also feels odd at times when the lead peer specialist most likely would be the best bet to go to for advice regarding helping clients. Sadly, the lead peer specialist isn’t my biggest fan which I won’t discuss here but I do admire her. She has some awesome insight on things that I know nothing about. I love learning things from the lead peer specialist despite her not liking me.

On that note my colleagues are quite supportive. My colleagues gave me the encouragement I needed and was not expecting it. I am glad that my colleagues are beyond awesome.

Now that I am off work, I am writing this particular blog post with my cat, Billie Dean, on my lap as I listen to a podcast on philosophy. The podcast of the philosophy I am listening to is “Philosophize This.” I am learning a lot about philosophy from the podcast I am listening to.

Another thing I am learning philosophy from is the book is “The Republic and Other Works” by Pluto. I feel like I am getting a great education about philosophy from the book I am reading. I love learning and educating myself.

As far as my cat Billie Dean, he is still laying curled up in my lap. He knows that my day has had some stress in it so he is trying to get me to be more mindful of the present versus the past even the recent past such as my work day today. I love my cat, Billie so much and that he gives me unconditional love even though I do not deserve the unconditional love he gives me. I so love how is is such a cuddly love but of a a cat.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog because if it wasn’t for you the reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my hear for reading my blog. Peace Our, World!!!

Too Tired to Write (& to Sleep)

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Good Morning, World!!! I am just way too tired to write much less sleep. Hell, I am even too tired too tired to focus on the anxiety and depression I have dealing with. First I get woken up by a neighbor pulling the fire alarm due to other neighbors not wearing their mask.

Now I am dealing with three neighbors who live on my floor in different apartments screaming at each other for bullshit reasons. I all I want is to go to sleep. It’s bad enough that I have insomnia but my neighbors sure haven’t been helping me with the sleep I need tonight, It is frustrating as fucking hell that I am unable to sleep.

Despite not being able to sleep, I have been listening to a podcast. A podcast about philosophy. Specifically, I have been listening to the philosophy podcast called “Philosophize This.” I am learning so much from this podcast and feel like I am getting an informal education from in it.

I am also feeling that I am getting an informal education from reading the book by Plato called “The Republic and Other Works.” It’s about Plato’s theory on philosophy and I feel like I am learn a lot from this book as well as the podcast I am listening to. I feel like reading about and listening to a podcast is giving me an education I would be getting if I was not able to sleep for various reasons.

Of course, my cat Billie Dean is now wanting me to give him some attention. Hopefully the type of attention to help me fall back to sleep. I love my cat Billie so much. He is such a sweet cuddle bug of a cat.

I do not now have much more to discuss in this particular blog post as I am too tired to write any more. I also want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Our, World!!!

Not Doing Okay

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Hello, World!!! I’m now not doing okay but I know everything will turn our okay or better than okay. My cat Billie Dean has been doing his just quite well with be an awesome emotional support animal. Billie is an awesome great ESA for me and am forever grateful that he chose me.

Billie has been trying is best in trying help me with my current art project. Specifically, I am coloring. I am coloring some pretty awesome pictures that I hope to share with you all the art work when I am finished with them as well as if I remember to day so. I love to coloring.

Having Anxiety and depression sucks which is why I do art work and cuddle with my cat, Billie. As I sit hear coloring, i have been listening to a podcast on philosophy. Specifically, I am listening to “Philosophize This” and feel like a am getting a great education I am getting from listening to it.

I do not have much more to discuss in this particular blog post. I do really want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of thigs that you the reader do read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog, I would nt be writing my blog. So, again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!!

A So So Type of Day

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Good Evening, World!!! I have been having a so so type of day. Partly because my anxiety and depression symptoms are acting up. Another part is I went back to work today after taking the last two days off (Monday and Tuesday) from work due to increased symptoms of the anxiety and depression. The HR department at my employer is amazing. They have been working with me since the day I accepted the job offer nearly a year ago. Hell, I can’t believe it’s been almost a year since I accepted this awesome job.

On that note, HR is amazing but sadly, I had a negative interaction with a colleague that many people at my employer admire including myself. Anyway, the interaction I had with this admired colleague put me in a loop. A loop that I feel like is going to spiral in a downward spiral. That’s why I notified HR via email and will hopefully hear back from HR sometime tomorrow since it took me all day to decide if I needed to bring HR into this matter.

Now, that I am off from work for the day, I have decided to not watch television as I could use a different form of background noise so I decided. The background noise I am listening to is something that I actually listen to which is a podcast. I am listening to a podcast about philosophy. In fact the philosophy podcast I am listening to is “Philosophize This.” I am learning so much about philosophy from this podcast and feel like I am getting an education from it.

While listening to this podcast, I am cuddling with my cat, Billie Dean. In fact Billie is making it challenging to do some art work but that is okay. The type of art work I am doing is painting as well as collaging. I’m intertwining the two genre’s together. Usually, it comes out okay but this piece is coming out quite amazingly. As far a Billie, my cat, goes, I am glad he is being cuddly with me today.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Got Absolutely No Sleep

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Good Morning, World!!! It five thirty eight in the morning on a Sunday here in Seattle. I have not been able to sleep all night and had to call in for my volunteer shift at PAWS Cat City. I don’t think I would be able to do what I need to do while volunteering in a safe manner due to the lack of sleep. The plus note is that I will be able to attend the one hour training I signed up for this evening for my volunteer job at Cat City. Yes, I did leave an voicemail and email regarding missing my job and able to attend the training this evening.

On that note, since I was unable to sleep at all, all night, I have kept quite busy by educating myself my listening to a podcast about philosophy. Actually, I have been listening to this particular philosophy podcast to catch up to the most up to date podcast on philosophy. The podcast I am listening to about philosophy is call “Philosophize This” which I think a really great podcast. I am learning so much from this podcast that I feel like I am getting some form of education on philosophy as I listen to it.

As I listened to the philosophy podcast I did do some art work. The type of art work I did was coloring. In fact I was able to finish two coloring picture that I had already been working on. I also started coloring a new coloring page after I finish the two coloring pages that I had already started.

Something else I did while I have been unable to sleep beside listening to a philosophy podcast while doing art work by coloring, I attended some online 12 Step meetings. A twelve step meeting with a lot recovery focused language verses other 12 Step meetings. Plus the 12 Steep meetings I tend to go to focuses changing myself and not the other people in my life. The focusing on changing oneself verse change others and in being focused on recovery language is why I like this particular 12 step meeting. I attended three of these 12 step meetings tonight and learned a great deal.

And of course, I spent the night with my cat Billie Dean by my side in a very cuddly mood which I love. Billie, my cat is an amazing cat and I love him so much. He is also such a love bug and prefers to be in the same room I am in no matter the room which includes the bathroom. I have not clue why ant pet does this regarding going to the bathroom with their humans. I love my cat, Billie more and more every day.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it as wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. So, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you all have a great Sunday ahead of you. Peace Out, World!!!

A Post that Might Not Make Much Sense

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Good Evening, World!!! This post might not might makes sense at all but I will have a future blog post that might make this post make more sense that it does. So, long story short, it was recommend to me by my therapist that I read a book call “Impact and Change: A Study of Counseling Relationship” as it will help with my recovery as well as my therapeutic relationship with my own therapist and the clients I would with. Another book that was recommended for me to read was suggested by a colleague. The book is call “Mindfulness for Borderline Personality Disorder.” I have recently started reading these to books and I am learning a great deal about them. They are so very different but there are many parallels in the books. The books have some intersectionality’s in both your personal and professional life when you work in the mental health field while seeking therapy yourself. I am enjoying both of these books so for. I will explain the topics in this paragraph in a later blog posts.

Something that appears to also be connect to the about the above paragraph of my journey of learning about philosophy. I am learning about philosophy but listening to a podcast call “Philosophize This” as well as reading a book called “The Republic and Other Works” by Plato. I am learning a great deal from what I am getting educated on philosophy.

With all this education I feel like I am getting is well worth it. I fell like I am getting educated on all of this by being creative by doing artwork. Specifically, the type of artwork I am doing to help retain what I am learning is coloring. Coloring helps me retain things especially when I am wanting to learn something I am interested in.

Of course, I can’t forget about my cat Billie Dean who appears to enjoy what I am learning for the books I am reading as well as the podcast I am listening to. I even talk to my cat Billie about what I am learning and ask questions to him which I know he will not answer but it’s nice to get the information I learned out even thought I talk to Billie my cat about it.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do what to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writer my blog. So, thank you again from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Maintaining Good Mental Health

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Good Evening, again, World!!! Today, I didn’t go to work and am taking a mental health day. I have been doing some self care stuff in my life to help me get through some rough moments which appear to be working. In fact what I am doing is coping skills to help with my self care today.

I have been reaching out friends and talking with them. Talking with supportive friends is quite helpful for me. I am glad to have such amazing friends.

I have also been listening to a podcast about philosophy which is extremely educating me as I never had the opportunity to learn about it in high schools which is quite disappointing for me. “Philosophize This has realized what books I can read to fuller my education even though I am not going through the college/university route as there are many routes to be educated. The book I have started reading is “The Republic and Other Works” by Plato. I owe this education to Steven West who is the podcaster of “Philosophize This” for wanting me to learn more.

And lets not forget my loving cat Billie Dean. Billie is my very own lap cat who loves me so very much. I am so grateful that he is in my life. I am grateful that he gives me the love I need.

Self care looks differently for everyone and that can also look differently from the same person depending on the day. Safe care is something we all need to focus on.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. If it wasn’t for you the reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Still Doing Some Self Care

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Good Evening, World!!! If you read my last two blog post you know, I took today off for a mental health day. I took a mental health day because my anxiety and depression are slightly acting up. I didn’t to get them in check before it got worse. Which I am grateful I am doing that and able to do so with my work.

Anyway, after the self care stuff I did in my last blog, I realized I was getting sleepy so I decided to take a nap and it was a good nap. I just hope I can get some some sleep tonight so I can function at work tomorrow. I really love my job and wish I didn’t need to take the day off today.

So, the next thing I plan on doing is reading The Republic and Other Works by Plato. Plato is a philosopher that I would like to learn from. So, far I am learning from Plato am grateful for the opportunity to read this book. It’s amazing what else I can learn about philosophy.

I owe it all to the podcast I am listening to on philosophy. The philosophy podcast that has me researching more is Philosophize This. So I am grateful for this learning opportunity. I hope to continue to learn about philosophy as I feel like I am getting an education for this podcast and what I am reading books about philosophy.

Now, it is not to chill out with my cat to read about Plato.

I don’t have much more to say this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I wouldn’t be writer my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my blog for reading my blog. Have a great evening ahead. Peace Out, World!!!