Not Going to the Social Security Today

Good Morning, World!!! I was headed out to go to the social security office to take care of some business. Unfortunately, I threw up. I threw up in the hallway of my apartment building. I cleaned up my mess and well now I am curled up on my couch blogging.

I am planning on reading my Star Wars books as well as resting most of the day. I love reading and am grateful that my depression isn’t severe enough to have an effect on my concentration.

Thank you for reading. I hope everyone has an awesome day. Peace Out, Word!!!

Preparing for the Social Security Office

Good Morning, World!!! I am preparing to go to the Social Security office as they stopped giving me my hard earned money, I paid into the system. I am not looking forward to it as the Social Security office gives me really high anxiety.

To help me at the Social Security office I’m taking some stuff to help me while I wait. One thing I will be taking is one of my workbooks. A workbook about recovery and your strengths. Another thing I will be taking is my Star Wars book that I started read on Sunday. Reading is a great time to kill time while you wait.

I should get going so I can get ready. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

All I Want Is…

Good Morning, World!!! Right now all I want is sleep. I haven’t been to sleep yet. I just want to get to sleep especially since I have to be up in less than three hours to go to the social security office.

I have been reading my Star Wars book when I haven’t been pacing or trying to sleep. I think the reading is helping me through long hours of not doing anything as well as my anxiety.

Thank you for reading. Have a great day and Peace Out, World!!!

Neighbor Drama

Hello, World!!! I witnessed one of my white neighbors be an asshole and call another neighbor the “n” word. This started an argument and the African American neighbor walked away as he didn’t want the arguing to continue. My white neighbor went at him and him so hard in the back he fell to his knees. At this point myself and other witness’s called the police.

The police showed up with the fire department where my African American neighbor not only pressed charges but went to the hospital as precaution. The police took witness statements and two of the neighbors (who are white) attempted to say it was the African American’s fault not the white neighbors fault.

I as a white person attempted to explain to the white witnesses sticking up for the asshole of a neighbor about white privilege. They were trying to argue with me so I stopped the conversation. I did my best to do so to explain what it was. Unfortunately, I think it made things worse.

Who needs a television drama when you have drama in your apartment building. There is never a dull moment in my building. I just wish the drama that happened this evening didn’t happen as someone got hurt. I hate drama.

Thank you for reading. I hope I didn’t trigger anyone. Peace Out, World!!!

As Depression Strikes; Star Wars Comes to the Rescue

Good Afternoon, World!!! I am struggling with depression just like I have been for what seems like forever. Anyway, I have been relying a great deal on reading lately and I am thrilled that I am able to concentrate enough on it.

Depression has been kicking my ass today as some of you may have read in earlier post. Kicking my ass enough that I am planning on reading my Star Wars books. It is an extremely easy read or at least that is my opinion.

My therapist says that reading appears to be of help to me lately. He is an avid reader as well and “enjoys” fantasy and science fiction like I do. He has even read the Star War series I am reading now.

I should get going and eat as it is late afternoon and I skipped lunch. Have an awesome evening and peace out, world!!!

Depression Sucks!!!

Good Morning, World!!! Depression sucks. I woke up depressed this morning when I woke up at two thirty. I left my therapist a message letting him know that. I am pretty sure we will be discussing this in our session when I see him later in this morning.

I have been reading most of the morning. I am about half way through my Star Wars book. Like I have said multiple times Star Wars books are an easy read or at least they are for me they are.

I don’t know what I have going today besides reading and therapy. I most likely will work on my workbooks. I just wish I wasn’t so depressed.

Thank you so much for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

3 Hours of Reading & Trying to Sleep

Good Morning, World!!! I am still awake. After my last post I was hoping to get back to sleep. I, unfortunately was unable to do so.

I think not being able to get back to sleep is due to my anxiety. Not only is my anxiety acting but my depression is acting up as well. Not sure why but it is. Maybe its due to the lack of sleep.

I have been reading the last three hours when I wasn’t trying to get back to sleep. I am grateful I chose to read the Star Wars book. I know I have said this before but it is an easy read or eye candy as I like to call it.

I think I am going to get going and watch the morning news. Have a great day everyone. Peace Out, World!!!

An Early Awaking

Good Morning, World!!! I am up way too early once again.  It is two thirty in the morning in my corner of the world. I am not sure what I am going to do till I leave for my therapy appointment. I leave at eight in the morning.

I think I am going to read. I will be reading my Star Wars book. I really enjoy Star Wars. It is an easy read and not difficult to concentrate on.

Thank you for reading. I hope you have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Too Much Sh*t On My Mind

Hello, World!!! I don’t know what to think right now. I have a lot of shit on my mind. I don’t know why I am having all this stuff going through my head.

I’m having trouble sleeping because of the shit going through my head. One thing I can’t seem to get out of my head is the trauma related stuff. Why can’t the PTSD give me a break? Especially, when I am wanting to go to sleep.

I am also thinking a lot about my grandma. I miss her so very much. I wish she was still here with me and my family. I know she is watching over me and is my guardian angel. She still looking out for me or I hope she still is.

I am also thinking about the money issues I am having because social security won’t make a decision about my case. I am still disabled. My disability didn’t all of a sudden disappear; although it would very nice if it did.

On the humorous side of things, I am also thinking about the Star Wars book I am reading. Of all things that I am thinking about I find this the best thing or the least anxiety provoking or painful.

A Star Wars Type of Evening

Good Evening, World!!! I am sitting here trying to figure out what to do as I have been reading most of the day. My eyes are starting to get a little strained and that is with using my glasses.

I think I am going to watch a movie. Not sure what movie yet but will watch a movie. I might watch the original Star Wars. Yeah, I think I am going to do that.

Thank you for reading. Have a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!