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Happy Friday!!!

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Good Morning and Happy Friday, World!!! It is a beautiful sunny Friday here in Seattle and my morning walk was awesome and helped woke me up a little. I am tired as hell as I sadly have not slept all night. I am assuming I could not sleep last night due to insomnia. As much as I would love to take a nap, I am not able to. I am not able to because I have a volunteer shift with Alley Cat Project. I am really glad that my volunteer job with Alley Cat Project. I am also beyond thrilled that it is sunny in Seattle today as the sun will help keep me awake during my volunteer shift.

I am wondering if I will hear back today from the potential employer that I interviewed with this past Tuesday regarding if I got the job or not. I was informed that I would hear back no later than next Friday which is what I am expecting but one can hope to hear back sooner than later. I really want this job, and I am surprised that I was asked for references the day after my interview because I think I did a really crappy job interviewing. Like I said I really want this job, and I hope I get it. I also hope I am not pulling the cart before the horse or jinxing myself or getting my hopes up too high as I don’t want to be beyond devastated if I don’t get the job.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

The Elusiveness of Sleep

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Good Morning, World!!! It is four thirty-two in the morning here in Seattle. I am still wide awake, and this insomnia is just driving me batty but thankfully not batty enough to not end up in the looney bin. I just wish I knew why my insomnia is so bad lately and it is frustrating as hell.

Since I have not been able to sleep, I have been focused on learning new coping skills and building on old coping skills. I have been doing this by working on a couple of workbooks. Workbooks that remind me of what helps and what does not help and what I can try again to see if it helps this time around. Recovery is nonlinear and if certain coping skill didn’t help years ago does not mean they won’t help now and that gives me a lot of hope. Hope goes a long way especially when it comes to coping skills and using them even if they did not help at one point in time.

This just a random thought but I wonder if any of my references has been called yet. I am not sure why I just that of that but all I can think of is that I really want the job. I also hope that I am not getting my hopes up too high or that I am pulling cart before the horse. I also hope I am not jinxing myself. I’m now just rambling on and on and I really should just try to go to bed again.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post except that I really want some sleep. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Middle of the Night Struggles

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Good Morning, World!!! It is one seventeen in the morning here in Seattle and I am struggling. I am struggling with the lack of sleep. The lack of sleep is due to insomnia and PTSD. The lack of sleep is also causing me to struggle more with my PTSD and some increased depression symptoms. Both the depression and PTSD is causing some anxiety and anger. Neither emotion is an emotion I like to deal with. Hell, I try my best to avoid both emotions.

On the note of emotions, I have been using the coping skills in the Emotional Regulation module of Dialectal Behavioral Therapy (DBT). These skills are very helpful for me especially right now. In fact, all the DBT skill in all four modules are helpful for me. As I do my DBT skills I remember that when I made an active choice to be in active mental health recovery it was when I decided to be in an intensive outpatient DBT program and that gives me hope that things will get better, and this too will pass.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Finally Got Sleep

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Good Morning, World!!! It is 10:09 in the morning here in Seattle and it is a beautiful sunny day outside. I also finally got some much-needed sleep which is something I needed since I will be doing volunteer shift with Alley Cat Project and PAWS Cat City.

Oh, how I love to be able to give of my time to nonprofit organizations especially ones that help cats. I really enjoy giving my time especially when it comes to helping cats as I am a huge cat lover. I also love that my volunteer positions at Alley Cat Project and PAWS Cat City are completely different yet gives me a similar skill set for future volunteer jobs as well as future paid employment.

Speaking of employment, I had a job interview this past Tuesday which I thought did not go so very well. It apparently went better than expected as I received an email yesterday asking for references. I take being asked for references after a job interview as a good sign and I really hope it is a good sign. I really would like this job.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Still No Sleep for Me

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Good Morning, World!!! It is five forty in the morning here in Seattle and I still have not slept which royally sucks. I really wish I could sleep. Sleep is important to a person’s physical health as well as a person’s mental health and hope I get some sleep, so it does not start affecting my health or wellbeing.

Not only am dealing with no sleep due to insomnia and PTSD, but I am also dealing with some depression symptoms. Just like I mentioned in my last post I have been working on some workbooks to help me with the symptoms of my mental health challenges. Learning new coping skills and building on the coping skills that I have learned throughout the years in my recovery only helps me even more in my recovery journey. As tired as I am, I am grateful that I have the time to learn new coping skills through the recovery related workbooks that I am doing.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

PTSD + Insomnia = No Sleep

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Good Morning, World!!! It is two thirty-four in the morning here in Seattle. I am sadly unable to sleep. I am unable to due to PTSD and insomnia which sucks but it is something that I have dealt with in the past. As much as it sucks, I am also realizing that I am fighting some depression symptoms which makes the no sleep thing with PTSD and insomnia suckier than it should be.

Since I am dealing with little sleep due to insomnia and PTSD as well as dealing with increased depression symptoms, I have decided to do some recovery related workbooks. Workbooks that are helping me learn new skills as well as helping me build more resiliency in my life. I am glad that I do workbooks to help myself with my recovery as the skills I learn helps build on what I have already learned in my recovery. For me my recovery is one of the most important things in my life.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post except that I wish I could sleep and didn’t have to deal with insomnia, depression and PTSD. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Middle of the Night Ramblings

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Good Morning, World!!! It is three thirty-three in the morning here in Seattle. I am sadly unable to sleep partly due to insomnia and partly due taking a late (and long) nap yesterday evening. I normally would care if I took a long nap in late evening, but I am glad I took mine yesterday evening due to being woken but by the storm at two sixteen in the morning, yesterday.

Since I am unable to sleep, I decided to do some artwork and listen to a podcast. The type of artwork that I am doing is coloring. I started a new gigantic coloring page of a mandala. I love coloring especially mandala’s. As I colored, I listened to a podcast. A podcast about philosophy. The podcast about philosophy that I listened to is Philosophize This. I am really enjoying this podcast and learning about philosophy.

I do not have anything else to discuss or write about in this particular blog post except I want to get back to coloring and listening to a podcast. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Sleepless Night in Seattle

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Good Morning, World!!! It is two sixteen in the morning here in Seattle and I am unable to sleep. I so wish I could sleep especially since I am not feeling very well. I am grateful that I got a good night of sleep last night but sadly having two nights of a good night of sleep was not in the stars (pun intended).

Since I am unable to sleep, I decided to get up and work on some artwork. The type of artwork that I am choosing to do in the middle of the night is diamond art/painting. I am working on the diamond art/painting of the tuxedo cat in a tree that I started a couple of days ago. I am really happy that my neighbor introduced to me diamond art/painting as I really enjoy dong them.

As I do diamond art/painting my cat, Billie is in lap sleeping as I listen to a podcast. In fact, I am listening to a podcast on philosophy. The philosophy podcast that I am listening to is Philosophize This. I really enjoy this podcast and learning about philosophy this way. Hell, this podcast has gotten me interested in philosophy and to read books on philosophy.

I do not have anything else to discuss or write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

I Got a Good Night of Sleep!!!

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Good Morning, World!!! I surprisingly got a good night of sleep last night. Part of me wonders if the reason why I got a good night of sleep is because I am still not feeling well. I am grateful for the good night of sleep and I wish I didn’t have to be sick to have gotten a good night of sleep.

On the note, the weather doesn’t look as yucky as it was yesterday or at least that is what it looks like when I look out my window. Then it again it is still dark outside. Let’s hope that the weather is not as yucky as yesterday as the day progresses.

No matter what the weather is today, I am not going to do much of anything because I am still not feeling well. I probably will just be staying home and cuddle with my cat, Billie. I love being able to spend time with my cat, Billie. I am grateful that I have my cat, Billie in my life. He has made my life so much easier to cope with the challenging times in my life.

Speaking of cats, I am planning on continuing to work on the diamond art/painting that I started on yesterday of a tuxedo cat in a tree. Part of the reason I chose this particular diamond art/painting is because it is a tuxedo cat and my cat, Billie is a tuxedo cat. I really enjoy doing diamond art/painting and I am so very happy that my neighbor introduced me to this particular form of art.

I do not have anything else to discuss or write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

After A Good Nap, It’s Time for A Good Book

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Good Evening, World!!! It is seven twenty-nine in the evening here in Seattle and the weather is still yucky. With the weather being so yucky and me not feeling well I decided to take a nap after my last blog post. I am glad I took the nap despite sleeping longer than I had hoped to. I know I needed the sleep, and I hope that I have not created a not so good sleep cycle for myself.

Now that I am wide awake, I think I am going to read the book in a six-book series. In fact, it is part of the Fire and Brimstone series by Nikole Knight. I am so happy that I picked this book series out because I was just going off of what the back of the book said, and I read it online. So, I bought all six books on a whim after reading something about the first book online.

I do not have anything else to discuss or write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!