Tag Archives: Mental Health

Good News

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I got good news. I am eligible for provisional eligibility of social security till they make a final determination if I am disabled in their eyes. I have had this disability for thirty years. I don’t think anything has changed. I still have mental health challenges whether or not I work or not.

I would love to go back to work and have a job I love again. I just don’t know if I can go back as soon as I had hoped. I love working and having a job where I can be a productive member of society.

Being a productive member of society for me would be working however that is not the case at the moment. So for me going to groups is a way for me to be productive. Being productive is crucial for me and my recovery.

Thank you for reading. I hope you have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Up ToO eArLy, AgAiN

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I am up too early, once again. I am getting a little annoyed with either not sleeping or getting up at this god awful hour of the morning. At least I got sleep. I think I got about five hours of sleep.

I am going to the social security office today. This time I hope I can actually get there. I need to take care of some business. They keep telling me that I am getting money and then go around saying I am not getting money. They have been doing this for two months now.

I thinking after I am done blogging, I am going to read. I am of course am going to be reading Star Wars: Heir To The Empire by Timothy Zahn. As I have mentioned in many other previous post the last few days, I have been enjoying the book quite immensely.

Thanks for reading. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

More Random Ramblings.

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I am starting to feel a lot better than I did this morning. I am planning on going to the social security office tomorrow since I didn’t make it today. On the plus note, social security put money into my account for some reason. I am not going to argue with getting money.

I bought two more Star Wars books to read with the money I got today. I am really impressed by the Star Wars: Heir To The Empire book I thought I would buy more. I really am enjoying the book.

Another thing I am planning on doing with the money is buying some art supplies. Art is another thing that is helpful for me and I love to paint. Painting helps me express my emotions when I can’t share them verbally.

Thank you for reading. Have a great day. Peace out, World!!!

Random Ramblings

Posted on by Gertie

Good Afternoon, World!!! My therapist called to check up on me as I left him a voicemail last night saying I was struggling. He was concerned as I would be if I were in his shoes. I apologized for concerning him and I wan informed to not apologize for my emotions.

I have been reading a great deal lately. It is something I really enjoy. If you have been reading my blog the last few days you know I am reading Star Wars: Heir To The Empire. It is a book that I am highly enjoying at the moment.

I also didn’t get any sleep last night however I was able to take a nap earlier. I feel like getting some sleep helped me a little bit. Getting sleep always helps.

As many of you know I really enjoy blogging. I am attempting to increase my readership as I have been blogging four years as of May 31st. Its hard to believe that I have been blogging for four years. As I am going to be celebrating four years of blogging I am trying to increase the amount of readers I have. I only have 330ish followers. That is not as many as some of you. At least I know that I am reaching people.

I am waiting to hear back to see if I got the job I interviewed for last week. I feel like if I take the time to interview then they can take the time to let me know if I got the job or not. I know when the right job comes it will come.

Thank you for reading. Have a wonderful day. I hope you all are doing well. Peace out, World!!!

 

Still Not Feeling All That Well

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I am still not feeling all that well. I did manage to get some sleep which helped a little bit. I really wanted and needed to go to the social security office today to take care some personal business. Unfortunately, I got sick.

I think I am going to read my Star Wars book now. I am sure you all are getting sick and/or tired of hearing about it. I am just really enjoying the book.

Thank you for reading!! Have a great day and peace out world!!!

Not Going to the Social Security Today

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I was headed out to go to the social security office to take care of some business. Unfortunately, I threw up. I threw up in the hallway of my apartment building. I cleaned up my mess and well now I am curled up on my couch blogging.

I am planning on reading my Star Wars books as well as resting most of the day. I love reading and am grateful that my depression isn’t severe enough to have an effect on my concentration.

Thank you for reading. I hope everyone has an awesome day. Peace Out, Word!!!

Preparing for the Social Security Office

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I am preparing to go to the Social Security office as they stopped giving me my hard earned money, I paid into the system. I am not looking forward to it as the Social Security office gives me really high anxiety.

To help me at the Social Security office I’m taking some stuff to help me while I wait. One thing I will be taking is one of my workbooks. A workbook about recovery and your strengths. Another thing I will be taking is my Star Wars book that I started read on Sunday. Reading is a great time to kill time while you wait.

I should get going so I can get ready. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

All I Want Is…

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! Right now all I want is sleep. I haven’t been to sleep yet. I just want to get to sleep especially since I have to be up in less than three hours to go to the social security office.

I have been reading my Star Wars book when I haven’t been pacing or trying to sleep. I think the reading is helping me through long hours of not doing anything as well as my anxiety.

Thank you for reading. Have a great day and Peace Out, World!!!

Neighbor Drama

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I witnessed one of my white neighbors be an asshole and call another neighbor the “n” word. This started an argument and the African American neighbor walked away as he didn’t want the arguing to continue. My white neighbor went at him and him so hard in the back he fell to his knees. At this point myself and other witness’s called the police.

The police showed up with the fire department where my African American neighbor not only pressed charges but went to the hospital as precaution. The police took witness statements and two of the neighbors (who are white) attempted to say it was the African American’s fault not the white neighbors fault.

I as a white person attempted to explain to the white witnesses sticking up for the asshole of a neighbor about white privilege. They were trying to argue with me so I stopped the conversation. I did my best to do so to explain what it was. Unfortunately, I think it made things worse.

Who needs a television drama when you have drama in your apartment building. There is never a dull moment in my building. I just wish the drama that happened this evening didn’t happen as someone got hurt. I hate drama.

Thank you for reading. I hope I didn’t trigger anyone. Peace Out, World!!!

Working Through Depression & Anxiety

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! I am still struggling with the depression as stated in my last post. When I realized that my depression was still acting up, I needed to eat dinner. I had Macaroni and Cheese and Fried Chicken. Eating helped both the depression and anxiety.

I may not know why the depression is acting up but I know why the anxiety is acting up. It is acting up because I am going to the social security office tomorrow. I don’t do well when I go to the social security office. My anxiety acts up when I am there for some reason.

I have been reading my Star Wars: Heir To The Empire book. I am really enjoying the book immensely. I hope to write a book review on it when I am finished with it. For me reading has been quire helpful for me as of lately.

Thank you for reading. Have a great evening and Peace Out, World!!!