Tag Archives: Mental Health

Pushing Through the Grief

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I am doing slightly better than I was in my last post. I went for a walk which helped a great deal. I also read the news paper and had tea. I did this to honor my grandma and have been doing this since before she passed away but today was to honor her.

I also did some painting. I am painting a yellow rose to honor my grandma. My Grandma’s favorite flower was the yellow rose. Painting the yellow rose helps me heal and is a way to honor my grandma.

Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

A Painful Mother’s Day

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! As American’s celebrate Mother’s Day, I sit here dealing with grief and loss. The grief and loss of my grandma and being the first Mother’s Day with out her. Also dealing with the loss of two sets of twins. Not everyone has a good or happy Mother’s Day due to the painful experiences of loosing a child or children in my case as well as grandma.

For me Mother’s Day is also painful for me because my mom was not always there for me. She kept deciding throughout my childhood she couldn’t “handle” me for a multitude of reasons. One reason is because of her addiction to Heroin.

I want to discuss with you more about how things are going for me today but even writing this is have tears roll down my face. I am going to get going and do some mindfulness. Have a great day. Peace out, world!!!

Weekly Plans

Posted on by Gertie

Sunday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Buddhism practice and scriptures
  • Hang out with friends
  • Art

Monday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Buddhist scriptures
  • Art Therapy

Tuesday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Buddhist scriptiures
  • Therapy
  • Art

Wednesday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Buddhist scriptures
  • Chores
  • Art

Thursday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Buddhist Scriptures
  • Yoga
  • Art

Friday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Buddhist scriptures
  • Art
  • Hang out with friends

Saturday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Buddhist scriptures
  • Art
  • Hang out with friends

 

Weekly Check-In

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! As many of you know my family celebrated Mother’s Day today to honor my grandma. It was difficult for all of us as this is the first Mother’s Day without my grandma since she passed away.

As I told you earlier this week, I went to the Social Security office to discuss why I wasn’t getting any money. To find out I was suppose to be getting some money but they “forgot” to give it to me. Thankfully, my provisional checks were reinstated as I wait for Social Security  to make a decision.

I also made the decision to officially look into Buddhism. I have found that folks who consider themselves Buddhist to be at peace with themselves. Plus, I feel like it can help me with my recovery.

Thanks for reading. Have a goodnight. Peace Out, World!!!

My Day So Far

Posted on by Gertie

Good Afternoon, World!!! I am back from spending a few hours with my family to honor my grandma. We had my grandma’s favorite meal of ham, mashed potato’s and peas. My grandpa said a prayer and started to cry which got me to cry. A cry that I needed. I am having a difficult time with dealing with grief of any kind especially over the death of my grandma.

I am now listening to NPR podcast on about Ted Radio Hour which is based on TedTalks. The topic of the podcast is collaboration. I am liking the talk of collaboration because it can mean different things to different people.

After the podcast is over I plan on reading a book on Buddhism called Why Buddhism Is True. I am wanting to learn about Buddhism. I also got a book called Buddhist Scriptures. I am wanting to better myself and hope that Buddhism helps me on my recovery journey.

Thank you for reading. Have a wonderful weekend and Peace Out, World!!!

Keeping Busy Through Grief

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! Right now I am dealing with some sadness. Sadness about missing my grandma. I miss greatly miss my grandma. It’s going to be a hard few days for me. Tomorrow is Mother’s Day and Monday is the third month anniversary of my grandma’s death. I wish dealing with grief wasn’t so difficult.

I have been doing multiple things to help me with the grief I have been dealing with. One of the things I have been doing to creating my schedule for next week. Having a regular schedule helps me with my recovery.

Another thing I have been doing is painting. Painting and all forms of art help me express my emotions. The emotions that I can not express in words come through in my art.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Dealing With Grief

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! Today, I am getting together with my dad, grandpa and two uncles to celebrate Mother’s Day a day early in memory of my grandma. Tomorrow is going to be a difficult day for my family as well as myself because it is going to be the first Mother’s Day without my grandma.

To help with the grief with this weekend I have a lot planned. Some of what I have planned is as simple as stuff I do everyday. Stuff such as reading Star War: Heir To The Empire or painting or listening to Podcast. Reading and listening helps me forget about the loss for a temporary amount of time. Painting helps me express my emotions.

Thank you for reading. Have a great weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Up Too Early, Again

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! It is three o’clock in the morning and I am wide awake. I am not sure why I either don’t sleep or I am up at odd hours in the morning like I am now.

At least I am able to do something to keep me busy. I am going to be listening to Philosophize This. Philosophize This is a podcast on philosophy that I have been listening to for a while now. I have been attempting to catch up to the most recent one.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Painting to Help Through Axiety

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I am doing better than I was than my last post. I have been painting the last few hours. Painting has helped me express my emotions when I can not seem to put word to my emotions. One of these days I will share more paintings with you.

I think I am going to go to bed now. Have a great nights sleep. Goodnight and Peace Out, World!!!

Unexpected Anxiety

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I am struggling at the moment. I am have some severe anxiety symptoms for some reason. I have had a relatively good day.

I mean I spent time with my family. I made them lunch. Despite my dad being a little cranky and getting on my nerves all was good. My family was grateful that I made plenty of food for leftovers. It’s always nice spending time with my family.

I then came home and had a friend come over. She stayed for about an hour as she needed to get home to her family. But it was nice to visit with my friend for an hour. I love spending time with this friend even for a limited time.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!