The Oh So Elusive Thing Called Sleep

Hello, World!!! Once again I am having another night of what looks like of no sleep. Sleep is a major part of my recovery and to living everyday life. I guess that I am getting frustrated that I am not being able to sleep. Sleep is key for me to be stable.

Stable to where I can function as a productive member of society. Society that expects people like myself to work. Hell, I expect me to work because I know I am able to do so however my symptoms are getting the fucking what of being a functioning adult.

Now that I am done venting, I am going to attempt to get some sleep. Thank you so much for reading. Goodnight. Peace Out, World!!!

Saturday Morning Ramblings

Good Morning, World!!! I haven’t had the best of weeks. I’m just briefly checking in for the moment as I’m having a slightly rough go at it. I didn’t get much sleep again last night except it wasn’t because of insomnia. It was because I experienced yet another trauma. A trauma that I most likely will not discuss with you or at least in the current future.

I think I am going to work on my mindfulness workbook to help me get back into the right state of mind. Something else that will be helpful is to look over my DBT homework that I did last night and isn’t due to Friday.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Ugh!!! Someone Pulled The Fire Alarm

Hello, World!!! I’m getting frustrated as hell. Someone keeps pulling the pull station and it sets off the fire alarm. I was in the middle of working on one of my workbooks. I am now shaken up by this. It triggers my PTSD as I been in two fires.

Now that I have been triggered, I am going to do some mindfulness and meditation practices. I need to get back to being relaxed so I can sleep tonight.

I hope everyone has a great night. Thank you for reading my blog. Goodnight. Peace Out, World!!!

Just a Rambling or Two

Good Morning, World!!! I was able to get back to sleep after my last post discussing about how I woke up from a nightmare. Nightmares are not my idea of fun and not conducive to one getting sleep.

Right now I am thinking about my grandma and her funeral on Monday.  I miss her so much and its going to be difficult to say goodbye to her on Monday. I just want my grandma back so much. I love her so very much.

I think once I am done blogging I will do The Mindfulness Workbook that I’ve been working on. It’s helping me overcoming fear and embracing compassion. I am enjoying doing this workbook as well the other workbook I am doing.

I think I am going to get going and do my workbook. Thank you very much for reading my blog. It is much appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Friday Morning Bullsh*t

Good Morning, World!!! I, once again didn’t get any sleep last night. I am starting to get frustrated with this little to no sleep thing. I fear if I continue to not get any sleep that the symptoms of my mental health conditions will increase. This is something I’ll be discussing with Gilbert later on today.

If you been reading my blog the last couple of weeks, you know that I have been watching the Winter Olympics. It is something I have been enjoying and I am going to be sad when they end.

Todays starts spring training games for baseball. This means baseball is just around the corner. I love watching baseball. Hell, I loved playing baseball in little league. I wasn’t the best player on the team but I sure loved it.

Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Two In The Morning Ramblings

Good Morning, World!!! It is two o’clock in the morning in my corner of the world. I am of course having trouble sleeping once again. Sleep hasn’t come easy to me recently and as frustrating as it is, I am glad to have the skills I need to help me through sleepless nights.

One of the many skills I used tonight is art. I painted some. I also did some collaging. I actually collaged on some of my paintings and I personally think it looks really cool. But then again beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

Another skill I have been doing on sleepless nights like tonight is reading. I am still reading Ship of Magic. Yes, I realize it is taking me a while to read it but I’m enjoying it. Enjoying it is all that matters

I have also worked on my workbooks. Specifically, The Mindfulness Workbook as it gives me ideas to calm my mind to help me sleep or at least get some rest. Doing any of the workbooks is helpful to me and my recovery.

Thank you for reading. Goodnight. Peace Out, World!!!

Thursday Night Ramblings

Hello, World!!! It is eleven o’clock at night in my corner of the world. I have attempted to go to sleep yet I am unable to do so. I am hoping that I can get to sleep tonight as I took a nap earlier today because I was unable to sleep last night.

I have been using the Calm app to help me with my sleep. I find that it does help me get some great rest if I’m unable to sleep. Mindfulness and meditation helps me sleep as well as relax because it gets me to be in the present moment.

Being in present moment is always a good thing as it means I am in the here and now. Being in the here and now means I am able to enjoy the moment even if it is a negative moment. It is my goal to enjoy each moment as it comes even if it is a not so good moment.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Tough Moment = Reading Wonder Woman

Good Morning, World!!! It’s a beautiful sunny, frigid day in Seattle with snow on the ground. As beautiful as it is outside, I am emotionally not doing so well at the moment. I think part of it has to do with not being able to sleep for the last two nights.

As, I struggle to sleep I think I am going to read some Wonder Woman comic books as it is helpful to me. Plus it’s quite enjoyable to read comic books. I am happy that I have a dad that got me collecting Wonder Woman comics as it is something I can do for the rest of my life.

I am going to go and read. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

No Sleep in Snowy, Sunny Seattle

IMG_0284.JPGGood Morning, World!!! It is a sunny day in Seattle with snow on the ground. As you can tell from the picture above the sun is starting to come up. I just wanted to show you snow in Seattle when it is light outside.

I didn’t get any sleep last night and hope I can be able to take a nap at some point today. I also need to do some household chores. Chores I don’t really want to do but need to be done.

Thank you for reading. It’s very much appreciated. Have a good day. Peace Out, World!!!

Sleepless in Snowy Seattle

Good Morning, World!!! I am unable to sleep however I am enjoying watching the snow fall. It is rare when it snows in Seattle so it is both exciting and annoying. Exciting because it is beautiful and not a common occurrence in Seattle. It is an annoyance because nobody really knows how to drive in snow here in Seattle counting myself. But then again I don’t have a car and take public transportation.

Besides watching the snow fall, I am watching the Winter Olympics. I am loving the fact that the Olympics are on as they have been quite helpful for me get through some rough moments as well as some sleepless nights like tonight.

I am get going and watch the snow fall as well as the Olympics. Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!