Not Going to the Social Security Today

Good Morning, World!!! I was headed out to go to the social security office to take care of some business. Unfortunately, I threw up. I threw up in the hallway of my apartment building. I cleaned up my mess and well now I am curled up on my couch blogging.

I am planning on reading my Star Wars books as well as resting most of the day. I love reading and am grateful that my depression isn’t severe enough to have an effect on my concentration.

Thank you for reading. I hope everyone has an awesome day. Peace Out, Word!!!

Preparing for the Social Security Office

Good Morning, World!!! I am preparing to go to the Social Security office as they stopped giving me my hard earned money, I paid into the system. I am not looking forward to it as the Social Security office gives me really high anxiety.

To help me at the Social Security office I’m taking some stuff to help me while I wait. One thing I will be taking is one of my workbooks. A workbook about recovery and your strengths. Another thing I will be taking is my Star Wars book that I started read on Sunday. Reading is a great time to kill time while you wait.

I should get going so I can get ready. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

All I Want Is…

Good Morning, World!!! Right now all I want is sleep. I haven’t been to sleep yet. I just want to get to sleep especially since I have to be up in less than three hours to go to the social security office.

I have been reading my Star Wars book when I haven’t been pacing or trying to sleep. I think the reading is helping me through long hours of not doing anything as well as my anxiety.

Thank you for reading. Have a great day and Peace Out, World!!!

Working Through Depression & Anxiety

Good Evening, World!!! I am still struggling with the depression as stated in my last post. When I realized that my depression was still acting up, I needed to eat dinner. I had Macaroni and Cheese and Fried Chicken. Eating helped both the depression and anxiety.

I may not know why the depression is acting up but I know why the anxiety is acting up. It is acting up because I am going to the social security office tomorrow. I don’t do well when I go to the social security office. My anxiety acts up when I am there for some reason.

I have been reading my Star Wars: Heir To The Empire book. I am really enjoying the book immensely. I hope to write a book review on it when I am finished with it. For me reading has been quire helpful for me as of lately.

Thank you for reading. Have a great evening and Peace Out, World!!!

Too Much Sh*t On My Mind

Hello, World!!! I don’t know what to think right now. I have a lot of shit on my mind. I don’t know why I am having all this stuff going through my head.

I’m having trouble sleeping because of the shit going through my head. One thing I can’t seem to get out of my head is the trauma related stuff. Why can’t the PTSD give me a break? Especially, when I am wanting to go to sleep.

I am also thinking a lot about my grandma. I miss her so very much. I wish she was still here with me and my family. I know she is watching over me and is my guardian angel. She still looking out for me or I hope she still is.

I am also thinking about the money issues I am having because social security won’t make a decision about my case. I am still disabled. My disability didn’t all of a sudden disappear; although it would very nice if it did.

On the humorous side of things, I am also thinking about the Star Wars book I am reading. Of all things that I am thinking about I find this the best thing or the least anxiety provoking or painful.

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Celebrate uncle’s birthday
  • Workbooks

Monday

  • Blog
  • Social Security Office
  • Art Group
  • Workbooks
  • Read

Tuesday

  • Blog
  • Therapy
  • Read
  • Workbooks

Wednesday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Workbooks
  • Hang out with grandpa

Thursday

  • Blog
  • Yoga
  • Read
  • Hang out with friends
  • Workbooks

Friday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Workbooks

Saturday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Workbooks

Late Morning Ramblings

Hello, World!!! I am sitting here trying to figure out what to do with my day. I was suppose to go to a baseball game but the person who had the tickets gave them to a family who had never been to see a baseball game. I couldn’t be more proud of my friend as she did it out of love and compassion.

Life has a way to make you think. As much as I wanted to go to the baseball game to not have to deal with my reality of money and Social Security. Yes, I am worrying a little about it right now but I know in reality it is going to all work out.

I am loving my weighted blanket. It is proven money well spent. I slept well because of it last night. If you have the money to get one I recommend you get one if you have trouble with sleep and/or anxiety.

Thank you for reading!!! Peace Out, World!!!

Nothing but Just a Bunch of Rambling

Good Afternoon, World!!! First and fore most I am having anxiety as Social Security informed me that I am “no longer disabled” and are discontinuing money that I worked hard for. They are also telling me I owe them money when I told them of the over-payment to begin with. I am having really high anxiety over this yet I can not do anything about it till I go into the office about it. I plan on going on Monday as I am sure tomorrow will be busy as it is the day after everyone gets paid. I may have anxiety over it but there is nothing I can really do right now.

I am also really sad right now because I am missing my grandma. I miss her and I know she would tell me everything is going to work out. I just have to remember that. I know she is watching over me and will want me to not worry about the Social Security.

The one thing that is helping is helping is something I just got from Amazon which is a weighted blanket. It is helping with everything that is going on for me at the moment. I am sweating by the weighted blanket. It is quite helpful.

I also saw my therapist today. I discussed with him my social security issue and he is going to help me the best he is able to do. I then checked in with him about a half an hour ago to inform him about how the weighted blanket is being of major help and how I wasn’t expecting till tomorrow. He really wants to help me the best he way is able to do so.

Thank you so for reading my blog. It mean the world!!! Peace Out, World!!!

Fun Times At The DSHS Office, NOT

Good Morning, World!!! I had to go to the Department of Social and Human Services (DSHS) office to get back on Medicaid as Social Security stopped part of my disability benefits. It’s frustrating as hell when you pay into the system and unable to get your full benefits.

As I was in the at the DSHS office I found out I will be getting food stamps as well as them paying for my Medicare premiums which will be quite helpful for me. I just need to figure out how to pay for my bills.

This is where having a great support system comes in. Having friends to help in tough times including tough financial times is great. I wish everyone could have awesome friends like me.

Thank you for reading. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Another Morning at the Social Security Office

Good Morning, World!!! It’s another day and I am back at the social security office. Hopefully, I get what I need taken care of today as the social security office gives me high anxiety.

I also want to get what I need taken care of today because of how my grandma is doing. I just want my issue with Social Security taken care of as it is time sensitive per Social Security and per me. Though my reasons are different than Social Security’s reason.

They just called me up so I need to get going. Have a great day!!! Happy Valentines Day, World!!!