Just Another Rambling Post

Good Evening, World!!! It has been one of those days where I was not exactly feeling well. By not feeling well I mean I had a slight depression mode most of today. I am not one hundred percent sure why but I know the lack of sleep played some part of the mild depression today. Thankfully, I am feeling better now and my cat, Billie helped me a lot to feel better.

Over the last few days I ordered some stuff from Amazon. I ordered mostly crafting and art stuff. I did order other stuff but that is for another post. Now back on to the art and crafty stuff. I ordered painting stuff as well as coloring stuff. I also ordered cross stitching stuff. I also ordered this new type of art work called diamond painting. You don’t use paint, you use this little stick on stuff that is tiny as hell but looks like fun and challenging. So with everything I am getting from Amazon over the next several days, I know I will have a lot to do but first I need to clean my apartment.

Besides all the crafty and art stuff along with needing to clean my apartment, I have awesome news.If you been reading my blog on the regular basis you know I have a very part time job where I work twelve hours a week at four hours a shift for three days. Anyway I put in my resignation today because I got a full time job as a peer support specialist. Yes, I got a new job and I start in January. I am so very excited that I will be working as a peer specialist again.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Happy Holidays and Peace Out, World!!!

Plans & Hopes for the Near & Far Future

Hello, World!!! It is just barely after twelve thirty in the middle of the night here in Seattle. I just wanted to tell you my hopes and plans as well as how I plan on doing all this, specifically for my future. A few months ago I ordered what I thought was a set of two journals from Amazon which turned out to be a set of six journals. So, earlier yesterday (Sunday) afternoon, I figured out what I am going to with the journals. So, I am going to start the day writing a journal entry with what my hopes and plans for the day will be. At the end of the day I will journal as well regarding what I accomplished for the day regarding my plans and if my hopes for the day were what I hoped for.

My hopes and plans coincide with each other as it is not only recovery related to my mental health recovery as well as just everyday stuff. So my everyday plans are to go to work when scheduled and to clean my apartment as my apartment is a disaster area as well as continue to go to therapy. Now my hopes that I plan on becoming plans is to learn about tarot cards and do a specific tarot journal on what the tarot cards tell me. Another hope that I plan on becoming plans is to do workbooks to help with my recovery. In all actuality, I think my hopes and plans will ultimately help with my mental health even though my mental health is doing quite well at the moment.

It is getting late and I am getting tired so I am going to end this particular blog post. Thank for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Happy Holidays and Peace Out, World!!!

Lazy Type of Day

Good Afternoon, World!!! It has been a lazy day. I started off the day reading the first two chapters of a holiday book when I woke up this morning with my cat Billie on my lap as I was sipping some hot teat. I started getting a little sleeping from reading even though the book appears to be so far so good in the first two chapter.

On that note I really did not want to go back to sleep and take a nap since I had already just woken up from a good night sleep. I decided to buy some stuff off of Amazon. Mostly, I purchased artsy and crafty and stuff with one exception of more tarot cards and a beginners guide to the beginners guide to tarot cards and guides. I have course will spend the rest of the day with my cat, Billie. Not sure if I will continue to read or end up watching movies.

As far as tomorrow goes, I plan on volunteering at PAWS Cat City. Of course when I get home, I will spend time with Billie. After that I will do some much need house hold chores of cleaning my apartment. So, tomorrow is going to be my chore day.

I do not have much more to say for this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. Happy Holidays and Peace Out, World!!!

Middle of the Night Ramblings

Happy Middle of the Night World or at least it here in Seattle. I ordered some crafting stuff from Amazon. Specifically, I ordered Latch Hook crafting. Not sure how well, I’ll do at it but its worth trying. I am getting impatient for them to arrive even though I order most of them yesterday (Monday, September 5th) and some will arrive sometime today, September 6th.

I’m hoping that I can finish two or three to donate to a local animal shelter to action off during a fundraising event. Not sure how they will turn out but I would love to help in anyway I can and learn a new craft while doing it.

Another thing I hope doing Latch Hook can help improve my depression and PTSD as well as my other mental health diagnosis and symptoms. I really wish I wasn’t laid off as it would be helpful for my mental health symptom.

As far as my cat, Billie, he has been attached to me today. I think he is picking up on my anxiety. I love my cat so much and how he knows when to comfort me..

I want to thank you for ready blog. I don’t have much more to say. Just thank you for reading my blog..

A Disturbing Way to Start a New Year by Coloring; Do a Disney Horror Coloring Book

Saw fart this is what I have what I have done with my start of my Disney Horror coloring books.

So, I ordered a morbid Disney graphic coloring book off of Amazon to have as I have love hate with relationship with Disney. I was going to see if my clients would want to do them as well. I quickly realized it would not be great for my clients to do. So I am have decided I will work on this particular horrific Disney coloring book myself and share my progress with you my reader. So here is the start of the first picture. I hope you like it so far. It will get more morbid as I do more pictures. I hope I can share this on a regular basis as I am sure the farther along I get in the coloring book the more morbid it gets. This is not the Disney I knew growing up near Disneyland. I’m pretty sure this is not the Disney any of knew in our childhood.

I don’t know have much more to say expect to say thank you for reading my blog plots. I appreciate it from my things that you read blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader I wouldn’t be writing my blog. Thank you again from reading my blog.. Peace Out, World!!!

A Sleepless in Seattle Type of Night

Good Morning, World!!! It is just after three o’clock in the morning here in Seattle. Sadly, I cannot sleep. I am blaming it on insomnia. Insomnia sucks shit. At least I have today off so I can take it easy. Also, my cat, Billie Dean, is keeping me company with laying right beside me at the moment as I type this blog post.

The things that have been keeping me busy tonight since I am unable to sleep is listening to music while I do some art. I am listening to some AC/DC and Guns & Roses as I color. I am coloring a Mandela from a coloring book I bought on Amazon. As much as I am not a fan of buying stuff on Amazon, I am grateful for the coloring book options. For some reason coloring a Mandela while listening to eighty’s rock music is quite soothing. I love AC/DC and Gun & Roses.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post as I want to try to get some sleep. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it weren’t for you the reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

It’s Friday & the Start of the Weekend for Most People

Happy Friday, World!!! Friday’s are the start of the weekends for most people who would nine to five jobs, Monday through Friday. This schedule is similar to mine most weeks except this week as I needed to take a mental health day from work. I slept most of the day and am still sleepy as hell even though it is evening in here in Seattle.

I think the only reason why I am not I am not napping at the moment is because I am waiting for a package from Amazon. We all know how Amazon is with packages. They either claim to be delivered when they are not or they don’t follow delivery instructions which could lead to theft of the package. I am some are supplies I am expecting so I can do some coloring in my coloring book that will make it stand out more color wise.

As I sit here typing this blog post, I am listening to my favorite podcast on philosophy. That podcast is Philosophize This. I highly encourage you to listen to it. I know philosophy isn’t everyone’s cup a tea but I do ask that you give it a try to listen to the first two or three episodes.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog post because if it wasn’t for you my reading I wouldn’t be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great weekend ahead. Peace Out, World!!!

A Wednesday Evening Post

Good Evening, World!!! I am still dealing with increased Depression and PTSD symptoms and have emailed my therapist regarding it. I emailed my therapist regarding the increased symptoms just to have him be aware of the situation even though I personally think the increased mental health symptoms are due to the health issues I am dealing with. The health issues I am dealing with happen to be a “severe Urinary Tract Infection (UTI) and mild right Kidney Infection.” It is not uncommon for me to have an increase mental health symptoms whenever I have an UTI which just makes things the much more uncomfortable. My therapist emailed me back about the email sent him about me struggling and he too “hope symptoms improves” as my infections improve. I am grateful that I have a therapist that is supportive.

I just got back from Red Robin with a friend who lives in my apartment building. I treated my friend to Red Robin as a thank you for putting up with my shit. My friend is an awesome individual and extremely caring. She was and is very appreciative of me taking her to Red Robin. We ended up having the same thing at Red Robin which was The Whiskey Barbecue Burger with bottomless fries. She had an ice tea to drink while I had a freckled lemonade which is strawberry lemonade. It was nice to spend time with a good friend at my favorite restaurant.

When I arrived home from dinner at Red Robin with my friend, I noticed that the three books I ordered from Amazon arrived. Thankfully, they left them outside my apartment door instead of outside the apartment building door. The three books I ordered are about race as I want to be a better ally to people of color. I also order two more books from Amazon about race. One of which should arrive tomorrow and the other book is on back order and should arrive at the end of September. I am going to start off reading the book “How To Be An AntiRacist” by Ibram X. Kendi. I will let you know how the book is and will do a book review on it. Reading is one of my go to things to help my mental health symptoms and anytime I can be educated on anything is a plus. I really hope I can get a better understanding about race as I want to be the best ally I can be. If anyone has any books about race to suggest, it would be greatly appreciated. Remember, I have three that arrived today including the one I mention, two on the way from Amazon and one in my Amazon cart. So, if you suggest a book that I may have or will have don’t take offence if I say something that “I have it” or “its on the way” or “its in the cart.” I look forward to all the good reads.

I do not have much more to say. I want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a good rest of your evening as well as your week. Peace Out, World!!!

Depression Strikes, Again

Good Evening, World!!! Right now I am struggling with depression and anxiety. I am not sure why as it was an overall good day. Symptoms come at the most inopportune time especially those associated with PTSD.

I have been doing my workbook on mindfulness. It has been quite helpful for me working this workbook as well as the other workbooks I am doing. I am finding that using mindfulness is helping me with my reactivity and how I respond to things.

I also ordered three Star Wars books from Amazon as they were giving deals on Star Wars stuff. I got one of the books for free. I am looking forward to reading the Star Wars books as I am a huge fan of the Movies.

Speaking of reading I read today as well. I am finally getting some where in one of the books I am reading. It is finally getting good. I love to read.

Thank you for reading. May the 4th be with you. Peace Out, World!!

Nothing but Just a Bunch of Rambling

Good Afternoon, World!!! First and fore most I am having anxiety as Social Security informed me that I am “no longer disabled” and are discontinuing money that I worked hard for. They are also telling me I owe them money when I told them of the over-payment to begin with. I am having really high anxiety over this yet I can not do anything about it till I go into the office about it. I plan on going on Monday as I am sure tomorrow will be busy as it is the day after everyone gets paid. I may have anxiety over it but there is nothing I can really do right now.

I am also really sad right now because I am missing my grandma. I miss her and I know she would tell me everything is going to work out. I just have to remember that. I know she is watching over me and will want me to not worry about the Social Security.

The one thing that is helping is helping is something I just got from Amazon which is a weighted blanket. It is helping with everything that is going on for me at the moment. I am sweating by the weighted blanket. It is quite helpful.

I also saw my therapist today. I discussed with him my social security issue and he is going to help me the best he is able to do. I then checked in with him about a half an hour ago to inform him about how the weighted blanket is being of major help and how I wasn’t expecting till tomorrow. He really wants to help me the best he way is able to do so.

Thank you so for reading my blog. It mean the world!!! Peace Out, World!!!