My plans for this evening is to stay home and watch movies. Hell, my partner Junior will be joining me at my place to watch movies with me. Let me not forget that my cat, Billie will of course be at home watching movies with me and my boyfriend, Junior. I am looking forward to watching movies on a streaming site at home with my partner and cat. There is nothing like being home in my pajamas with my cat and my boyfriend. I am not sure what movies we will be watching but I am just glad to be with my cat and partner.
Monthly Archives: January 2025
Daily Prompt; How Do You Relax?
There are many ways that I relax. One of the ways that I have relaxed since I was a child is the water. I spent the first sixteen years of my life in California and there was not a week that I didn’t go to the beach at least once. Now that I live in Seattle, I go to various lakes as well as various places to access the Puget Sound. One of those things is taking the one hour ferry ride from Seattle to Bremerton. The water is so peaceful and relaxing. I go to the water at least once a week.
Another way I relax is by doing some artwork. I usually do art by coloring or diamond art/painting. I do paint rock on the occasional basis. I really like doing artwork as a way to relax and to be creative.
Another way I relax is music. I love listening to it as loud as my neighbors can tolerate when it is not quiet hours. I also love playing music on my flute even though I suck at it. It truly helps me relax.
Last but not least cats help me relax. That is one of the reasons why I volunteer with cats. Hell, that is why I have my cat, Billie. He helps me relax and I love him so very much. Anyone who has pets of any kind knows how relaxing they are. I love how Billie helps me relax.
A Good Day & Yet I’m Currently Dissociating
Good Evening, World!!! It has been a good day for me here in Seattle yet I am currently dissociating which suck shit. I am not really one hundred percent sure why I am dissociating which is scary as hell but I am sure that it is PTSD related. I do know it was a cold foggy day here in Seattle which is probably why my depression symptoms are slightly worse. Like I said I have had a good day and I have been in a really good mood. I will take a good day and a good mood with slightly elevated depression symptoms over a shitty day any day of the week.
Something I realized around the time I got hurt by a neighbor in the summer of 2023 when my dissociation started getting bad again, I color when I am dissociated. It is usually a giant poster or two that are mandala type and/or kaleidoscope type poster. I also color smaller posters that are about eight by ten (or maybe eight by twelve). The smaller posters that I am doing are sort of the similar designs as the giant poster. I only color these particular posters while I have other posters I color and focus on when I am not dissociated. You can tell just by the coloring and the mindset I am in. I think I am going to cuddle with my cat Billie as I do some coloring. My cat is even more of a lap kitty or velcro kitty when I am dissociating. I think my cat Billie does this to make sure I am safe. I love my cat, Billie so very much.
I do not have anything else to write about or to talk about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, than you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!
Daily Prompt; Was Today Typical?
So far it has been a typical day for me. It is only nine o’clock in the morning here in Seattle so I can only say that so far it has been a typical day. I do my mindfulness meditation practice this morning. I also did my morning walk. Thankfully it was not raining but it sure was cold. I then came home to shower and eat breakfast. I then cuddled with my cat, Billie like I always do. Now, I am blogging and afterwards I will go see my psychiatric nurse practitioner and then go get my meds. So, yes so far it has been a typical day.
Today Would’ve Been My Grandma’s 95th Birthday
Good Evening, World!!! Today would have been my paternal 95th grandma’s birthday if she were still alive. Sadly, she passed away exactly a month after her 88th birthday. That meant she died on Valentines Day. So this Valentines Day will mark seven years since she died. She and my grandpa helped my dad raise me. I owe my grandmother a lot of gratitude and appreciation as she was a motherly figure to me. I miss her so much but I am glad she is no longer suffering.
I do not have much else to write about or discuss in this blog post except that I am glad she and my grandpa helped my dad raise me. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!
Daily Prompt; Jot Down the First Thing That Comes to Your Mind
The first thing that comes to mind happens to be the fires in Los Angeles. I spent the first sixteen years of my life in the Los Angeles area so it has a special place in my heart. I am sad and devastated that so many people lost their homes, schools, jobs and businesses. I just knew how to help as I don’t have the money to donate nor the money to go down there to help volunteer someplace. I am checking in with friends who are being affected by the fire. I just wish there was more I could do.
Daily Prompt; What Topics Do You Like To Discuss?
The topics I like to discuss are cats, mental health challenges and recovery. I love talking about cats because I have one myself and volunteering with cats at two different animal welfare nonprofit organizations. I love cats and love talking about them.
The other topic I like to discuss is mental health challenges and recovery. People without mental health challenges tend to think that those of us who have them are not productive members of society. I also like to discuss mental health and recovery because I am in recovery and I have worked in the mental health field.
Another Sleepless In Seattle Type Of Night
Good Morning, World!!! I am once again sleepless in Seattle. At least there was no family drama involved this time around like last night. Sadly, my depression and PTSD symptoms have not decreased much due to being so hypervigilant from last nights family drama. I really dislike hypervigilance and wish I did not have PTSD.
Since I am unable to sleep again and dealing with the aftermath of the family drama of last night I have been cuddling with my cat, Billie. In fact he is all curled up in my lap as I type this particular blog. My cat, Billie has been curled up sleeping as I do some artwork. The type of artwork I am doing is coloring a gigantic coloring poster. I love coloring and enjoy doing it especially when my cat, Billie is curled up on my lap or beside me.
I do not have anything else to talk about nor to write about in this particular blog post except that I hope that I can get some sleep. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!
Weekly Plans
Sunday
- Mindfulness meditation practice through the Calm App.
- Morning walk
- Volunteer at PAWS Cat City
- Attend an in person 12 step meeting
- Work on recovery related workbooks
- Read
- Artwork (diamond art/painting)
Monday
- Mindfulness meditation practice through the Calm App
- Morning walk
- Attend an online virtual 12 step meeting
- Go to the DSHS office
- Volunteer with Alley Cat Project
- Work on recovery related workbooks
- Attend a second online virtual 12 step meeting
- Read
- Artwork (diamond art/painting)
Tuesday
- Mindfulness meditation practice through the Calm App
- Morning walk
- Attend an online virtual 12 step meeting
- Appointment with my employment specialist
- Appointment with my peer specialist
- Volunteer with Alley Cat Project
- Work on recovery related workbooks
- Read
- Artwork (diamond art/painting)
Wednesday
- Mindfulness meditation practice through the Calm App
- Morning walk
- Attend an online virtual 12 step meeting
- Appointment with psychiatric nurse practitioner
- Volunteer with Alley Cat Project
- Attend a second online virtual 12 step meeting
- Work on recovery related workbooks
- Read
- Artwork (diamond art/painting)
Thursday
- Mindfulness meditation practice through the Calm App
- Morning walk
- Attend an online virtual 12 step meeting
- Work on recovery related workbooks
- Read
- Artwork (diamond art/painting)
Friday
- Mindfulness meditation practice through the Calm App
- Morning walk
- Attend an online virtual 12 step meeting
- Work on recovery related workbooks
- Go to the movies with my partner
- Read
- Artwork (diamond art/painting)
Saturday
- Mindfulness meditation practice through the Calm App
- Morning walk
- Go to the U-District Farmers Market
- Attend an online virtual 12 step meeting
- Go to the movies (again) with my partner
- Work on recovery related workbooks
- Read
- Artwork (diamond art/painting)
Family Drama + Middle of Night + PTSD + Insomnia = Sleepless in Seattle Type of Night
Good Morning, World!!! Sadly, more family drama has been occurring and this time in the middle of the night. My aunt is upset with me at the moment due to the fact that I will now no longer be paying for her train ticket to go my mom’s funeral at the end of this month. I asked multiple times via phone calls and text messages and she made it clear to me that she “doesn’t need help paying for a stupid train ticket.” So, when I bought mine, I didn’t buy hers. My aunt has been calling me and my other aunt who lives in Texas all night. My aunt in Texas is on my side due to the fact that I offered multiple times and was told “no” multiple times. My aunt in Texas is extremely angry with my other aunt because of being woken up multiple times. In fact my aunt in Texas blocked my other aunt so she could get some sleep. In fact I took my aunt who lives in Texas lead and blocked my other aunt as well. Sadly, my angry aunt called my two uncles and sadly got them involved. One uncle is on my side while the other uncle is upset but thinks I should pay for my aunts train ticket to “keep the peace” even though my aunt has said “no” multiple times but understands why I am not. Sadly, my uncles have now blocked my aunt so they can get some sleep.
Even though I blocked this aunt I am not able to get back to sleep due to insomnia and an increase of PTSD symptoms due to the family drama. Since I am unable to sleep I am cuddling with my cat, Billie. As I cuddle with my cat, Billie, I am reading an awesome book. The book I am reading is Sacrifice by Nikole Knight. Sacrifice is book two in the Fire and Brimstone series by Nikole Knight. I am really enjoying the book. In fact cuddling with my cat, Billie, and reading has been helping with the PTSD symptoms.
I do not have anything else to write about or even to discuss in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you my reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!
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