Tag Archives: Family

Dealing With Grief

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! Today, I am getting together with my dad, grandpa and two uncles to celebrate Mother’s Day a day early in memory of my grandma. Tomorrow is going to be a difficult day for my family as well as myself because it is going to be the first Mother’s Day without my grandma.

To help with the grief with this weekend I have a lot planned. Some of what I have planned is as simple as stuff I do everyday. Stuff such as reading Star War: Heir To The Empire or painting or listening to Podcast. Reading and listening helps me forget about the loss for a temporary amount of time. Painting helps me express my emotions.

Thank you for reading. Have a great weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Unexpected Anxiety

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I am struggling at the moment. I am have some severe anxiety symptoms for some reason. I have had a relatively good day.

I mean I spent time with my family. I made them lunch. Despite my dad being a little cranky and getting on my nerves all was good. My family was grateful that I made plenty of food for leftovers. It’s always nice spending time with my family.

I then came home and had a friend come over. She stayed for about an hour as she needed to get home to her family. But it was nice to visit with my friend for an hour. I love spending time with this friend even for a limited time.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Visiting Family

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Hello, World!!! I am visiting with my family right now. I am visiting with my grandma, dad, and an uncle. My dad is in a cranky mood which is nothing new. My uncle is being chill as usual and my grandpa is reading like he usually does.

Since I am here I decided I would blog. I am also going to fix a meal for my family. I have already done a load of my grandpa’s laundry even though he told me I didn’t have to do so. I just wanted to do something nice for my grandpa.

My dad is starting to get annoyed with the smallest shit I do now. All I am doing is cooking a meal. I am making my family fried chicken and macaroni and cheese with carrots.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Random Thoughts

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Good Evening, World!!! I just woke up from a four hour nap. I just hope I can sleep tonight. I doubt I will be able to sleep but I will still try to do so.

Other than the late nap, I am doing well. I got my social security stuff taken care of even it it is just a temporary solution for now. I am not going to be complaining about the temporary solution because I am grateful for it.

I talked to brother today. He and I have the same mom but different dads. He hopes he made the right decision in contacting his aunt on his dads side. Jay is an awesome brother. He is extremely protective of me despite him being eleven years younger than me.

I better get going as I don’t have much else to say. Have a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

Too Much Sh*t On My Mind

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Hello, World!!! I don’t know what to think right now. I have a lot of shit on my mind. I don’t know why I am having all this stuff going through my head.

I’m having trouble sleeping because of the shit going through my head. One thing I can’t seem to get out of my head is the trauma related stuff. Why can’t the PTSD give me a break? Especially, when I am wanting to go to sleep.

I am also thinking a lot about my grandma. I miss her so very much. I wish she was still here with me and my family. I know she is watching over me and is my guardian angel. She still looking out for me or I hope she still is.

I am also thinking about the money issues I am having because social security won’t make a decision about my case. I am still disabled. My disability didn’t all of a sudden disappear; although it would very nice if it did.

On the humorous side of things, I am also thinking about the Star Wars book I am reading. Of all things that I am thinking about I find this the best thing or the least anxiety provoking or painful.

My Saturday

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Good Evening, World!!! I have had a good day. I first had lunch with my family to celebrate my uncle’s birthday. He liked the card I made him as well as the picture I painted for him. He know where he is “going to put it.”

After lunch with my family I hung out with a friend from elementary school and junior high. I made her spaghetti as it is her favorite meal. It was nice to see her. We hang out every two months or so.

Now that my friend left, I am blogging about my day. I now plan on reading one of my new books. A Star Wars book. I am looking forward to reading it.

Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Day With Family & Friends

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Good Morning, World!!! I am looking forward to today as I get to spend it with family. We are celebrating my uncle’s birthday. Spending time with family is always nice for the most part.

I am also looking forward to having dinner with a friend I went to elementary school and junior high with. We try to get together every two to three months. In fact I am making her spaghetti for dinner as it is her favorite meal.

Thank you for reading. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

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Sunday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Celebrate uncle’s birthday
  • Workbooks

Monday

  • Blog
  • Social Security Office
  • Art Group
  • Workbooks
  • Read

Tuesday

  • Blog
  • Therapy
  • Read
  • Workbooks

Wednesday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Workbooks
  • Hang out with grandpa

Thursday

  • Blog
  • Yoga
  • Read
  • Hang out with friends
  • Workbooks

Friday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Workbooks

Saturday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Workbooks

Time With Grandpa

Posted on by Gertie

Good Afternoon, World!!! I am visiting my grandpa right now. My grandpa is doing well. We have been playing Monopoly most of the visit and are taking a break. I am enjoying my time with him. I am visiting him because we are both having trouble with grief over my grandma.

Missing my grandma is difficult and that is why I am keeping myself busy. Busy with various things.  Spending time with people like my grandpa and later on with Junior and some of our friends.

Another way I have been keeping myself busy is reading. Reading has been one of my go to things as of lately to help me. To help me through some difficult moments.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Thankfully, Not Hospitalized

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! There was an hour or two where I thought I could be hospitalized due to hitting a brick wall with my hand and thankfully it is NOT going to happen. Everyone was in agreement with me that the hospital would not be beneficial to me this time around. So, with everyone in agreement, I am not going to be admitted to the hospital.

My therapist and I discussed my self harm actions this morning and did what is called a chain analysis. If you’re familiar with Dialectical Behavioral Therapy (DBT) then you know what I am talking about. It is hard for me to describe what one is but it is extremely helpful. My therapist and I also discussed my family. Specifically, my parents and their addictions to drug and alcohol. My dad is in active recovery while my mom is not in recovery whatsoever. We talked about how I learned from their mistakes and chose not to drink or use drugs. I told my therapist that I don’t need more issues on top of the ones I already have.

I’ll write more later. I am just really tired and in pain from hitting a brick wall. Thank you so very much for reading. It is very much appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!