Evening Ramblings

Good Evening, World. Right now I am just fighting through some anxiety. Anxiety that is being reduced my Lil Gertie. I’m going to be seeing my therapist tomorrow and we will be discussing my anxiety and how my cat has been helping reduce the symptoms of it.

As you may know if you read my blog regularly I am using advertisements to earn some extra money. They will not pay you till you hit at least one hundred dollars. All I made for the month of April is nine dollars and seventy four cents. Well, at least it is a start. A start in the right direction.

Today, I adulted. I paid most of my June bill already. The only thing I have to pay is my credit card bill and I can do that tomorrow. Being responsible with paying on bills is always a good thing. I also but kitty litter and food for Lil Gertie. I also got her a bed to sleep in. It will go on the end of my bed at night and next to my chair during the day.

I have been doing a lot of scrap booking today. I painted a picture in my scrap book just for the hell of it. It is my scrap book to help me remember the events of my life so why not remember painting.

I think I am going to go now. Have a great day. Peace Out World!!!

Afternoon Ramblings

Good Afternoon, World!!! I have been sleeping most of the day. I didn’t sleep very well last night so I took a nap. A much needed nap. A nap where Lil Gertie cuddled up to me. She is still napping.

I did buy Lil Gertie a kitty bed, kitty litter and some wet food. She is sleeping in her be only because I put it in her favorite place. She appears to like the bed. I don’t hear her complaining about it.

I am not sure what I might do after blogging the post. I think I might work on my scrap book as I have been enjoying doing it. I am looking forward to showing it to people including my therapist. My grandpa is eager to see the scrap book after he gets done with his trip. I even painted a picture in my scrap book.

I don’t have much more to say so I guess, I will end the post. Thanks so much for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Busy Lil Bee Being In Recovery

Good Morning, World!!! I haven’t been back to sleep since my last post. I have been busy since my last post. I read a little bit. I read about Buddhism. If you regularly read my blog you know I have been looking into Buddhism. I am looking into it as I haven’t really been searching spiritual wise the last couple of years. Spirituality is a part of being in recovery. Being in recovery is something I have aspired to be and have been for quite some time. Yes, I have had bumps in the road. Yes, I have fallen however I have picked myself up and wiped myself off.

Being in recovery means doing things that are difficult. For me doing workbooks is quite challenging for me as it pushes me to aspire to be the person I am meant to be. This morning, I have chosen to work on the workbook that focuses me being queer and resilient. Being able to push myself with my gender identity, queerness and resiliency goes right along with my values in my personal recovery path with mental health challenges.

Being in recovery is a major deal for me. I was informed that I would never be in recovery from a mental health condition because my symptoms were so severe. Never tell me I can’t do something because I end up proving you wrong with being able to do it.

Thank you for reading. Have a nice Wednesday. Peace Out, World!!!

Cat = Help With PTSD

Good Morning, World!!! I woken up by Lil Gertie. She licked me smack dab on the nose. Some how this cat knows when I am having a nightmare or some other symptom of PTSD. I’m not sure how she knows but she knows.

I think once I am done blogging this post, I will read. Read about Buddhism. I am learning so many different things about this religion. A religion that knows that you’re going to struggle yet doesn’t shame or guilt you into a being something you are not. It encourages you to strive to be the best you are.

Having a faith in something spiritual is key to being in recovery for anyone. It doesn’t have to be Buddhism or even Christianity. Just as you have faith in something. For me it is Buddhism. Or at least for now it is because I am looking into it, to make sure it is the right faith for me.

Thank you for reading. Have a good morning. Peace Out, World!!!

Middle of the Night Ramblings

Good Morning, World!!! I just got done watching the Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon. He is a very funny person. I am planning on going to bed within the next hour. Lil Gertie is smack dab in the middle of my bed. If she is still there when I go to be, I will move her.

I am planning on watching M*A*S*H after I am done blogging. Watching something that is a comedy or has humor involved helps with my anxiety especially before bed. Some how laughter helps me sleep.

I haven’t really done much all day as I didn’t have much planned but an interview that got cancelled. It was a nice and relaxing day for me. I read a great deal. I read about Buddhism. I also read Buddhist Scriptures.

Thank you for reading. Goodnight and Peace Out, World!!!

Fun Doesn’t = Anxiety

Good Afternoon, World!!! I am sitting here blogging as I watch The Ellen Show on television. Lil Gertie is sitting by my side purring. I have been having anxiety all day and Lil Gertie has been helping. Watching Ellen is proven to be helpful as well. It has proven to be helpful due to the fact she is funny as hell. I would love to be in the audience of the Ellen Show but fear being on television.

I have been working on my scrapbook a great deal today. It is starting to come along. I am looking forward to showing it to people including my therapist. Since my therapist is new to me, showing him a scrap book of what is important to me might help him get to know me a little bit more. Scrap booking is like painting for me. It is a way to express my emotions.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Late Morning Ramblings

Good Morning, World!!! I am a little disappointed as I went to my job interview and it didn’t happen. It didn’t happen because one of the interviewers wasn’t there due to a family emergency. So, the interview got rescheduled for next Monday.

Now that I am home, I have been scrap booking. I have been adding pictures of Lil Gertie as well as Wonder Woman items. So, I have been adding two of my favorite things; my cat and my favorite super hero. I love to scrap book.

Lil Gertie has been helpful to me regarding my anxiety today. Not job interview anxiety but anxiety as a whole. Anxiety that appears to be reduced by Lil Gertie.

I think I am going to get going. Thank you for reading. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Kitty Talk Plus Other Stuff

Good Morning, World!!! I was able to get back to sleep after being woken up by my cat early this morning. Lil Gertie did this adorable yet loud meow to wake me up. She woke me up in the middle of a nightmare. A nightmare that is horrific.

I have a job interview today at my previous employer. An interview for a Peer Specialist in their Substance Use Disorder (SUD) program. I am looking forward to the interview. I hope I get the job.

Apparently, Starbucks is closing early today. They are closing early to discuss with their employees about race and racism. It is about fucking time Starbucks discusses this situation. I don’t go into Starbucks because of the employees racist remarks as well as other discriminatory remarks.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Gotta Love My Kitty

Good Morning, World!!! My cat has this adorable meow that tends to startle me at this hour in the morning. I love her so much. At this hour in the morning all she wants to do is play. She is an amazing little kitty. I’ve noticed she does her cute playful meow this time of morning when I am having a nightmare. I think she does it to wake me up from the nightmare to prevent it from getting worse. I don’t know how animals are able to sense it but they do.

I finally was informed on how much I earned from the advertisements and it is not all that much. I just have to wait to get it till it reaches the one hundred dollar mark to be able to claim it which sucks shit. So if you all can do me a favor and click on the advertisements that would be great.

I think I am going to be doing some scrap booking. Since Lil Gertie got me up, I might as well as be productive. I love making scrap books as they remind me of all the good things that happen in my life. Looking at them helps with the remembering of good things. Good things that are becoming more and more, the older I get.

Thank you for reading. Have a great Tuesday everyone. Peace Out, World!!!

Nothing But Random Thoughts

Good Afternoon, World!!! I know it is Memorial Day here in the United States however I found out today that I have a job interview tomorrow for a Peer Specialist position at my previous employer. It is for their Substance Use Disorder (SUD) program. I am looking forward to it.

I have been scrap booking most of the day. I have fun doing it. I am looking forward to showing it to my therapist. My therapist enjoys the fact that I do creative stuff like scrap booking. Although I am pretty sure he is unaware that I scrap book because I have never informed him nor do I think it was documented in therapeutic notes.

I also been working on my strengths based recovery workbook today. The topic I am working on is courage and hope. It is discussing how having an attitude of hope and courage can help one on their recovery process.

Having things to do helps. It helps with the symptoms of my mental health conditions. Keeping busy is what helps reduce my symptoms.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!