Intro to Poetry; Day 2: Face

Today’s poem is about “faces” and I know the picture is of a skull but it has a face. I wanted to challenge myself with today’s poem. I name him Mr. Skull Face. I hope to keep you update on him one I start on him. The poem of him is below.

Mr. Skull Face

by Gertie

Mr. Skull Face is a cross stitch

that yet has to be started.

Once started and finished,

Mr. Skull Face will be a piece of work

and a piece of beauty.

Not Sure What I’m Getting Myself Into; Except to Improve Myself; Maybe Just a Little too Fast

Good Morning, World!!! I think I over did it with things to do for self care and self improvement. Especially, since I start my new job next Monday. The reason I said I over did it was because I want to learn crafting by cross stich and latch hook.

I also bought my art supplies. I bought some painting supplies like paint brushes, paint and canvas. Not sure what I’m going to paint but a neighbor will teach me. As far as art supplies regarding coloring stuff, I bought my markers, colored pencils and some pictures to color.

In fact I am coloring a poster for my mom’s birthday in September. I jus hope she likes it especially since I’m going to frame it. I know she will like it.

I also ordered some math books so I can freshen up on my math skills. I’m sure this is going to frustrate the fuck out of me but I am okay with that.

Another thing I’m going to do is do one on the many recovery workbooks I have. I don’t know where I’m going to have time to do all this with the new job buut I know I can do it.

Everyday Inspiration; Day 2 , Write A List

Things I am learning

  • I’m learning to play the harmonica. (I already know how to play music as I play the flute. I don’t play it very well but I hope it helps me learn to play learn to play the harmonica.)
  • I am learning to do crafts. Specifically, cross stich. I am starting with the kid stamped cross stitch first so I can start from the beginning like a child.
  • I am starting to eat heather as I want eat less just food
  • I am going to do two walks a day. One in the morning which I already do and do one in the evening which I don’t do yet. I will start the evening walk tonight.

Morning Ramblings

Good Morning, World!!! I haven’t gotten any sleep and I am okay with that as I was able to spend quality time with Lil Gertie. As tired as I am, I am grateful for the time I had with Lil Gertie. She is an awesome lil kitty.

When I wasn’t spending time with Lil Gertie, I was doing one of my workbooks. Specifically, I was working on my Pathways to Recovery workbook. It looks at mental health recovery as a whole and how we can develop our strengths as well as some skill to be in recovery.

If you been reading my blog on the regular basis you know that my recovery means the world to me. I do workbooks to help me along my recovery process. I am not doing the workbooks to replace therapy, I am doing them in addition to therapy.

Since we are now on the topic of therapy, I am seeing my therapist today. I am seeing him for our new scheduled time for Thursdays at eleven in the morning. He is really cool and encourages me to build my support system by getting out of my box.

Something that has been helping me that last few days is scrap booking. I’m really enjoying doing it as it gives me something to do. It also gives me something to look at during the process of making it as well as when I am finished with it. When I look at it, it is helpful by giving me hope. Hope by helping me remember the good things in my life.

I think I am going to get going. I am going to watch the news and get ready for the day ahead. I hope everyone has a good day. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Evening Ramblings

Good Evening, World. Right now I am just fighting through some anxiety. Anxiety that is being reduced my Lil Gertie. I’m going to be seeing my therapist tomorrow and we will be discussing my anxiety and how my cat has been helping reduce the symptoms of it.

As you may know if you read my blog regularly I am using advertisements to earn some extra money. They will not pay you till you hit at least one hundred dollars. All I made for the month of April is nine dollars and seventy four cents. Well, at least it is a start. A start in the right direction.

Today, I adulted. I paid most of my June bill already. The only thing I have to pay is my credit card bill and I can do that tomorrow. Being responsible with paying on bills is always a good thing. I also but kitty litter and food for Lil Gertie. I also got her a bed to sleep in. It will go on the end of my bed at night and next to my chair during the day.

I have been doing a lot of scrap booking today. I painted a picture in my scrap book just for the hell of it. It is my scrap book to help me remember the events of my life so why not remember painting.

I think I am going to go now. Have a great day. Peace Out World!!!

Fun Doesn’t = Anxiety

Good Afternoon, World!!! I am sitting here blogging as I watch The Ellen Show on television. Lil Gertie is sitting by my side purring. I have been having anxiety all day and Lil Gertie has been helping. Watching Ellen is proven to be helpful as well. It has proven to be helpful due to the fact she is funny as hell. I would love to be in the audience of the Ellen Show but fear being on television.

I have been working on my scrapbook a great deal today. It is starting to come along. I am looking forward to showing it to people including my therapist. Since my therapist is new to me, showing him a scrap book of what is important to me might help him get to know me a little bit more. Scrap booking is like painting for me. It is a way to express my emotions.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Late Morning Ramblings

Good Morning, World!!! I am a little disappointed as I went to my job interview and it didn’t happen. It didn’t happen because one of the interviewers wasn’t there due to a family emergency. So, the interview got rescheduled for next Monday.

Now that I am home, I have been scrap booking. I have been adding pictures of Lil Gertie as well as Wonder Woman items. So, I have been adding two of my favorite things; my cat and my favorite super hero. I love to scrap book.

Lil Gertie has been helpful to me regarding my anxiety today. Not job interview anxiety but anxiety as a whole. Anxiety that appears to be reduced by Lil Gertie.

I think I am going to get going. Thank you for reading. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Nothing But Random Thoughts

Good Afternoon, World!!! I know it is Memorial Day here in the United States however I found out today that I have a job interview tomorrow for a Peer Specialist position at my previous employer. It is for their Substance Use Disorder (SUD) program. I am looking forward to it.

I have been scrap booking most of the day. I have fun doing it. I am looking forward to showing it to my therapist. My therapist enjoys the fact that I do creative stuff like scrap booking. Although I am pretty sure he is unaware that I scrap book because I have never informed him nor do I think it was documented in therapeutic notes.

I also been working on my strengths based recovery workbook today. The topic I am working on is courage and hope. It is discussing how having an attitude of hope and courage can help one on their recovery process.

Having things to do helps. It helps with the symptoms of my mental health conditions. Keeping busy is what helps reduce my symptoms.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Cat + Scrap Booking = Helping Anxiety

Good Afternoon, World!!! I am struggling the moment however Lil Gertie is helping me through the struggle. She is sitting next to me purring up at storm. She knows when to come up to me when my anxiety is acting up.

I having been scrap booking about Lil Gertie. I have added pictures to a SMASH scrap book / journal type thing and writing about Lil Gertie. I have been adding other things to the scrap book as well but so far it appears to be mainly Lil Gertie in it at the moment.

Scrap booking and Lil Gertie appear to be helping with my anxiety at the moment. Both also appear to be helping with the symptoms of PTSD as well.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out World!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Blog
  • Read (specifically books on Buddhism)
  • Print out photos of my cat, Lil Gertie
  • Paint (a picture of Lil Gertie)
  • Scrapbook
  • Relax

Monday

  • Blog
  • Read (not sure which book yet but I will read)
  • Scrapbook
  • Paint
  • Relax
  • Workbooks

Tuesday

  • Blog
  • Hearing Voices Group
  • Read
  • Workbooks

Wednesday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Paint
  • Scrapbook
  • Relax
  • Workbooks

Thursday

  • Blog
  • Therapy
  • Read
  • Workbooks

Friday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • DBT Group
  • Workbooks
  • DBT Homework

Saturday

  • Blog
  • Training to be a co-facilitator at a Peer Run program.
  • Workbooks