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Sleepless in Seattle Once Again

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Good Morning, World!!! I am wide awake once again at god awful time in in the middle for no reason at all. It is starting to get me fucking frustrating that I can not sleep. Insomnia sucks. I of course am listening to a podcast on philosophy as well as listening to music. Both help with good self care but occasionally don’t help on occasion.

I have also been doing some coloring how ever my hands are getting cramped up. So leads me to doing the CAlm app which helps me a great deal. I think I will be doing to mindfulness stuff to help help me sleep today.

I have hope everyone has a great night head of them. I will b spending tie with my cat Billie Dean as he she loves to cuddled with me. I love my Billie so much.

I don’t have much more to say in this blog post. I thank you for reading my blog post. It means a great deal to me. Thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

It’s Friday & the Start of the Weekend for Most People

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Happy Friday, World!!! Friday’s are the start of the weekends for most people who would nine to five jobs, Monday through Friday. This schedule is similar to mine most weeks except this week as I needed to take a mental health day from work. I slept most of the day and am still sleepy as hell even though it is evening in here in Seattle.

I think the only reason why I am not I am not napping at the moment is because I am waiting for a package from Amazon. We all know how Amazon is with packages. They either claim to be delivered when they are not or they don’t follow delivery instructions which could lead to theft of the package. I am some are supplies I am expecting so I can do some coloring in my coloring book that will make it stand out more color wise.

As I sit here typing this blog post, I am listening to my favorite podcast on philosophy. That podcast is Philosophize This. I highly encourage you to listen to it. I know philosophy isn’t everyone’s cup a tea but I do ask that you give it a try to listen to the first two or three episodes.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog post because if it wasn’t for you my reading I wouldn’t be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great weekend ahead. Peace Out, World!!!

Taking a Mental Health Day

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Good Morning, World!!! I am taking today off for serval reasons. My anxiety and depression are acting up. I am not exactly sure why my anxiety and depression are acting up. I am grateful that my employer allows people to take a mental health day off every now and than.

So, off course part of my mental health day off I plan on spending it with my beloved cat, Billie Dean. Billie is such an amazing cat who is a snuggle bug and lap cat. I love Billie so much and how he helps me even though he may not realize it.

Another thing I have been doing and will continue to do today is art artwork. Specifically, I will being coloring while listening to a podcast on philosophy. Specifically I will be listening to Philosophize This. Steven West is the one who does this podcast and lives in Seattle which is ever supercool. Anyway coloring and listening to Philosophize This had helped me gain and education I never had in school. Now that I am an adult I can do things the can educate myself like doing art work or listening to a podcast. Education is a never ending and I love to learn new shit so I know what I am talking about..

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If i wasn’t for you my reader, I would not writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Happy Friday everyone, everyone!!! Peace Out, World!!!!

In Need of Sleep

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Good Morning, World!!! I am unable to sleep. I am not sure why I am unable to sleep but I have had my cat, Billie Dean, by my side. Having Billie next to me has be a great help.

Since I am unable to sleep and Billie being by my side, I have been doing some mindfulness meditation practices to help. It helped me by allowing myself to empty some things in my head. So, mindfulness helped in a way I wasn’t expecting and am grateful for that.

On that note, I have been coloring as I have been listening to podcast about philosophy. The philosophy podcast I am listening to is Philosophize This. I really enjoy this podcast and am learning a great deal. I suggest you listen.

I do not have much else to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great Friday ahead. Time for me to try to get some sleep before needing to be up in about three hours. Peace Out, World!!!

A Good Night Sleep Will Help

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Hello, World!!! I am slightly feeling better than I was three hours ago. There is still a shit load of shit in my head but I continued doing what I was doing and it helped.

Having my cat lay next to be as I colored has been quite helpful. Also, while coloring listening to a podcast about philosophy helped a great deal as well. I feel like I am learning a great deal from Philosophize This. I wish I was able to learn this in high school but sadly I did not learn it.

As far as the coloring goes, I am making some major progress and hope to take a picture of it so I can share it with you. Coloring is a form of mindfulness for me. I know it sounds weird but it is a form mindfulness for me.

Speaking of mindfulness, I need to finish this particular blog post so I can do a mindfulness exercise before going to bed. I want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, I wouldn’t be writing my blog. Again, thank from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Have a good night all. Peace Out, World!!

A Look into My Shit Hole of a Brain

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Good Evening, World!!! I am not in a good space to be writing this post but just want to let you that my brain is being a shithole right now. My brain is just going all of the place. Part of me wonders if taking a client to their dental appointment yesterday played apart in this but I am doing the best I can.

My brain is causing me some imposter syndrome and have mixed emotions around this. I feel like I am an imposter even though I am not the only that deals with this. My cat helps me keep my imposter syndrome in check.

After getting off work I have been doing some art. Specifically, I have been coloring. Coloring a book a friend of mine who is also a neighbor. My friend gave me a the perfect coloring book. While I coloring, I am listening to the podcast Philosophize This. I really get an education from this podcast. An education I never got in high school.

So that is that shit that is going on in my mind at moment. I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Monday Evening Ramblings

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Hello, World!!! It is 9:24pm on a Monday evening here in Seattle. Monday’s are the start of the work week for me. Normally, I would have gone into the office today but I decided not to for no reason except I wanted to work from home. I didn’t have any clients that had an in person appointment with me today so I was able to work from home. I did have appointments with client but they were all scheduled for a virtual appointment or telephone appointment. Normally, I wouldn’t have worked from home today but my anxiety was through the roof and my depression was slightly acting up. I really do think working from home today helped both my anxiety and depression.

As far as my anxiety and depression they are doing much better than this morning. Working from home helped a great deal. Even though working from home helped, I think being home with my cat, Billie Dean, helped the anxiety and depression the most. Billie would not let me leave his sight and when he does this I think it is way to make sure I refocus myself. Refocus by realizing I have a responsibility my cat, Billie, who depends on me to make sure he is fed and taken care of which includes his health care. His unconditional love helps me be a more loving person to others and most importantly more loving to myself. For that I am forever grateful for Billie my cat as well as my last kitty Lil Gertie. The love I have received from all the pets I have had is what has helped me love myself and other people.

Since we kind of on the topic of love; something that has also helped me with self love as well as help my anxiety and depression is mindfulness. Mindfulness has helped me great deal with my mental health recovery. Mindfulness helps me make better decisions for my life even though I will still make mistakes.

I do not have much more to discuss in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you my reader I would not be writer my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom from my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great rest of you Monday. Peace Out, World!!!

A Mostly Lazy Sunday

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Hello, World!!! It is 9:14pm here in Seattle. The weather in Seattle has made today a mostly lazy Sunday. I say mostly because I did volunteer at PAWS Cat City this morning. I love volunteering and enjoy being able to help people find new family members with adopting a cat.

Speaking of cats, I spent most of the day with my own cat, Billie Dean. Billie and I enjoyed our Sunday being lazy while enjoying ourselves doing a handful of things which included watching football, listening to a philosophy podcast called Philosophize This and doing mindfulness.

I spent some of my day focusing on mindfulness. I did this by doing a mindfulness practice with the Calm app. I also focused on mindfulness by doing a mindfulness journal as well as a mindfulness workbook. I am focusing on mindfulness because I know it helps me a great deal as well as keeps me focused on my recovery.

Besides doing mindfulness stuff, I also listened to a podcast. A podcast about philosophy. The philosophy podcast I have been listening to is Philosophize This. As I mentioned in previous blog post, I really enjoy this podcast and learn a great deal from it.

Another thing I did today was watch Sunday Night Football. I watched the 49ers play the Packers. The last half the game was great but sadly the 49ers lost. I am a 49er fan living in Seattle which means I live in enemy territory even though I am also a Seahawk fan. I wish the 49ers would have won but sadly they did not.

I do not have anything else to talk about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I wouldn’t be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

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Good Evening, World!!! I realize I haven’t done weekly check-ins in a while. I will do my best to do weekly check-ins more regularly. Whenever, I do weekly check-in’s I wonder what you the reader think of them.

On that note, this week has been quite the week. A week that went by slowly but also had good moments in it. Let’s use today as an example. My grandpa and uncle came by my apartment to help me clean it. They didn’t have to do this but they did. I still have a lot to do with cleaning my apartment however I am greatly appreciative that I had help from family. I am also grateful for the love my family has for me.

Speaking of love, I feel the love from my friends as well. A neighbor of mine who is a friend invited me over for dinner twice this past week. I was able to have dinner with this friend both times she invited me to dinner. It was nice spend time with this friend.

As far as work goes, it went well this week. It did go by slowly but that is okay because some weeks are going to be like that. Yesterday (Friday), was paperwork day. I was bored as I was and am all caught up on paperwork. I was able to get some unexpected stuff done thanks to my supervisor and small group team. A client will be benefitting because of the help of my supervisor and colleagues.

This past week I realized, I haven’t been doing mindfulness meditation practices on the daily basis like I was at the beginning of the year. So, I started it back up again three days ago. Mindfulness meditation practice helps me be able to be a better person as well as help me cope.

Another thing I have started back up is journaling on the daily basis. I am using journaling daily as a form of a daily check-in with myself. Doing some journaling daily as a form of a check-in with myself will also help me figure out what I need to work on with my therapist.

Now on to the topic of my cat, Billie Dean. Billie has been more of a cuddle bug than he normally is. I am not one hundred percent sure why he is being more of a cuddle bug, I am grateful that he is being more of a cuddle bug. Having Billie in my life has been quite helpful and I love him so very much.

I do not have anything else to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciative from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Happy Caturday

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Happy Caturday, World!!! I am spending today at home with my cat, Billie Dean. I was suppose to volunteer later this afternoon however due to unexpected events, Cat City is closing early today. Don’t worry everything is okay and cats are still being adopted.

Anyway, I am sitting here in my chair with Billie laying on armrest as I write this blog post and listening to a podcast. A podcast about philosophy. The philosophy podcast I am listening to is Philosophize This. I really enjoy this podcast. I recommend listening to it. I’ve learned a great deal from Philosophize This and continue to learn a lot as I am listening to it again all the way through from the beginning.

I am looking for other podcast to listen to. I am hoping to listen to podcast about mental health, philosophy, recovery, and mindfulness. Hell, I am looking for a podcast where I can learn something and/or be a better person. If you have any suggestions on what podcast to listen to, don’t hesitate to comment the podcast you recommend.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!