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Therapy + Snow = Snowball Fight With Therapist

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Good Evening, World!!! It snowed last night here in Seattle and it sucks but at least I was still able to see my therapist in person. My therapist and I discussed the death of my dad and how challenging it has been to lose him so close to my mom dying. We also discussed how not just my mom’s death but my dad’s death has increased my PTSD symptoms. While discussing the increased PTSD symptom my therapist noticed that I was starting to dissociate and thought it would be a great idea to go outside to have a snowball fight to allow myself to let my inner child out. So, today’s session focused on allowing myself to let out my inner child as I had a snowball fight with my therapist.

Allowing myself to let out my inner child helped a great deal with my dissociation and my therapist saw this as we had our snowball fight. She asked me in what ways I could let my inner child out so we discussed how my cat, Billie helps. I also brought up the fact that I never stopped coloring and continued to color despite being made fun of on the occasional basis from people. Coloring has always allowed me to be me and kept me connected to my inner child even though I didn’t realize it till today.

Now that I am home, I am coloring as I watch the local news with my cat, Billie sleeping in my lap. I love the fact that I have my cat, Billie in my lap purring as I color letting out my inner child. I am so happy that I let out my inner child today in therapy and that I am doing that with coloring at home.

I do not have much more to discuss or write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Daily Prompt; What Is Good About Having A Pet?

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What is good about having a pet?
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There are so many good things that are good for having a pet. In fact I have had many pets throughout my life. The pets I have had have helped me so much with various things in my life. Growing up I had dogs and cats with my dad and grandparents while I had gold fish at my moms which one of the gold fish lived five years. In fact I even helped my dad with his birds as a teenager. Pets are a great way to relieve stress and helps with responsibility.

As an adult I had a gold fish for two years and sadly it died. Also as an adult I have had two cats. My last cat Lil Gertie sadly crossed the rainbow bridge after having her for only a year and a half. I have had my current cat, Billie for almost five years and I love him so much. The best part about having a pet is coming home to the pet with their unconditional love.

Daily Prompt; Describe an Item You Were Incredibly Attached to as a Youth. What Became of It?

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Describe an item you were incredibly attached to as a youth. What became of it?
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The thing I was incredibly attached to as a youth was my teddy bear. It was a gift from one of my uncles the day I was born. I slept with it every night as a kid and even as a teenager. Hell, I slept with this teddy bear as an adult. I still have this teddy bear and I am nearly 45 years old. I stopped sleeping with it about five years ago because my teddy bear is getting extremely old and worn out. So, that means my teddy bear is spending his retirement years on display in my bedroom. My teddy bear is extremely well loved and has been through a great deal with me.

Daily Prompt; Do You Play in Your Daily Life? What says “Playtime” to You?

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Do you play in your daily life? What says “playtime” to you?
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I am learning to set time aside as an adult to play. To me play means being able to act like a child and have fun while still being an adult with responsibility. Being connected to your inner child is a good thing especially if your childhood was full of trauma. I struggle with connecting to my inner child due to childhood trauma so “playing” is something I try to do. Playtime looks differently each day. Sometimes it is going to the park and swinging on a swing, while other times you can be waking up early on a Saturday and watching cartoons you grew up with as you eat a bowl of cereal. There are other things that I do for “playtime” but I don’t think I can mention it as it is X rated and something I do with my partner.

Coloring to Help the Inner Child Within

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Good Morning, World!!! It is just after three o’clock in the morning, Seattle time. I woke up from a nightmare about an hour ago and I feel like a scared little kid. A scared little kid that had to grow up fast in childhood. Since I am feeling like a scared little kid I have been coloring as I find it quite helpful to connect with my inner child that had to grow too fast. Coloring is also a mindfulness practice for me as it helps become grounded and present as well as to stay grounded and present in the moment.

I do not have much else to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you, the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Middle of the Night Ramblings

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Good Morning, World! I am tired as hell. Partly because I took an extremely long nap yesterday afternoon and I know better to not make my naps so long. So that is why I think that I am not sleeping well tonight. I am also dealing with a lot of pain due to a migraine. A migraine that I hope goes away before I go to work tomorrow. I at least don’t have to start until 12 noon Seattle time.

Since I am having a challenging time sleeping due to the pain of migraines, I have other ways to help. I usually start with reading but at times I have to cut it short because it can cause more migraine pain. the book I am currently reading is called “The Sorority Murder by Allison Brennan. I am only a quarter into reading the book and so far it is a pretty great book. If the book doesn’t help with the migraine nor the sleep, then I will work on an adult dot to dot book regarding only pets. I am ready to finish the first dot to dot picture. It takes a while to do especially when you are awake and not as sleepy as I am that includes a painful nightmare. If the dot to dot doesn’t appear to help I then will do some diamond art which isn’t always the best for a migraine but it is always worth try to see if helps with the migraine to go away and at least decrease the pain.

Doing all this appears to be a bit childish but I’m okay with this as I just want to sleep and hope I can get some sleep. Now it is time to attempt to sleep and cuddle with my kitty cat, Billie. Good night world and PEACE OUT WORLD!!!!

Up Too Early On A Sunday Morning!!!

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Good Morning, World!!! It is just before six in the morning Seattle time. I have been up since just before four in the morning Seattle time. So, I have been up for barely two hours and I don’t have to be up for about another hour to get ready to go and volunteer at PAWS Cat City.

Anyway, since I am unable to go back to sleep, I decided to turn on some music and do some art. The type of art I did was color. I am coloring a giant poster. A giant poster, I hope to give it to my mom when I am done coloring it. As I colored this giant poster, I listened to music on Spotify. The music I listened to was my childhood play list. A play list that reminds me of good parts of my childhood. I’m glad to have started my day listening to music while coloring. Now it’s time to do my mindfulness meditation practice while my cat, Billie sits on my lap.

I do not have much more to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you all have a great Sunday ahead of you. Peace Out, World!!!

Everyday Inspiration, Day 4; A Story in a Single Image

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Good Morning, World!!! Topic is a story in a single image. Sadly, the four images WordPress gave us to be “inspired” by didn’t really inspire me. So, I chose my teddy bear to be inspired by. I have had this teddy bear since the day I was born and I am forty-three years old. I still sleep with Teddy as I call him. He is a priceless heirloom to me and I love him dearly. He has had to be sewed up on several occasions but what do you expect for a teddy bear being forty-three years old.

A Day of an Unexpected yet Mostly Good Things

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Good Afternoon, World, from Seattle. Today has be full of the unexpected with mostly good things. First of all I finally got some much needed sleep and secondly Billie Dean did not use himself has an alarm clock and let e sleep in an extra thirty minutes.

The job is still very uncertain with the lay off thing. On that note I let my supervisor know yesterday I plan on staying but putting out resume’s out there which she understands and will be a great reference for me. I’ve bee letting client know as well because they deserve to know what is going on to the best of my abilities. My colleagues are supporting me in my decision. I really love my job as it is one of two of my dream jobs.

On that note the old HR Director from my current employer sent me some peer jobs that are opened at the moment. The other cool thing the former Vice President of my current employer did the same thing and they don’t work for the same compony anymore.

I’ve been highly focused on work to day by listening to music as I do notes on clients and taking breaks. While taking breaks, I’ve been reading comic books. Both remind me of my childhood and can help me refocus on what I need to focus on.

And lets not forget the love and attention I have been receiving from my beloved cat, Billie Dean. Billie gives me a ton of unconditional love that I don’t even deserve. I love Billie so much and I am so happy to have him in my life. He is an amazing kitty.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing it. It is greatly appreciated from my end that you read my blog. Again from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I just want you to remember that my readers of my blog a beyond awesome. Peace Out, World!!!

Sleepless in Seattle with Reminders of Childhood

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First and fore most I would like to wish my friend Jodi a happy birthday. If she were still alive she would be 40 years old today. I think that is why I am listening to my childhood playlist on Spotify. To remember all the good things we had growing up.

I wish I could sleep but sadly I can’t. I think it is because I have so much on my mind which is why I am listening to childhood music and reading comic books. Of course Billie Dean my cat wants to help me blog.

Reading comic books and listening to childhood music help me grieve the death of my friend. She was a great friend, I should get going and try to sleep. I do have to work. Thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out World!!!