Just a Bunch of Randomness

Good Afternoon, World!!! Today, I am having a mixture of emotions especially when it is in regards to my paternal grandparents. I am having a huge wave of grief that I am dealing with in regards to my paternal’s grandma’s death on Valentines day of this. Today’s wave a grief hit extra hard because this is the first birthday my paternal grandfather has had my grandma by his side in over seventy years even though they were married for sixty two and a half years. My grandpa is having a rough go at it so I invited him to my place to have a birthday dinner I will make. I don’t know if I can cook meatloaf as good as my grandma but that’s what he wants for his birthday or at least what he wants for his birthday from me.  As I grieve over my grandma even six and a half months later, I celebrate my grandpa’s 88th birthday today.

On the other hand let me update you on the pain of my migraine. I did go to the hospital last night and had a bunch of test run on me because they wanted to make sure that the infection in my mouth hasn’t spread even though I informed the doctors it felt like a regular migraine. They were just be overly cautious because it turns out it was a regular ole pain in the ass migraine. My mouth infection is looking a great deal better and its starting to feel better as well. I’m still in pain from the infection but at least the pain is subsiding.

Now on to the fire alarm system and smoke detector inspection that happens every three months that ended up being a month late this time around happened today. My cat, Lil Gertie, was not a fan of the inspection. Hell, neither was I but I am sure it was worse for her and her poor lil ears. She freaked out a little bit but not as bad as I thought it would have had on her.

On the note of my cat she is helping me deal with my depression and grief at the moment. She is sitting next to me on my favorite chair as I blog this particular post. Having her cuddle up next to me while purring sure helps with both the depression and grief I am dealing with. With my emotions they way they are today, I am grateful for my cat.

I don’t have much more to say at the moment. Thank you for reading me ramble on about a bunch of randomness. I appreciate each one of you. I hope you have a great Thursday. Peace Out, World!!!

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Waiting to Go To Hospital Due to Migraine

Good Afternoon, World!!! I am waiting to go to the hospital for my migraine to see if it gets better especially since my grandpa will be taking me. After my grandpa takes me to the hospital I’ll be spending the night at his place and have him bring me home tomorrow.

My cat is helping me relax a little which might help with the migraine. Anything to help with the migraine I am willing to try.

I should get going and rest. I will keep you updated. Thank you reading my blog. It is appreciated from my end. Peace Out, World!!!

The Migraine From Hell

Good Afternoon, World!!! I have the migraine from hell. It is so bad I called my regular doctor to see if I could see her today or any other provider in the clinic. Unfortunately, everyone was booked up so she suggested I go to the Emergency Room. She also suggested that I have someone take me just in case the hospital gives me meds.

I did all my usual stuff to help reduce the migraine or even to make it go away but nothing has worked. I took over the counter pains meds which do shit for a migraine but it was worth a shot. So I took my Immitrex and the first dose did shit as well as the second dose. I have shut all the blinds in hopes that the darkness would help lessen the pain and it has. The shower I took only lessened the pain for about an hour. I have also been trying to sleep my migraine away but that didn’t help much. I informed my doctor of all this which is why she suggested that I go to the Emergency Room.

I am now waiting on family to pick me to take me to the hospital in hopes they can do something about the pain. In fact it is my grandpa that is picking me up to take me to the hospital. I hope he doesn’t mind waiting forever and a day in the Emergency Room for my migraine.

As I am waiting for my grandpa to pick me up my cat, Lil Gertie, is cuddling right beside me. Her cuddling right beside me is helping quite a bit with the anxiety I am feeling going back to the Emergency Room.

Thank you for reading my blog. I hope to update you as soon as I am able to do so. Mainly when I am feeling slightly better than I am now. I really do appreciate you all reading my blog. Have a great Wednesday. Peace Out, World!!!

I Haven’t Been Back To Sleep & Feeling Like Shit

Good Morning, World!!! It is three thirty in the morning and still haven’t been back to sleep since my five hour nap. Not having enough sleep affects my mental health. When my mental health is affected, shit can hit the fan quite quickly. It is not my mental health that I am worried about right now. It is my physical health that is worrying me. I have a major migraine that won’t go away plus my asthma is acting up.

Due to lack of sleep and multiple health conditions acting up, I am thinking I might have a friend or family member take me to the hospital to get checked out. Or maybe I should wait and call my doctors office later in the morning to see if I can see her sooner than next Thursday (August 30th).  I’ve also been vomiting like it it going out of style. I am taking Pepto Bismal for the nausea but it is not working for the stupid vomiting.

At least my cat is by my side. Lil Gertie is trying her best to keep me calm. In fact she is doing a good job at it. I should get going an cuddle more with my cat and see if someone can take me to the hospital. If nobody can take me to the hospital then I will have to wait to my doctor’s office opens later in the morning.  Now it’s time to cuddle with my cat, Lil Gertie. Peace Out, World!!!

Can’t Fall Back To Sleep

Good Morning, World!!! I can not seem to go back to sleep after being woken up by my cat, Lil Gertie, after a five hour nap. Of course when I attempted to go to sleep Lil Gertie wanted to play so I decided that I would play with her. Lil Gertie is one spoiled lil kitty. I love her so much.

To make my sleep issues even worse is that I have a migraine. Migraines are extremely painful. I am not sure what set off this migraine but my migraine medication ain’t working shit. I just hope the pain subsides so I don’t have to the stupid hospital again.

I’m wondering if my worries over not getting an email about a peer position interview I have on August 31st is what is causing part of my migraine. The lady who called me about it only mentioned her name once and I forgot to get her name again. I am hoping she emails me more of the details about the job interview so my worries and anxiety can subside. At least I will be working either a sixteen hours a week or thirty hours a week. I just hope she emails me sometime later today with more of the details and so I can ask more questions of her.

On a plus note the lady who wants to interview me for the shelter counselor position finally emailed me back explaining why she hadn’t set up an interview yet. It’s because others have been on vacation or out sick. She should be getting back to me by the end of the week via email. Lets hope I get emails from the individuals for both positions by the end of the week.

At least I know I have a least one job interview, I just wish remembered the ladies name. I can’t remember the name for the life of me which is why I am hoping for an email. Please send out positive vibes, energies, prayers or whatever that works for you that this woman emails me back or at least calls me back because I tried calling the number back it said it wasn’t taking any calls at this time. It didn’t even have a voicemail I could leave.  I know things will work out in the long run but I still have my worries.

Well, it appears like Lil Gertie, my cat is wanting my attention again so I better give it to her. If I give it to her now, she won’t wake me up at four o’clock in the morning wanting scratch on the head or to play. She sure helps me a lot.

I hope my migraine goes away as I call it a night. I’ll play with Lil Gertie first and then attempt to fall back to sleep. Thank you for reading my boring ass blog. Especially since my post appear to be repetitive as of lately. I am grateful for your readership and Peace Out, World!!!

More Random Thoughts

Hello, World!!! I know it’s only Monday but I am already sick and tired of hear about the Royal Wedding. If I don’t know the people involved in the wedding I don’t want to hear about it. I know I can always turn off the news but then I’ll miss what is going on in my corner of the world.

It is suppose to be another warm day in Seattle. It is suppose to get to about eighty five degrees Fahrenheit (29.5 Celsius)  here in Seattle today. I love this type of weather. I plan on enjoying this weather despite having a debilitating migraine.

Dealing with migraines is not the most fun thing to deal with but I have found that practicing my new faith or what I know of it has been helpful. Reading Buddhist Scriptures as well as a book call Why Buddhism Is True has been quite helpful to subsiding the migraines.

I am hoping that looking into Buddhism is going to be the faith path I am suppose to be on. As of right now it appears to be the right path. I just need to find a place of Buddhist worship to attend to.

Thank you for reading. It is greatly appreciated that you reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

It is Saturday morning and that means its time for my weekly check-in. I enjoyed my three day weekend last week.

I unfortunately called in sick most of last week because I wasn’t feeling well. I was dealing with a migraine that just wouldn’t go a way. Missing work is not my favorite thing especially since I love my job. I did end up going to see my doctor yesterday. She agrees that it was a migraine. She suspects that my migraine was caused by a combination of weather change, allergies, the fluorescent lights in my work environment and my depression symptoms increasing.

My doctor prescribed  me some allergy and migraine meds as well as suggested ways to decrease my exposure florescent lights. For example go for two, ten minute walks to get some natural light which will also help with my depression symptoms. My doctor also informed me that she would be in communication with my therapist and psychiatric nurse practitioner.

Long story short, my doctor did get a hold of my therapist who in return called me. Diana and I discussed on ways I can decrease my depression symptoms. We of course discussed the skills that help the most. The plan we came up with was to hang out with people from my natural support systems or at least call and talk to some of them on the phone. Other things on the list are, to blog, go on a walk, color, journal, read, and of course lots of chocolate.

Its amazing that I have health care professionals that are willing to communicate with each other. You don’t find that much now a days or at least here in the United States. I am grateful that I have people who look out for me. My therapist emailed Junior and Mama Bear to let them know what was going on even though they both already knew. Junior is working an overtime shift so he’s been checking up on me via text. Mama Bear took me out to breakfast and did some walking.

Yes, I still have my migraine but at least the pain is subsiding with meds and skills. I am grateful that I have health care professionals in my life that care. I am just as grateful that I have natural support system the love and care about me. Have a wonderful weekend everyone and peace out all.