Tag Archives: Insomnia

Got Sleep?!?!

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! Right now I am dealing with a major case of insomnia. Insomnia that meds won’t even work for. I took my Ambien right after my last post and well here I am still wide awake. Normally, taking the Ambien works but apparently it is not working tonight and it is frustrating as hell.

As frustrating as it is to not sleep at least I have been able to use my coping skills. Coping skills to help me through the night. The coping skills that I have been doing are art and reading. I have been painting as well as reading The Ship of Magic by Robin Hobb. At least my coping skills have been helpful to me tonight.

Thank you for reading. I hope everyone has a wonderful day. Peace Out, World!!!

Hoping For Some Sleep Tonight

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! It is just after midnight in my neck of the woods and I am tired as hell. I didn’t sleep last night and I am hoping that I get some sleep tonight. For me sleep is important to maintain good mental health.

Something that I have been doing to help myself is art work. I have been painting most of tonight and it appears that it is helping me contain my emotions.

Another thing that has been helping is watching television. I am watching the Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon. For me laughter helps me be able to get into a good head space to be able to get some sleep.

I think I will get going and continue to watch Jimmy Fallon. Have a goodnight and peace out world!!!

Mr. Sandman, Where Are You

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I am having trouble sleeping once again. I am getting slightly frustrated with not being able to sleep. I am partly blaming the no sleep yet on PTSD because my symptoms are acting up.

Something that helps me with my PTSD symptoms is reading. Something I have been doing most of the night as it is one thing that has been tonight. Reading doesn’t take away the symptoms but it helps me forget them after they appear even for a brief moment.

I think I’ll get back to reading. Have a goodnight. Peace Out, World!!!

Midnight Ramblings

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I have trouble comprehending why I have such a difficult time at night. Not just with sleep but with the symptoms of anxiety and depression. I am struggling a little bit with depression and anxiety relating to PTSD. Dealing with symptoms this time of night when your natural supports are unavailable for whatever reason can be difficult and challenging for me.

As challenging as it is for me right now, I know what I can do to help myself. I can turn to my coping skills. Coping skills that have helped me a great deal throughout my recovery. Coping skills that will continue to help me even in this moment in time.

One of the things I will do is color. As any type of art has helped me a great deal. In fact I’ll probably end doing some collaging as well because it helps me put words to my emotions.

Another thing I will be doing is a mindfulness and meditation practice as this helps quiet my mind. It puts me in a better head space. A head space that is at least in neutral gear.

Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Monday Morning Ramblings

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I didn’t get any sleep once again. I’m getting frustrated with not being able sleep. All I want is to be able to sleep. I don’t think it is too much to ask for me to get a decent night of sleep.

As much as I want to go to sleep right now, I think it wouldn’t be wise as my sleep schedule would get even messed. Not only that I wouldn’t be able to follow through with the plans I made today. I plan on going to knitting group as I want to lean how to knit. I also plan on going to art group as you all know art helps me express my emotions.

Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World

 

Mr. Sandman Skipped Me, Again

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I am having trouble sleeping once again. I’m getting frustrated with not being able to sleep. Sleeping is vital to one’s recovery or at least mine which is why I am wanting to be able to get a decent nights sleep.

Since I am unable to sleep I have been working on one of my workbooks. Actually, I think I’ll work on the mindfulness workbook as it might help me get into a wiser mind. Mindfulness has been helping me with a great deal of things like sleep.

After doing a workbook I think I’ll read a few pages in my book. I am really wanting to finish is soon. I have only been reading ten to twenty pages at a time due to lack of concentration from depression.

Depression sucks just as much as insomnia but that is why I am doing some things this next week to help with them. Things that I didn’t put in my Weekly Plans post as I realized that I could do the activities after I posted it. The activities that will help with the depression are peer run groups at a peer run community center.

Thank you for reading. Have a good work week everyone. Peace Out, World!!!

Early Morning Ramblings

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! It is 3:33 in the morning in my neck of the woods. Yes, I realize it is early but at least I got some sleep. I think I got about four hours of sleep. I, did however wake up from a nightmare. A nightmare that scared the shit out of me but thankfully I was able to get the support I needed from a friend.

After talking to my friend, I am now blogging. Pretty much I am blogging about whatever comes to mind at the moment. Hence the reason why my title is what it is.

As mentioned in a previous post, I checked in with my therapist yesterday (Friday). We discussed what I am going to do this weekend. I told him I don’t have much going except cleaning my apartment later on today (Saturday). We discussed a little about what I could for fun over the weekend. I came up with my usual stuff like reading, art and blogging. He encouraged me to do something out of the box for me. So, this is where I get stumped as this means going to the stupid mall or something like that. I informed my therapist that I could call a friend and spend a few hours with them at the mall. Apparently, his first impression of me was correct when he stated “You don’t appear to be a mall type person. Good job with thinking outside of the box with doing something different with a friend.” I told my therapist that he was right that I am not a “mall type person.” He chuckled and we continued to discuss what my weekend plans were. I hope I am not wrong on this but my therapist appears that he is good at what he does. Yeah, he may be a little timid but I think that is his personality.

I think I am going to spend most of the weekend reading. I am hoping to finish my book this weekend. No promises on finishing it but I am getting closer to finishing it. I love reading.

I don’t think I have anything else to ramble on about. Peace Out, World!!!

No Sleep + Reading = Help With Anxiety

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I am reluctantly still awake. I wish I was able to have got to sleep last night but now that it is 6:14 in morning and I have an appointment I am tired enough to fall asleep. I am hoping that after my appointment as well as getting some errands done, I am able to take a nap.

As elusive as sleep has been for me last night, I was able to get a lot of reading done. Reading helped me relax and it lessened my anxiety. Reading helps a great with my anxiety.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World

Another Night Sleepless in Seattle

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! It is two o’clock in the morning and I am struggling with sleep once again. It’s raining out again. I love the sound of rain especially when I am unable to sleep. Listening to the rain helps me do mindfulness and meditation practices.

Another thing I have been doing since I am unable to sleep is reading. Reading is helping not dwell on the fact that I am unable to sleep. Reading also helps me relax enough to hopefully help me get to sleep. Since I want to get back to sleep I think I’ll get back to reading.

Thank you for reading. Goodnight & Peace Out, World!!!

Tuesday Morning, Ramblings

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! Today, I have my first one on one session with my new therapist. I am having some anxiety about it however I know it is normal to have some as it an emotion many deal with.

As you may know if you read my last post is that I didn’t get much sleep last night. I only got about two hours. It is two hours more that I got the night before. Sleep is a precious thing that when I get some I cherish it.

Thank you for reading. Peace out, world!!!