Phuck This Sh*t

Good Morning, once again, World!!! I was almost asleep when the stupid fire alarm decided to go off once again. This time it was a malfunctioning fire alarm. So apparently, sleep is not in the cards for me.  Having the fire alarm go off five times sucks shit. Three off those times was due to the fire alarm malfunctioning while the other two time people decided to cook food while doing drugs and caught their stove on fire.

So, since it is apparent that I won’t be getting any sleep, I plan on going to day treatment instead of staying home. That means I will be going to art group. Hopefully, I will be able to meet with my therapist for about fifteen minutes to check in with him after what happened to me last night at the hospital.

I guess all that has happened since going to the hospital yesterday afternoon and the frequent fire alarms at home are getting to me. Getting to me enough that I need to not be in isolation mode. That is why I am going to day treatment and then art group.

Everything that has gone on has triggered my PTSD greatly. Having triggered PTSD sucks shit. I wish I didn’t have PTSD. In fact anyone who has PTSD wishes they didn’t have it.

Thank you for reading my blog. Even though its the third post in just barely over three hours. It is greatly appreciated. Have a great week everyone. Peace Out, World!!!

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Manic Monday Madness

Good Evening, World!!!  I don’t deal with bipolar however, I think I was Manic a little bit earlier. I am trying to get my Medicaid straightened out and it appears there was an error on DSHS which they acknowledge and they will be paying the bill for the service that should have been already.

After dealing with DSHS, I went and informed my therapist of what had. He agrees that the information I got was quite confusing him. So he is going to take me to the DSHS office on Friday to get clarity when my medicaid got turn backed on. I have it but nobody agrees of when it started. I did talk to my therapist about other shit like the PTSD and the grief.  It was overall a good session with him. It was extremely helpful for me today.

I didn’t art group like wanted to because I was too tired. Yes, I wanted to go but I was too tired so I came home and took a nap, The  nap was refreshing.  I can do art her at home.

I don’t know what else to write about at the moment. I feel like that today was full of madness due to all the red tape I had to deal with today. Thank you for reading  my blog. It is greatly appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Monday Morning Ramblings

Good Morning, World!!! It is nearly six thirty in the morning in my neck of the woods and Lil Gertie woke me up by licking one of my feet. She obviously had a sixth sense of knowing that I was having a nightmare. She has woken me up whenever I have a PTSD nightmare and I didn’t even train her to do so.

Dealing with nightmares is a part of PTSD that I didn’t have to deal with however it is something I have to deal with. I have learned various was on how to deal with the after affects of a nightmare. Now that I have an emotional support animal in Lil Gertie I can depend on her for help. Just one more thing I can do is depend on my cat, Lil Gertie.

I realize it seems like I talk a great deal about Lil Gertie, lately. It is just that she has helped me so much in the last nearly a month of having her. She has been a great support for me especially during PTSD moments as well as after them.

I am planning on attending art group later on today. I love art group for many reasons. Reasons that I have informed my therapist about. In return he encourages me to attend. I am hoping we do some collaging in art group today.

Thank you for reading. Have a good work week. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Interview Went Well

Good Afternoon, World!!! I am now done with my interview at my previous employer. I think it went well. As with any job interview I had some anxiety that automatically goes with it. I say my anxiety was there but not as high as I thought it was going to be.

I am now at day treatment in my interview clothes waiting for Art Group. Art Group starts at one in the afternoon and it is now twelve thirty in the afternoon. I always look forward to Art therapy as it helps me express myself with what I am trying to say verbally.

As far as the group I am going to do at a volunteer job, I haven’t decided yet. I am either going to do it on grief or on self harm. Both topics can and are difficult to discuss and deal with. That is why I am thinking if I should offer to co-facilitate another group with someone and see how that goes.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

A Whirl Wind Of Things Going On

Good Evening, World!!! The last few days have been a whirl wind. A whirl wind of things to do that has been overwhelming and mostly in a good way. Let’s start with the training I did this weekend. I attended a facilitator training to become a volunteer group facilitator at a local peer run origination. I figure this will help me career wise especially since I am applying for new jobs. Volunteering always looks good on the resume’.

I have a job interview at my previous employer. It is a Peer job at with one of their Substance Use Disorders (SUD) programs. It is a full time job and not sure if working full time is a wise decision for me to do. But I need the practice for the interview. If I get the job I can find out more it and turn it down if it is not the job for me.

I also have art group tomorrow that I am debating weather or not if I am going to go. I am debating as I would still be in my interview clothes and don’t want to ruin them.  It is something to thing about right now.  We will see what I’ll do and how I feel after my interview.

Thank you so much for reading my blog. It is much appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Random Thoughts

Good Evening, World!!! I came home from Art Group and Lil Gertie came running to me purring. Little did she know she was going to the veterinarian. Dr. B the vet is “impressed” on how sweet Lil Gertie is. She explained to me that she is overall in good health considering the trauma she has had. Dr. B explained to me on how to help Lil Gertie with the ear problems she has had and most likely will continue to have.

After bringing Lil Gertie home from the vet I had dinner with friends. We had corn beef, cabbage, potato’s and carrots with strawberry shortcake for dessert. It was yummy. Junior was there and he came home with me.

Now that we are at my place, Little Gertie appears to like Junior. Junior also likes Lil Gertie. He is in love with her but he can’t have her. I love them both so much.

I am going to get going and spend time with Junior. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Monday Afternoon Ramblings

Good Afternoon, World!!! Now that I am home, I can relax. I, overall had a good day. I of course went to art group and had a great time. I enjoyed myself like I usually do in art group.

I am glad I went to art group as well as day treatment because it helped with the isolation and depression. If I didn’t go today, I would have been home by myself not reaching out to others.

Now that I am home, Junior came over and is going to be making spaghetti for dinner. We are going to have a couple of friends come over for dinner. Having people come over is going to be a good thing for me. It is good for me to see friends to help me with the depression and isolation.

I should go help Junior with dinner. Thank you for reading. Have a wonderful day. Peace Out, World!!!