Tag Archives: PTSD

Working Through Shit

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Good Evening, World!!! I am having one of those moments again where I just need to write through shit. Shit that includes PTSD symptoms. PTSD symptoms that are severe at the moment but I know I will get through them.

I should find out some time in the next day or two about how much money I earned with the advertisements on my blog. I get paid through PayPal which will be good for my online purchase and help keep me from using my credit card. I have to earn a minimum of one hundred dollars to be able to access the money I earned which sucks.

I just don’t know why I am having an up and down day today. It sucks shit. Having Depression and PTSD is no fun and wish the emotions that came with them would subside even a little bit.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Reading Helping Me Through PTSD

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! I am slightly struggling at the moment. I am struggling with some PTSD symptoms. Symptoms that are acting up for some unknown reason at the moment. Symptoms I will be working through.

Besides fighting against PTSD symptoms, I have been attempting to lay low. I am laying low due to the symptoms of PTSD as well as it just one of those days for me.

I’ve been reading most of the day as it appears that it has been quite helpful for me today. It has gotten me out of my head and has helped reduce the PTSD symptoms.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Tough Evening

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Hello, World!!! This evening has been a rough one despite it being a good day. It has been rough because my PTSD. PTSD that appears to not be letting up at the moment. So this is when my coping skills box comes in handy. Skills that will be quite helpful for me to do once I am done blogging.

I think that reading might be a helpful coping skill for me to do right. Reading helps me get out of my head. Reading also helps my PTSD symptoms subside even for a brief moment or two.

Thank you for reading. It is much appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Successfully, Working Through Struggles

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Hello, World!!! I am struggling at the moment yet I am having a good day. I went to the park and did some art work. I did some coloring while I was at the park. It is a beautiful day here in Seattle which is why I decided to go to the park and color. I enjoyed myself. In fact I think I got a slight sunburn as I am a little pink.

After coming home I decided to do some painting. I am going to painting how this sunny weather is making me feel. I am feeling happy at the moment despite my struggles with PTSD.

Thank you for reading and Peace Out, World!!!

Mr. Sandman, Where Are You

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Hello, World!!! I am having trouble sleeping once again. I am getting slightly frustrated with not being able to sleep. I am partly blaming the no sleep yet on PTSD because my symptoms are acting up.

Something that helps me with my PTSD symptoms is reading. Something I have been doing most of the night as it is one thing that has been tonight. Reading doesn’t take away the symptoms but it helps me forget them after they appear even for a brief moment.

I think I’ll get back to reading. Have a goodnight. Peace Out, World!!!

Midnight Ramblings

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Hello, World!!! I have trouble comprehending why I have such a difficult time at night. Not just with sleep but with the symptoms of anxiety and depression. I am struggling a little bit with depression and anxiety relating to PTSD. Dealing with symptoms this time of night when your natural supports are unavailable for whatever reason can be difficult and challenging for me.

As challenging as it is for me right now, I know what I can do to help myself. I can turn to my coping skills. Coping skills that have helped me a great deal throughout my recovery. Coping skills that will continue to help me even in this moment in time.

One of the things I will do is color. As any type of art has helped me a great deal. In fact I’ll probably end doing some collaging as well because it helps me put words to my emotions.

Another thing I will be doing is a mindfulness and meditation practice as this helps quiet my mind. It puts me in a better head space. A head space that is at least in neutral gear.

Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

An Emergency Room (E.R) Post

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Good Morning, World!!! As I type this post, I am sitting in the emergency room (E.R) in pain and typing with one hand as I hit a brick wall. I hit a brick wall because I was feeling high anxiety as well as fear. I was feeling his way because of PTSD symptoms. PTSD symptoms that were and are quite overwhelming.

Symptoms that I will be discussing with my therapist today when I see him. I’ll also be discussing my self harm actions. Actions that need to be discussed as I didn’t reach out to anybody when I first had urges to self harm this morning.

I did attempt to use my DBT skills. First of all I blogged. After posting my last post I ended up reading my book. Both blogging and reading helped but I obviously needed to reach out to somebody and/or needed to use more skills so I wouldn’t have punched a brick wall.

I should get going as I am in the emergency room getting my hand looked at. I’ll post again later. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World

Early Morning Ramblings

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Good Morning, World!!! It is 3:33 in the morning in my neck of the woods. Yes, I realize it is early but at least I got some sleep. I think I got about four hours of sleep. I, did however wake up from a nightmare. A nightmare that scared the shit out of me but thankfully I was able to get the support I needed from a friend.

After talking to my friend, I am now blogging. Pretty much I am blogging about whatever comes to mind at the moment. Hence the reason why my title is what it is.

As mentioned in a previous post, I checked in with my therapist yesterday (Friday). We discussed what I am going to do this weekend. I told him I don’t have much going except cleaning my apartment later on today (Saturday). We discussed a little about what I could for fun over the weekend. I came up with my usual stuff like reading, art and blogging. He encouraged me to do something out of the box for me. So, this is where I get stumped as this means going to the stupid mall or something like that. I informed my therapist that I could call a friend and spend a few hours with them at the mall. Apparently, his first impression of me was correct when he stated “You don’t appear to be a mall type person. Good job with thinking outside of the box with doing something different with a friend.” I told my therapist that he was right that I am not a “mall type person.” He chuckled and we continued to discuss what my weekend plans were. I hope I am not wrong on this but my therapist appears that he is good at what he does. Yeah, he may be a little timid but I think that is his personality.

I think I am going to spend most of the weekend reading. I am hoping to finish my book this weekend. No promises on finishing it but I am getting closer to finishing it. I love reading.

I don’t think I have anything else to ramble on about. Peace Out, World!!!

The Oh So Elusive Thing Called Sleep

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! Once again I am having another night of what looks like of no sleep. Sleep is a major part of my recovery and to living everyday life. I guess that I am getting frustrated that I am not being able to sleep. Sleep is key for me to be stable.

Stable to where I can function as a productive member of society. Society that expects people like myself to work. Hell, I expect me to work because I know I am able to do so however my symptoms are getting the fucking what of being a functioning adult.

Now that I am done venting, I am going to attempt to get some sleep. Thank you so much for reading. Goodnight. Peace Out, World!!!

Monday Evening Ramblings

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! I am wanting to blog right now but having some issues at the moment. Part of it is genuine writers block while the other part is due to mental health symptoms. Symptoms that are quite bothersome and annoying as hell.

I did see Gilbert today. We discussed the recent trauma I experienced. We also discussed the art work I did in Art Group today. He really likes the fact that art helps me open up about stuff that I need to discuss to help me with my recovery.

For me finding way to help me with my recovery is quite important to me. That’s why I am grateful that Gilbert is invested in my recovery. I think he is more so at the moment than I am but that is okay with me for now.

Thanks for reading. It’s much appreciated from my end. Peace Out, World!!!