Writing 101: Finding Your Inspiration; Day One: I Write Because……

I write because of the stigma that goes with having a mental illness and desire to educate those who don’t have one that maybe my words can lessen the stigma. I write because if I share my story of recovery then maybe I can show those who struggle with a mental illness that recovery is possible and that there is hope. I write to speak up for those who cant find their voice.

Writing my story to help educate those who don’t have a mental illness as well as to give hope to those who do struggle with a mental illness that recovery is possible because words matter. Words matter more than people realize. The old saying: “Stick and stones may break my bones but word will never hurt” is bullshit. Words can hurt like hell just like words can lift a person up. It is with my words that I write my story. Words I didn’t have a few years ago. The words I write, I hope to lift others up with them.

Having a way with words is not my forte but I love to write. A love to write is why I am willing to share my story. A story I hope can help others as well as educate. Giving hope to those who need it, is why I am not afraid to share my story. Educating those who don’t struggle with a mental illness is why I not only share my story but advocate for those who struggle with a mental illness. Thanks for reading on why I write. Peace Out!!

Weekly Goals

Happy Labor Day!!!! As most of the United States has today off due to it being a national holiday, I work today. Unfortunately, I don’t get holiday pay which surprises me since I am union. As much as I wish I got holiday pay for my current job, I don’t mind because I love my job.

Well, this particular post isn’t about not getting holiday pay from my current employer, it is about my weekly goals. Like I do every week I am going to share with you on how I did with last weeks goals first.

1)  Read Speaker of the Dead by Orson Scott Card. Yes, I did read this week. It was only a hand full of pages but I read.

2)  Work on jigsaw puzzle. I spent about an hour working on the puzzle. I love the fact that Junior helped me out with it. He loves to do puzzles as well.

3)  Color. Yes, I spent time coloring. This week I colored with some neighbors. Not only did I color with some neighbors in my apartment building, when I was at Junior’s place he colored along with me.

4)  Clean my apartment. Yup, I cleaned my apartment. Junior helped. Well, he cleaned the kitchen.

5)  Work on a self-help workbook; The Dialectical Behavior Therapy Skills Workbook by Matthew McKay, PhD., Jeffery C. Wood, PSY.D., and Jeffrey Brantley, MD. I worked on it this week. I didn’t complete the chapter but I worked on it. That’s all it counts is that I worked on it.

6)  See my therapist on Wednesday. I saw my therapist on Wednesday. It was a tough session. We discussed about doing trauma work again. It’s something that I am highly considering on doing again. I know it won’t be easy process but I know I can handle it.

As you can tell I accomplished my goals last week even though I didn’t do as much as I had hoped. Now it is on to this weeks goals:

1)  Read Speaker of the Dead by Orson Scott Card.  This will be a weekly goal till I am done with the book.

2)  Work on jigsaw puzzle. I love doing jigsaw puzzles. I love seeing the progression as it gets put together. I also like the feeling of accomplishment when it is done. Plus, I love being able to spend time with Junior. It is something we do together a lot of the time.

3)  Color. Coloring is something that helps me relax and distress.

4)  Start Writing 101 Finding Your Inspiration. Today, I start one of the many courses WordPress has to offer. In fact it is the Writing 101 Finding Your Inspiration course. The course starts today and ends Friday, October 2, 2015. So, in reality this is going to be one of my weekly goals for the next week.

5)  Work on a self-help workbook; The Dialectical Behavior Therapy Skills Workbook by Matthew McKay, PhD., Jeffery C. Wood, PSY.D., and Jeffrey Brantley, MD. I am hoping that I will finish chapter 2 this week.

I don’t have much else to say in regards to this weeks goals. I have to head off to work now but before I go I would like to mention that this is part of a weekly blogging event that is quite helpful. I encourage to go check it out over at: http://greenembe.rs/2015/09/07/building-rome-week-36-for-2015/. Happy Labor Day everyone and peace out!!!!

Improving Blogging Skills (again)

Good evening! I’m at it again. I am going to be doing a couple of courses at Blogging U. that WordPress does. I will be doing a four week course, Writing 101: Finding Your Inspiration starting tomorrow. I will also be doing the two week course; Blogging 201 starting on September 14th. I enjoyed doing Blogging 101 so much in July that I decided to do both Writing 101 and Blogging 201. I know it sounds ambitious of me doing two courses at the same time but I am determined to do so.

I love blogging a great deal. It gives me something to do when I don’t have anything to do. Having something concrete to do everyday gives me a sense of accomplishment. A sense of accomplishment is something that everyone looks for but if you struggle with a mental illness like I do, it is a major deal when it happens.

Now that I bored you some, I’m going to end this post for now. Have a great evening everyone and peace out.

Mental Illness Basics

Happy Friday!! I am happy to announce that today is my first blogging feature. It is hope that when I do my blogging feature every Friday, that I not only educate people without a mental illness to lessen the stigma that goes along with having one but hopefully to gain a bigger blog following. My primary goal is to educate people on mental illness. The stigma needs to stop which is why I am doing an “educational” piece every Friday.

Now that I have told you about my blogging feature; lets get going. Today’s blogging feature is about mental illness basics. I got the following information from http://www.webmd.com/. Here is that information:

Mental illness is any disease or condition that abnormally influences the way a person thinks, feels, behaves, or relates to others and to his or her surroundings. Although the symptoms of mental illness can range from mild to severe and are different depending on the type of mental illness, a person with an untreated mental illness often has difficulty coping with life’s daily routines and demands.

What Causes Mental Illness?

The exact cause of most mental illnesses is not known. It is, though, becoming clear through research that many of these conditions are caused by a combination of genetic, biological, psychological, and environmental factors — not personal weakness or a character defect — and recovery from a mental illness is not simply a matter of will and self-discipline.

  • Heredity (genetics): Many mental illnesses run in families, suggesting they may be passed on from parents to children through genes. Genes contain instructions for the function of each cell in the body and are responsible for how we look, act, think, etc. However, just because your mother or father may have or had a mental illness doesn’t mean you will have one. Hereditary just means that you are more likely to get the condition than if you didn’t have an affected family member. Experts believe that many mental conditions are linked to problems in multiple genes — not just one, as with many diseases — which is why a person inherits a susceptibility to a mental disorder but doesn’t always develop the condition. The disorder itself occurs from the interaction of these genes and other factors — such as psychological trauma and environmental stressors — which can influence, or trigger, the illness in a person who has inherited a susceptibility to it.
  • Biology: Some mental illnesses have been linked to an abnormal functioning of brain circuits that connect different brain regions that control thinking, mood, and behavior. Nerve cells within those brain circuits pass information along from one cell to the next through brain chemicals called neurotransmitters. Scientists think that by altering the activity of certain neurotransmitters (through medicines, psychotherapy, brain stimulation, or other treatments), those faulty brain circuits may work more efficiently, thereby controlling symptoms. In addition, defects in or injury to certain areas of the brain also have been linked to some mental conditions. Also, recent studies show inflammation may have a role in the development of mental illness.
  • Psychological trauma: Some mental illnesses may be triggered by psychological trauma suffered as a child or teenager, such as
    • Severe emotional, physical, or sexual abuse
    • A significant early loss, such as the loss of a parent
    • Neglect
  • Environmental stressors: Certain stressors — such as a death or divorce, a dysfunctional family life, changing jobs or schools, and substance abuse — can trigger a disorder in a person who may be at risk for developing a mental illness. This effect is not the same as and goes beyond the grief and other normal emotional responses such events cause.

Can Mental Illness Be Prevented?

Unfortunately, most mental illnesses are caused by a combination of factors and cannot be prevented.

How Common Is Mental Illness?

Mental illnesses are very common. In fact, they are more common than cancer, diabetes, or heart disease. According to the National Institute of Mental Health, about 25% of American adults (those ages 18 and older) and about 13% of American children (those ages 8 to 15) are diagnosed with a mental disorder during a given year.

Major depression, bipolar disorder, and schizophrenia are among the U.S.’s top 10 leading causes of disability.

Mental illness does not discriminate. It can affect people of any age, income or educational level, and cultural background. Although mental illness affects both males and females, certain conditions — such as eating disorders or depression — tend to occur more often in females, and other disorders — such as attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD) — more commonly occur in male children.

How Is Mental Illness Treated?

A mental illness, like many chronic illnesses, requires ongoing treatment to control symptoms. Fortunately, much progress has been made in the last two decades in treating mental illnesses. As a result, many mental conditions can be effectively treated with one or a combination of the following therapies:

  • Medication
  • Psychotherapy, such as individual or group therapy
  • Day treatment or partial hospital treatment
  • Specific therapies, such as cognitive behavioral therapy and behavior modification

Other treatments available include:

  • Alternative therapies, such as water therapy, massage, and biofeedback
  • Creative therapies, such as art therapy, music therapy, or play therapy
  • Hypnotherapy
  • Electroconvulsive therapy (ECT)
  • Vagus nerve stimulation (VNS)
  • Transcranial magnetic stimulation (TMS)

What Is the Outlook for People With Mental Illness?

When diagnosed early and treated properly, many people fully recover from their mental illness or are able to successfully control their symptoms. Although some people become disabled because of a chronic or severe mental illness, many others are able to live full and productive lives. In fact, as many as eight in 10 people suffering from a mental illness can effectively return to their normal activities if they receive appropriate treatment.

I am grateful for the information I used from http://www.webmd.com/. I hope that the information I shared was hopeful. We need to start educating ourselves as well as others about mental illness. Then that way ignorance and naivety can not play a role in the stigmatizing of people with mental illness. For those of us who struggle with a mental illness will no longer tolerate the stigma with having a mental illness.

Now that I have completed my first blogging feature, I am going to end this post. It is an extremely long post and hope that I have “educated” people some. Have a wonderful Labor Day Weekend!! Peace Out!!!

Not Doing A Daily Prompt Today

I know I said I would do a daily prompt every Tuesday but life gets in the way sometimes. I know I don’t owe anyone any explanations but today was just one of those days that I needed to focus on myself when I got off work. My PTSD is acting up. Having Complex Posttraumatic Stress Disorder sucks. I just needed to take a few hours to myself. I hope all of you understand. I have to know what my limitations are and today was one of them.

Have a good evening everyone. Hope that you all have a peaceful evening and night. Don’t let the bed bugs bite. Peace out!!

Weekly Goals

Good evening, everyone! I hope everyone had a good start to the work week. The start of my work week started off on a hectic note but hey, I work in the mental health field so it is to be expected on occasion. I hope tomorrow is a little less hectic at work but I better knock on wood. I’m not here to talk about how hectic work was today. I’m here to discuss my weekly goals. Before, I going with this weeks goals, I’m going to tell you how I did with last weeks goals.

1)  Read Speaker of the Dead by Orson Scott Card. Yes, I did read some this week but not much. I just didn’t make as much time for it like I hoped that I would.

2)  Work on jigsaw puzzle. Yes, I did work on my puzzle. I got all the end pieces together. I am thrilled about it.

3)  Work on a self-help workbook; The Dialectical Behavior Therapy Skills Workbook by Matthew McKay, PhD., Jeffery C. Wood, PSY.D., and Jeffrey Brantley, MD. I unfortunately didn’t work on it at all. I don’t have any excuses. I just didn’t make time to do it.

4)  See my therapist on Thursday. Yes, I did see my therapist. I saw her for about an hour and half. It was a difficult session.

5)  Go to a youth specific suicide prevention training on Wednesday. Yes, I did go. In fact I blogged about it; https://gertiesjourney.com/2015/08/27/yesterdays-safetalk-training/.

Now that you know  how I did on my weekly goals, you know that I didn’t accomplish all of them. I hope that I will be able to accomplish my goals for this week. My goals for this week as follows:

1)  Read Speaker of the Dead by Orson Scott Card. Like, I have said in other post, this will be a weekly goal till I finally finish the book.

2)  Work on jigsaw puzzle. I love doing jigsaw puzzles. It relaxes me. I hope to work on my puzzle for 15 minutes a day.

3)  Color. As I have said before, coloring relaxes me just like reading and working on jigsaw puzzles do. In fact I got some coloring posters in mail on Friday that I ordered from http://www.stuff2color.com/. I love to color and work on multiple coloring projects at any given time. I do this so I don’t get frustrated with a particular piece.

4)  Clean my apartment. It’s pretty self explanatory. I just need to clean my place.

5)  Work on a self-help workbook; The Dialectical Behavior Therapy Skills Workbook by Matthew McKay, PhD., Jeffery C. Wood, PSY.D., and Jeffrey Brantley, MD. I will make sure I work on this week. I will work on chapter two and hopefully start on chapter three.

6)  See my therapist on Wednesday. Yes, I did see my therapist last week but I have another appointment with her this week. I know I have mentioned it before that I rarely miss an appointment but it is still difficult to do.

As you can tell, I have some of the same goals I have had in previous weeks. When it comes to the leisure activities such as  reading, coloring and jigsaw puzzles, I have to make sure I schedule it because I tend to not do things that bring me leisure. Or at least in the past I have it going into Autumn I need to get into the habit. When it comes to seeing my therapist and working on a self-help book, I make it a continuous goal because it helps me in my recovery just like planning my leisure activities. Just want you all to know that. Once again thank you for reading my weekly goals. I am beyond grateful that I joined this weekly blogging event. I encourage you to all look at it over at: http://greenembe.rs/2015/08/31/building-rome-week-35-for-2015/. Have a great evening. Peace out!!!

Yesterday’s safeTALK Training

Good Evening, everyone! I hope everyone is enjoying there week. I realize that I told you all that I would blog about the training yesterday after I finished but I ended up volunteering at the Warm Line last night for two and half hours because the lack of volunteers on. I would have stayed the entire four hours but I needed to go and take care of myself by needing to eat. Now that I have time I will tell you about the training.

The training was “youth specific suicide prevention” but ultimately it can be used for anyone at any age. I felt like it was more of a review than a training due to all the various trainings I have been through due to my job and volunteer jobs. The following are key points from my notes:

  • Suicide is everyone’s business.
  • Suicide is rarely an impulsive act.
  • 5% of the population  in any given two week period think about suicide.
  • Notice the settle stuff when “evaluating the situation.”
  • Ask directly, “Are you suicidal” or “Are you thinking about suicide”
  • People who are suicidal just want someone to listen to them about how they are feeling.
  • The person with thoughts of suicide ultimately have to be a participant in helping themselves.

The above points are just a sliver of the notes I took in the training. I just feel like the above are key points that everyone can comprehend and basic enough that a “normal” person who does don’t work in the mental health field could understand.

Thank you for reading and I hope that the above points are helpful. I am looking forward in sharing with you the notes I take in another suicide prevention training that I will be taking in mid-September. I hope to be able to share with you some key points from that training once I take it and organize the points. I need to get going now. Have a good rest of your evening. Peace out!!

Trainings, Work, Volunteering & Other Related Stuff

Good morning everyone!! Yes, It is still morning in my neck of the woods. I am looking forward to this afternoon. I am going to a training about youth specific suicide prevention. The best part of this training is that it is being offered by the Crisis Clinic and I am able to attend for free because I am a Warm Line volunteer. (Side Note: The Warm Line is under the umbrella of the Crisis Clinic.) Being able to attend training for free at the Crisis Clinic is one of the many awesome benefits I have for being a Warm Line Volunteer. I love being able to attend the various trainings because it helps me learn new skills that I not only need for my volunteer jobs but my career. It also looks good on the résumé.

Speaking of careers and résumés, I am going to be working on my résumé tomorrow. I have to update it with a couple of things including my volunteer job at the young adult shelter and the training I am going to today. I am updating my résumé  because once my one year anniversary is up at work, I am going to apply to peer specialist positions. Like I have said in previous post, I applied and accepted my current position as a Consumer Aide to get my foot in the door. Yes, I will be applying within the agency I work for but there is only one position posted at this point in time and it is not a guarantee that it wont be already filled when my year is up. I am hoping it will still be up so I can apply for it. I will also be applying at other mental health agencies. No need to be picky on where I apply at this particular time in my career because I am just starting out in the whole grand scheme of things.

I am looking at the time and realize I need to cut this post short. I need to cut it short because of the training I am attending this afternoon. I have to take the bus and am planning on eating lunch near by the training before it starts. I hope to blog about the training later on today. Have a wonderful day everyone. Peace out!!!

Daily Prompt: No, Thank You

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “No, Thank You.” If you could permanently ban a word from general usage, which one would it be? Why?

The word I would permanently ban would be crazy. Crazy is extremely derogatory for those of who have a mental health diagnosis. It is not only derogatory but very stigmatizing. The word crazy to a person with a mental illness is like the word retard (which should be permanently banned as well) to someone with Down Syndrome and other such disabilities. I know developmental disabilities are different from mental illness however words can me just as harmful to those of us with a mental health diagnosis.

It makes my skin crawl when I hear someone say the word crazy or even cray cray. When I try to educate others on it, I get everything from, “Thank you, I didn’t realize it was offensive. I will make an effort to not use it.” to “It is socially acceptable and you need to not be so sensitive.” In response to the latter comment, I ask the if the “n” word or retard are acceptable and the response to both are a resounding “no.” I then say then you shouldn’t use the crazy or cray cray for the same reason. The word crazy SHOULD NOT be socially acceptable.

As you can tell I get on my soap box and can go on and on about the word crazy or slang word cray cray. That is why I am ending this post at the moment. Plus, I think you all get the point or at least I hope you all doing. Have a wonderful evening!! Peace out!!

Decided To Sleep-In A Lil Bit

Good morning everyone!!! It is another Tuesday. That means it is time for a daily prompt but it is going to have to wait till when I get off work. I decided to sleep in an extra half an hour. I normally get up at 5:00am but decided to get up at 5:30am. 5:30am is the latest I can get up with out the potential of being late to work. With me sleeping in an extra half an hour, I didn’t have time to choose a daily prompt so that is why I am going to do it when I get home.

I am actually looking forward to getting off work today. It is not because I don’t like my job because I love it. It is because, I’m actually in the mood to clean. Yes that means I’m going to clean or at least clean a little bit. Even though my place is not that messy, I feel like it needs to be cleaned or at least tidied up.

Well, I best be going. I do not want to miss my bus. If I miss my bus then I will end up late to work. Nobody wants that especially me. I will blog again when I get off. Have a good day everyone. Peace out!!!