Monday Morning Ramblings

Good Morning, World and Happy Monday!!! It is beautiful day here in Seattle. It is going to be lovely weather today and it will be another “hot day” or at least hot for Seattle. I love this weather, and I am beyond grateful for the beauty here in Seattle.

As far as the beauty of Seattle, I am looking forward to the beauty of my workday. The beauty of my workday includes that of helping people with their recovery. For me finding the beauty in my work makes what I do well worth it especially when the people I help are struggling. I really enjoy what I do and it makes me happy.

Another thing that makes me happy is my cat, Billie. I best be going to cuddle with Billie before I go to work. I love my cuddle time with my precious kitty, Billie.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

Good Evening, World!!! It’s that time of week again where I do my weekly check-in. Let’s discuss how work is going. My job is going quite well, and I love my job. Despite being informed that I am doing a good job at work I worry about not passing my probationary period due to my supervisor being out on leave to take care of his mom, I’ve been informed to not worry about as I am “doing a good job and going above and beyond the call of duty.”

Even though I have been told this, it still worries me but at least I am doing what I am supposed be doing. In fact, I am doing some trainings to help the people I help. The plus thing it is counting continuing education credits once the peer licensure changes. I am really enjoying the two trainings/continuing education courses I am taking. I am taking Personal Medicine Coaching that Pat Deegan created which is awesome as well as taking the Hearing Voices Facilitator training through the Hearing Voices Network USA. I really do enjoy the fact it is all peer focused, and the trainings are being facilitated by people who have lived experience and if for some reason I don’t pass my probationary period at work, I at least have more to add to my resume. Hell, even if I pass it still looks good on the resume. A good friend of mine as well as current colleague both tell me that I am experiencing something called imposter syndrome. I’m not sure if I am experiencing imposter syndrome or not, many people no matter their job title experience it.

I may not know if I have imposter syndrome regarding my job, my depression and PTSD symptoms have been acting up. I have a theory or two on why my symptoms are acting up, but I do know what is helping me cope with my symptoms. Going to work is helping just like volunteering at PAWS Cat City and with Alley Cat Project. Volunteering and working help a great deal but my cat, Billie is extremely helpful with coping. I am so very glad that I have my cat, Billie in my life to help me through good and bad moments as well as everything in between.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Fighting Off PTSD & Depression Symptoms

Good Evening, World!!! Right now, I am struggling with some depression and PTSD. I wish I was not struggling with my PTSD or depression symptoms but I am. Since I am struggling with my mental health symptoms, I made sure I went to my regular volunteer shift at PAWS Cat City which helped a great deal. Now that I am home, I had a late lunch and cuddled with my cat, Billie as I did some artwork. The type of artwork that I did was color. Coloring is both therapeutic and meditative for me. Even though my PTSD and depression symptoms are acting up, I am glad volunteering at PAWS Cat City, cuddling with my cat, Billie and coloring have been helpful for me today. Let’s hope coloring continues to help me this evening. Cuddling with my cat, Billie is always helpful.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Looking Forward to Work Today

Good Morning, World!!! It is a beautiful sunny Monday here in Seattle. It is going to be a warm day which is something I really do enjoy. One of the good parts of it being a nice day outside today is that I will have an awesome view from my office at work.

Speaking of work, I am looking forward to work. In fact, I really like where I currently work as well as enjoy the team I work with. My colleagues are pretty awesome. Today, I will be doing some continuing education and training at work that I need for the state. It will be online which I am not a big fan of but at least I will be getting paid for it. I will still have appointments with the I help and that is the best part of my job. Being a part of someone’s recovery journey is one of the best parts of my job. Hell, it’s the most amazing part of my job.

The main draw back of my job or any job for that matter is the fact that I will be away from my cat, Billie. Billie is truly one of the most attached cats I have ever had. Plus, he is a very lovable cat who enjoys his belly being rubbed as well as being on my lap. He is my emotional support animal, and I am his emotional support human. Anyway, when I am work, I am going to miss my cat, Billie. I love him so very much and I am beyond grateful for his unconditional love.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post except that I will miss my cat, Billie when I am at work, but I already informed you of that. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Life Updates

Good Afternoon, World!!! It has been a few months since I last posted. Actually, tomorrow marks three months since I last posted. I don’t have any excuses at all. Yes, I have been busy with life in general and my new job however I could have made time to post.

My new job is going quite well. It is hard to believe that I have been at my current job for three months now. I am really enjoying it. In fact, we recently hired a new nurse, and I was able to be part of the interview process. Every person on the team is a part of the interview process and I think that is an awesome idea especially since we are a small team of six people including myself (and the new nurse). I enjoy working with my colleagues and working with the young people I help. One of the best parts of my job is how close the team is as well as how much autonomy I have in my position. One of my favorite things about my current position as a Peer Support Specialist is that my supervisor and his boss as well as the organization I work for encourages me to attend trainings especially ones that are pertinent to my job. For example, I work with young folks from 15 years old to 40 years old who are experiencing their first episode of psychosis and my supervisor, and his boss are “thrilled” that I took the initiative to sign up to attend the Hearing Voices Facilitator training. Sadly, when I worked at another organization on a team that focuses on people who have a psychotic disorder it wasn’t encouraged for me to do this particular training even though it would have been beneficial for the people I helped with there as well as the people I currently help. I’m just happy I can do this training as it will allow me to help the people, I serve better and learn new skills to lean on for their recovery journey. I am thrilled that I can be part of someone’s recovery journey especially since most of the people I help are just starting their recovery journey.

Speaking of recovery journeys, mine is going quite well. Granted I am not where I would like to be like I was, in early 2022. Thankfully, I am doing better than I was in late summer of 2023 after being traumatized again. Sadly, my therapist has been out on FMLA and haven’t been able to have therapy, but I am grateful that my therapist is practicing what she preaches by taking time to take care of herself. My recovery is going relatively well. I’ve been taking my meds regularly, doing mindfulness meditation practices two to three times daily, going for two walks a day, making my bed, having a good sleep hygiene schedule and of course relying on my friends as well as my cat to help my recovery. I am just happy that my recovery is currently in a stable place and that I have my cat and some great friends a part of my life as I walk through my mental health recovery.

On that note, I am still struggling with grief over the death of both of my parents. It has been seven months since my mom died and five months since my dad died. I miss both of them dearly. I just wish I can hug both of them one last time as well as hear them say “I love you” one more time. I am grateful that my cat, Billie is there to help me with the grief just like my friends are helping me through the grief after losing both of my parents within two months of each other. I have an amazing cat as well as some pretty amazing friends who help me through some of the toughest moments of grief.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post except that I hope to blog on the more regular basis, so I don’t leave you the reader hanging. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Wednesday Morning Ramblings

Good Morning, World!!! It is Wednesday morning here in Seattle and I am tired as hell. I did not sleep very well last night. It was partly due to the fact that I have been ruminating about the job I interviewed for Tuesday of last week. I am ruminating about it because I am wondering if I got the job or not especially since they asked for references. I was informed that I would hear back from them by the end of this week at the latest. I am starting to doubt that I am getting the job, and I really would like this job.

On that note, I am seeing my therapist later on this morning. I have been bottling up my anger and not doing what helps. Thankfully, I have not emotionally exploded on anyone but that is a concern of mine. I figure if I can discuss my anger with my therapist, it could be helpful. I am not angry with my therapist, but I am grateful that she can hold space for me especially when I am dealing with my anger. I am grateful to have a therapist that allows me to feel all the feels and lets me show them.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Still Waiting for Amazon to Deliver Packages

Good Afternoon, World!!! I am still waiting on two packages I ordered from Amazon. One package has a couple of books in it while the other has a couple recovery related workbooks. I know I should have had them delivered to an Amazon locker, but I also didn’t realize that one of the packages would be delivered a day late. I just hope I get both packages today especially since I paid extra money for the math books to be delivered yesterday. Sadly, Amazon refuses to refund the extra money I paid for delivery to happen yesterday regarding the math books I ordered.

As I have been waiting on my Amazon packages, I have been dividing up my time between doing some math and recovery related workbooks. As I have been working on the math and recovery related workbooks, I have been eating some Girl Scout cookies. I love Girl Scout cookies especially the Thin Mints. Who doesn’t like Girl Scot cookies? I am so very grateful for Girl Scout cookies.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Waiting On Amazon to Deliver Packages

Good Morning, World!!! I am currently waiting on Amazon as I am expecting some packages to be delivered today. In fact, one of the packages that should be delivered today was supposed to be delivered yesterday. I am expecting two packages to be delivered by Amazon. One of the packages has three recovery related workbooks while the other package has two math books in it.

In fact, as I wait on my two packages from Amazon, I am going to work on the current math book I am doing as well as work on one of the recovery related workbooks that I am doing. Focusing on building on current skills such as coping skills and math skills is a form of self-improvement. For me self-improvement is something that helps keep me focus on my recovery. Of course, as I do some math or one of my recovery related workbooks, my cat, Billie will be laying next to me or on my lap. Oh, how I love how my cat, Billie is a love bug and lap kitty.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

My 7th Post of the Day

Good Evening, World!!! This is my seventh post of the day. That is a lot of posts in one day. My depression and PTSD symptoms are acting up and I am not sure why they are. To help combat the increased depression and PTSD symptoms, I have been relying on my coping skills. The two main coping skills that I have been using today is artwork and my cat, Billie. The type of artwork I have doing is coloring. I love to color. As I have colored, my cat, Billie has been in my lap or lying next to me. I love my cat, Billie so very much and I am lucky to have him in my life.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Another Morning of Waking Too Up Early

Good Morning, World!!! It is three thirty-three in the morning here in Seattle. Thankfully, I was able to sleep the last three and half hours and am thrilled about that. Yes, I wish I could have gotten more sleep, but I am grateful for what sleep I did get. Now onto figuring out what I am going to do to pass the time.

I am most likely going to do a combination of math, continuing education for being a peer and recovery related workbooks. Yes, you read right, I plan on doing math. Yes, I know that is weird, but it is a subject that I suck at. As far as continuing education courses for my peer certification, I am learning some new things and being reminded of other things. The workbooks I am working is to help me with my recovery and I am very appreciative of them. As I do all this my cat, Billie will likely be in my lap sleeping. I love my cat, Billie so very much and I am so very grateful that he is a lap kitty.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!