Wanting to Escape from My Own Reality

Good Evening, World!!! Right now I really want to escape my own reality. The reality of the depression I am dealing with. I personally think the depression I am currently dealing with has something to do with being in quarantine due to Covid-19.

Let’s start with first things first, work helps me not focus on my own reality as I need to make sure the needs of my clients get met. Plus it feels good when a client accomplishes a goal that they have bee working on for a long time. I love being able to walk along side of people who are working on their own personal journey of recovery.

Another thing the helps me escape from my own reality is volunteering at a local animal shelter. Even though I have my own cat to play with it is gratifying to see cats get adopted into a furrever home. Seeing cats adopted is rewarding in itself and I am thrilled to be able to experience that and not just with the cats I have adopted but cats that have been adopted by others.

Another way, I find a way to escape from reality it reading. Reading all sorts of books including comics or comic books. I do have to say be favorite comic book is Wonder Woman and I have my dad to thank for that. Despite my dad loosing his ability to read, he always encouraged me to read. In fact my favorite genre’s of books are science fiction, fantasy and horror books. Since my dad is unable to read due to a traumatic brain injury (TBI), we call each other every evening and I read him books. Doing this has helped mend and heal our issues. We do occasionally read comic books but that is more my thing that my dad’s thing. I am just grateful that reading to my dad is healing our relationship.

Of course I can forget my sweet loving cuddle bug of a cat that helps me escape the realities of what life has to bring. The cat love is unconditional and am grateful for my cat Billie Dean.

Let not forget the most important of escaping reality which is sleep. Sleep can be a major reality escape especially with people dealing with depression and other such mental health diagnosis.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading m blog as if it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be witting my blog. It is great appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. Again thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Feeling Guilty About About my Traditionally New Years Post on New Years

I am feeling extremely guilty for not doing a New Year’s post for the year 2022. I feel guilty because I was am sick with Covid-19 and was sick enough to post a post on New Years. I know I shouldn’t be beating myself up but I am. I know you my readers understand but I feel like I let you all down. I know people get busy with family events and I know people understand when others sick. I just wish I wasn’t so hard o myself. In fact one of my goals for 2022 to is to now be so hard on myself. I know it won’t be so easy to do but I have supportive to help me with this. I know some of my readers will be have help with this and am grateful for you. I just was to be held accountable to others. I also have people in my “real” life that can help me with this. It never has to have too many accountability accountability partners.

I don’t have very much to stay in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog post. If it was not for you reading my blog post, I would not be writing my blog post. So, thank you from the bottom of my hear for reading my blog. I am hoping to post more about my New Years goals at a later time. Happy New Year and Peace Out, World!!!

Not the Most Productive Day I’ve Had

Good Evening, World. It is seven ten in the evening in my neck of the woods known as Seattle. If you have read my last few post, I was not able to at all last night and spent most of the the day sleeping. I am finally awake enough to be able to semi function and I by they I mean by writing this post. And of course having a neighbor who is a close friend get me some groceries. I just wish my neighbor would hurry up with getting me my groceries. I shouldn’t be complaining as this neighbor is one of the good guys and respects people even they don’t agree politically.

I guess, I am being inpatient is because I am tired as hell and didn’t sleep last night but did sleep most of day. I sadly, missed work due to the lack of sleep and and I highly dislike missing work as the clients I work with depend on me. I think part of the reason my sleep schedule is unpredictable is because my depression symptoms are starting to slightly increase which is not a good thing.

Not only is my neighbor who is my friend getting groceries for me, my cat has been even more cuddly more than he normally is. Billie being cuddly and my friend getting me groceries is very helpful for my depression symptoms.

I do not have much more to say in this particular post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Not Much Sleep but @ Least I Got a Little Sleep

Good Afternoon, World. I am happy to announce that I got some sleep. I didn’t get much sleep but at least I got a little be of sleep. Now that I am sort of awake, I plan on taking it by reading. I will be reading a book that a family member loaned me. In fact my great aunt load me this book and it appears to be a short book that is an easy read. After that I would be geeking out as well as nerding out by reading comic books. Specifically, I will be reading Wonder Woman comic books.

I figured that reading will be an easy way to relax since I didn’t get much sleep today. Reading is a form of self care for me. Self care is necessary in my line of work as being a peer specialist at a mental health agency. I love my job but need to take care of myself so I can make sure I can be of help to my clients.

Of course my cat is a part or my self care plan. He is such cuddle bug as well as a love bug. I don’t know what I would do with out his unconditional love. I love Billie just as much as he loves me.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog post. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog post. If it was not for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog post. Thank you again from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog.

Still Can’t F*cking Sleep

Good Morning from Seattle!!! I still have not be to sleep and it is fucking pissing me off. And I really don’t care if this post isn’t G rated. Part of me is wondering if I am unable to sleep because of depression but I am not having my typical signs of depression but it’s something to think about.

On the plus side of things, my family, friends and colleagues are worried about me. In fact they all have been checking in on me which makes me feel love and appreciated. I have some pretty awesome people in my life including my colleagues. My colleagues really seem to care about each other. Of course I know my friends and family love me and care about me.

And of course my precious kitty cat, Billie Dean loves me so very much. He has been following me around all day as well as cuddling with me. He is my baby and I don’t care what others think as Billie in part of my family. I am so glad that he picked me in the shelter. Being picked by any animal is a precious thing especially when it’s a cat or bird.

I best be going now as I am starting fall asleep as I write this blog. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Thank you again from the bottom for my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Not Going to Work Today

Good Morning, World!!! As if this day couldn’t get worse. Well it could get worse but I have faith it won’t. Despite not getting much sleep last due to an idiot neighbor pulling the fire alarm due to other neighbors not wearing mask which is annoying in itself. I found out my dad was in the Emergency Room all night. He will be admitted to the hospital. It looks like I won’t be going to work like I had hoped to do. I did let two supervisors know as well as HR know that I would be going into work but I will have to now tell them I won’t be going into work. I really want to work but due to the lack of sleep due to a neighbor and my dad being in the hospital, I wouldn’t be at my best to help my clients. I really want to be at my best for my clients at work as they deserve to have me at my best.

On that note, Billie Dean, my cat is cuddling me right now. I think he senses that something is wrong and is comforting me. I just love my cat, Billie so much. He know exactly when I need some extra loving care and comfort.

As far as my dad goes, I hope he is just in the hospital for a couple of days. On a positive note he does not have Covid-19. He had a couple of grand mal seizures so they are just keeping him for observation and to make sure his meds are at an appropriated level. I love dad and am grateful that he raised me as a single dad back in the 80’s and 90’s with the help of my grandparents.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to say thank for reading my blog post. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you all have a great Wednesday ahead of you. I know I will try to have a good Wednesday. Just remember I appreciate all of you and think you are all awesome people. Peace Out, World!!!

Too Tired to Sleep

At this point in time I don’t really care if my blog is rated fucking G. I am getting extremely fucking angry at my neighbor who keeps pulling the fire alarm. I understand his frustration with others not wearing their mask but that doesn’t mean you put the fucking fire alarm. I’m sure sometime down the road I will laugh over this but right now it’s not exactly laughable. Well, I can giggle a little because the dude tells on himself when the firefighters arrive to the building. I honestly don’t know who is my angry myself and my neighbors or the fire department. I am pretty sure that the firefighter are just as tired as my neighbors and I with the about of times my neighbor has pulled the fire alarm.

On that note, I am pretty sure that the animals in my building aren’t happy about it either. I sure know my cat Billie Dean isn’t a happy camper about it. On a good note at least my neighbors with pets including myself are evacuating which means we get to know each other a little be more. Not exactly the way I would want to get to know my neighbors but at least we are getting to know each other.

The thing my neighbors and I don’t understand is why the dude is pulling the alarm for one or two people not wearing their mask. I know for a fact that I wear my mask but when the fire alarm goes off, I don’t always remember to wear my mask as I am too concerned with getting the hell out of the building with my cat. So, personally I don’t think this neighbor is exactly thinking this through.

The think that pisses me and my neighbors off the most as well as the fire department is that the police and apartment management aren’t doing shit about it. At least the fire department is fining the neighbor as well as the apartment building management. But sadly it doesn’t seem to be helping but at least the fire department is doing their job unlike the cops and apartment building management. Well it is four forty five in the morning I am going to try to get some sleep as I have to get up at seven o’clock in the morning for work. I just hope I am not a cranky bucket for work.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post except that I want some fucking sleep and not have the fire alarm to go off again due to the idiot neighbor pulling the alarm. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader do read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog So, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I greatly appreciate all of you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!! It’s now time to try to get back to sleep. Good night world, or maybe I should say good morning since it is four forty five in the morning. Peace Out, World

Angry As Fucking Hell Due to a Neighbor

Good Fucking, Morning, World!!!! I have been woken up four times in a matter of two fucking hours. One of my neighbors keeps pulling the fucking fire alarm because other neighbors are not wearing their goddamn mask. I understand being frustrated with other people not wearing their mask but don’t put the fire alarm.

The sad thing about it is that this dude admits it to the fire department who fines him as well as the building management. Sadly, the building management and the stupid cops are not doing shit about it. I personally think the dude needs to get arrested for it. I know for a fact I am not the only neighbor highly pissed over this situation.

I’m pissed about it because if I don’t get enough sleep then I will not be able to work and work in an appropriate manner. I work with people that have mental health issues and I need to be on top of my game to help my clients.

It’s frustrating as hell but at least my work is understanding for the most part. I just get going so i can get some form of sleep. Peace Our, World!!!