Tag Archives: Insomnia

Another Sleepless Night In Seattle

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I am sadly experiencing my third night in a row of not being able to sleep. It is partly due to PTSD and part due to insomnia. Both royally suck shit. Since I am unable to sleep, I have been listening to music as my cat, Billie lays in my lap and I do some form artwork. I have been doing some diamond art/painting as well as some coloring. Both coloring and diamond art/painting is both therapeutic and meditative for me. I am so glad that I have my cat, Billie, music and artwork to help me through sleepless nights like tonight.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Sleepless In Seattle Type Of Night

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I am sadly unable to sleep due to the combination of insomnia and PTSD. Having both insomnia and PTSD sucks shit especially when they both rear their ugly heads at the same time. Since I have been unable to sleep due to insomnia and PTSD, I have been listening to music as my cat, Billie lays on my lap as I do some artwork. Specifically, I am doing diamond art/painting. I am still doing the one of a tuxedo cat as I had briefly stopped doing it for various reasons including starting my new job as a peer specialist. I really do enjoy doing diamond art/painting especially when my cat, Billie lays on my lap as I them.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Another Morning of Waking Too Up Early

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Good Morning, World!!! It is three thirty-three in the morning here in Seattle. Thankfully, I was able to sleep the last three and half hours and am thrilled about that. Yes, I wish I could have gotten more sleep, but I am grateful for what sleep I did get. Now onto figuring out what I am going to do to pass the time.

I am most likely going to do a combination of math, continuing education for being a peer and recovery related workbooks. Yes, you read right, I plan on doing math. Yes, I know that is weird, but it is a subject that I suck at. As far as continuing education courses for my peer certification, I am learning some new things and being reminded of other things. The workbooks I am working is to help me with my recovery and I am very appreciative of them. As I do all this my cat, Billie will likely be in my lap sleeping. I love my cat, Billie so very much and I am so very grateful that he is a lap kitty.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Middle of the Night Ramblings

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Good Morning, World!!! It is 12:08 in the morning here in Seattle. I have not been to sleep yet. Part of it is due to insomnia while the other part is due to anxiety of having a concussion and afraid to go to sleep. Since I am wide awake due to anxiety of falling asleep with a hint of insomnia, I have been keeping myself busy. I have been busy doing math. Yes, I said math. I have also been busy doing artwork. The form of artwork that I have been doing is color. While I have colored and done math, my cat, Billie has been cuddling in my lap. I love the fact that I have cat who is a total cuddle bug and lap kitty.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Mid-Day Ramblings

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Good Afternoon, World!!! It is twelve thirty-three in the afternoon here in Seattle and I am still awake. As much as I would have loved to go to sleep when I felt like I could; I could not. I could not because I did a volunteer shift with Alley Cat Project. In fact, I am still doing my volunteer shift with Alley Cat Project. My volunteer shift ends at one o’clock in the afternoon. When my shift ends in twenty-seven minutes, I am planning on taking a nap. A long nap at that.

As much as I am looking forward to my nap and plan on taking one, I also have other ideas on what I would like to do with my day. One of the things I am going to do once I am done with my nap is to continue listening to a podcast. A podcast about philosophy. The philosophy podcast I am listening is Philosophize This. I really enjoy listening to this podcast and learning about philosophy. In fact, I read books that are suggested in the podcast as well as read up on the philosophers who are discussed in the podcast.

As I listen to the podcast, Philosophize This, I plan on doing some art. The type of art I plan on doing is diamond art/painting. The diamond art/painting that I am doing is the one the tuxedo cat in a tree. I am nowhere close to being finished as it is a slow process. A process that is well worth it as once it is finished, you have a sense of accomplishment and a finished piece of art. I really enjoy doing diamond art/painting and I grateful that my neighbor introduced me to it.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post except that I really want some sleep, and I hope I can easily fall asleep for a nap. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Happy Friday!!!

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Good Morning and Happy Friday, World!!! It is a beautiful sunny Friday here in Seattle and my morning walk was awesome and helped woke me up a little. I am tired as hell as I sadly have not slept all night. I am assuming I could not sleep last night due to insomnia. As much as I would love to take a nap, I am not able to. I am not able to because I have a volunteer shift with Alley Cat Project. I am really glad that my volunteer job with Alley Cat Project. I am also beyond thrilled that it is sunny in Seattle today as the sun will help keep me awake during my volunteer shift.

I am wondering if I will hear back today from the potential employer that I interviewed with this past Tuesday regarding if I got the job or not. I was informed that I would hear back no later than next Friday which is what I am expecting but one can hope to hear back sooner than later. I really want this job, and I am surprised that I was asked for references the day after my interview because I think I did a really crappy job interviewing. Like I said I really want this job, and I hope I get it. I also hope I am not pulling the cart before the horse or jinxing myself or getting my hopes up too high as I don’t want to be beyond devastated if I don’t get the job.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Middle of the Night Struggles

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! It is one seventeen in the morning here in Seattle and I am struggling. I am struggling with the lack of sleep. The lack of sleep is due to insomnia and PTSD. The lack of sleep is also causing me to struggle more with my PTSD and some increased depression symptoms. Both the depression and PTSD is causing some anxiety and anger. Neither emotion is an emotion I like to deal with. Hell, I try my best to avoid both emotions.

On the note of emotions, I have been using the coping skills in the Emotional Regulation module of Dialectal Behavioral Therapy (DBT). These skills are very helpful for me especially right now. In fact, all the DBT skill in all four modules are helpful for me. As I do my DBT skills I remember that when I made an active choice to be in active mental health recovery it was when I decided to be in an intensive outpatient DBT program and that gives me hope that things will get better, and this too will pass.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Finally Got Sleep

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! It is 10:09 in the morning here in Seattle and it is a beautiful sunny day outside. I also finally got some much-needed sleep which is something I needed since I will be doing volunteer shift with Alley Cat Project and PAWS Cat City.

Oh, how I love to be able to give of my time to nonprofit organizations especially ones that help cats. I really enjoy giving my time especially when it comes to helping cats as I am a huge cat lover. I also love that my volunteer positions at Alley Cat Project and PAWS Cat City are completely different yet gives me a similar skill set for future volunteer jobs as well as future paid employment.

Speaking of employment, I had a job interview this past Tuesday which I thought did not go so very well. It apparently went better than expected as I received an email yesterday asking for references. I take being asked for references after a job interview as a good sign and I really hope it is a good sign. I really would like this job.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Still No Sleep for Me

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! It is five forty in the morning here in Seattle and I still have not slept which royally sucks. I really wish I could sleep. Sleep is important to a person’s physical health as well as a person’s mental health and hope I get some sleep, so it does not start affecting my health or wellbeing.

Not only am dealing with no sleep due to insomnia and PTSD, but I am also dealing with some depression symptoms. Just like I mentioned in my last post I have been working on some workbooks to help me with the symptoms of my mental health challenges. Learning new coping skills and building on the coping skills that I have learned throughout the years in my recovery only helps me even more in my recovery journey. As tired as I am, I am grateful that I have the time to learn new coping skills through the recovery related workbooks that I am doing.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

PTSD + Insomnia = No Sleep

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! It is two thirty-four in the morning here in Seattle. I am sadly unable to sleep. I am unable to due to PTSD and insomnia which sucks but it is something that I have dealt with in the past. As much as it sucks, I am also realizing that I am fighting some depression symptoms which makes the no sleep thing with PTSD and insomnia suckier than it should be.

Since I am dealing with little sleep due to insomnia and PTSD as well as dealing with increased depression symptoms, I have decided to do some recovery related workbooks. Workbooks that are helping me learn new skills as well as helping me build more resiliency in my life. I am glad that I do workbooks to help myself with my recovery as the skills I learn helps build on what I have already learned in my recovery. For me my recovery is one of the most important things in my life.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post except that I wish I could sleep and didn’t have to deal with insomnia, depression and PTSD. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!