Tag Archives: Depression

Is It Too Much To Ask For Sleep

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Good Morning, World!!! It is three o’clock in the morning and I haven’t been to sleep yet. I have been keeping myself busy by reading. Reading appears to be of help to me. Especially on nights where I am unable to sleep. Reading is so much more fun than watching middle of the night television. Television that is nothing but infomercials.

I have also been working on my workbook. A workbook that is geared toward folks with insomnia who struggle with depression and anxiety. I am only on the first chapter but so far I am finding it helpful.

I am grateful that I have the abilities to help myself through not being able to sleep. Yes, insomnia suck shit but I am able to help myself. I am able to help myself by reading, doing workbooks, blogging and other such things.

Thanks for reading. I hope to be able to get some sort of sleep. Have a great morning even if it is still the middle of the night for you. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Working Through Shit

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Good Evening, World!!! I am having one of those moments again where I just need to write through shit. Shit that includes PTSD symptoms. PTSD symptoms that are severe at the moment but I know I will get through them.

I should find out some time in the next day or two about how much money I earned with the advertisements on my blog. I get paid through PayPal which will be good for my online purchase and help keep me from using my credit card. I have to earn a minimum of one hundred dollars to be able to access the money I earned which sucks.

I just don’t know why I am having an up and down day today. It sucks shit. Having Depression and PTSD is no fun and wish the emotions that came with them would subside even a little bit.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Monday Afternoon Ramblings

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Good Afternoon, World!!! Now that I am home, I can relax. I, overall had a good day. I of course went to art group and had a great time. I enjoyed myself like I usually do in art group.

I am glad I went to art group as well as day treatment because it helped with the isolation and depression. If I didn’t go today, I would have been home by myself not reaching out to others.

Now that I am home, Junior came over and is going to be making spaghetti for dinner. We are going to have a couple of friends come over for dinner. Having people come over is going to be a good thing for me. It is good for me to see friends to help me with the depression and isolation.

I should go help Junior with dinner. Thank you for reading. Have a wonderful day. Peace Out, World!!!

Combatting Boredom & Isolation

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Good Morning, World!!! I am bored as I sit here in day treatment. So, I decided to blog. I know if I was at home I would be isolating and bored. Isolating is not a good thing when depression in acting up. Coming into day treatment to fight isolation is the best bet for me and my depression symptoms despite being bored.

Plus, I have art group this afternoon. I am looking forward to art group as always. For me art helps me express my emotions. Emotions that can be extremely intense for me. Intense emotions is why art is so great for me.

The weather in Seattle is beautiful today. It is suppose to get into the high sixties or low seventies. I hope it does get into the seventies as I love warmer weather. Warm weather is absolutely fabulous for me and my mood.

Thank you for reading. I hope everyone has a great Monday and work week. Peace Out, World!!!

A Goodnight’s Sleep

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Good Morning, World!!! I actually got six hours of sleep last night. I am thrilled that I got that much sleep. I know six hours of sleep may not seem like a lot of sleep but for me it is. Sleeping six hours is a good thing.

As much as I am excited about getting so much sleep, I woke up depressed. Waking up depressed makes me acutely aware on how vigilant I have to be today. It is not fun waking up depressed but being diligent about what I need to do to make sure I don’t make it worse.

One thing I’ll do to not make it worse is attending art group. Going to art group will help me not isolate as well as being able to expression myself. I love attending art group.

I need to get going so I can do my morning routine. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

 

A Relaxing Sunday

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Good Evening, World!!! It is a beautiful day in Seattle. I have had a pretty good day despite dealing with depression. As stated in a previous post, I went to the park and read. I enjoyed myself and the weather.

Now that I am home, I will continue to read. Reading appears to be helping me a great deal as of lately. Reading is also something I enjoy immensely. For me it helps fight off depression when I am able to concentrate and thankfully, I am able to do so.

Something else that I will be doing now that I am home as well is listen to a podcast or two. Specifically, one on philosophy. I am enjoying the podcast a great deal and learning lots of awesome stuff I didn’t know before.

Everything I am doing today is helping me with my recovery. Working on my recovery is something that means the world to me. If it weren’t for my recovery I would not be blogging.

Thank you for reading and Peace Out, World!!!

Sunny in Seattle Does the Depression Good

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Good Afternoon, World!!! At this moment in time I have laundry in the washer. I realized that it needed to be done. For me I rather get the chores out of the way so I can enjoy the rest of the day.

Despite having laundry in the washer I have enjoyed the sunny weather already by taking a nice two mile walk. A walk that did me good with the exercise and the sun. The sunny weather is quite helpful to fighting off depression or at least for me it helps.

After my laundry is done, I plan on taking another walk. This time to a park. I’ll take a book with me to the park to read in the nice sunny weather. There is something cool about reading in a park on a nice sunny day. Too bad its not warm to go to the lake and read. It would be a little chilly for me. I do know it will warm up this week to be able to do that.

I got to go and check on my laundry and put it into the dryer. Have a good Sunday. Thank you so much for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Plans to Fight Off Depression

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Good Morning, World!!! I am thrilled to have 300 hundred followers. Yes, I realize I posted a really short post about this already but it is a big deal to me. It’s a big deal to me because it means people are actually interested in my blog.

As I think about what I am going to do for the day I noticed that my depression is trying to ruin my day. I am bound to not let the depression ruin my day because I have plans to make it a lazy and relaxing day. For me depression can easily ruin my day I today I am setting my mind to not let it do so.

One of the things I’ll be doing today to make it a good day for me is reading. Reading has been a great go to coping skill for me as of lately. Being able to concentrate on reading is a huge deal for me as it has been difficult for me to do until recently.

Another thing that I will be doing is listening to podcast. Specifically a podcast on philosophy. I have been learning a great deal about the topic of philosophy and realize that I it is a subject that I enjoy. A subject that they would have taught when I was in high school.

Thank you for reading. Have a wonderful Sunday. Peace Out, World!!!

Midnight Ramblings

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Hello, World!!! I have trouble comprehending why I have such a difficult time at night. Not just with sleep but with the symptoms of anxiety and depression. I am struggling a little bit with depression and anxiety relating to PTSD. Dealing with symptoms this time of night when your natural supports are unavailable for whatever reason can be difficult and challenging for me.

As challenging as it is for me right now, I know what I can do to help myself. I can turn to my coping skills. Coping skills that have helped me a great deal throughout my recovery. Coping skills that will continue to help me even in this moment in time.

One of the things I will do is color. As any type of art has helped me a great deal. In fact I’ll probably end doing some collaging as well because it helps me put words to my emotions.

Another thing I will be doing is a mindfulness and meditation practice as this helps quiet my mind. It puts me in a better head space. A head space that is at least in neutral gear.

Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Thursday Evening Ramblings

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Good Evening, World!!! Today, has been a relatively good day despite dealing with anxiety and depression. Anxiety and depression that hasn’t been as bad as it has in recent days and weeks. I owe that to the sunny weather here in Seattle. Sunny weather always helps with the symptoms of my mental health conditions such as anxiety and depression.

Art also has helped with my anxiety and depression lifting. For example creating my coping skills box was an awesome art project for me. Having a specific art project to focus appears to be of help to me even though doing any art is helpful.

Something I think I am going to do after blogging is reading. As I have mentioned before I enjoy reading. Reading has been helpful for me as well to reduce the symptoms of my depression and anxiety.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!