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Here Is To A Good Monday

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Good Morning, World!!! It is yet another Monday. Monday’s are days that many folks around the world dread because it is the start of the work week. I for one dread it for other reasons. Reason’s I would really not discuss at the moment.

Today, I don’t have much to dread at I have a job interview at my previous employer. I am looking forward to it. I am looking forward to it for a multitude of reasons. Reasons that I can not share due to HIPPA laws. One reason I can share is that I am looking forward to looking forward to seeing some former colleagues. Colleagues that I have become friends with.

After my job interview, I plan on going to Art Group. Art group helps me express myself when words tend to fail me. In fact my therapist is going to try to make it to art group to be a co-facilitator of the group. I personally think he would be good at it.

Here is to a good Monday everyone!!! Peace Out, World!!!

A Whirl Wind Of Things Going On

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Good Evening, World!!! The last few days have been a whirl wind. A whirl wind of things to do that has been overwhelming and mostly in a good way. Let’s start with the training I did this weekend. I attended a facilitator training to become a volunteer group facilitator at a local peer run origination. I figure this will help me career wise especially since I am applying for new jobs. Volunteering always looks good on the resume’.

I have a job interview at my previous employer. It is a Peer job at with one of their Substance Use Disorders (SUD) programs. It is a full time job and not sure if working full time is a wise decision for me to do. But I need the practice for the interview. If I get the job I can find out more it and turn it down if it is not the job for me.

I also have art group tomorrow that I am debating weather or not if I am going to go. I am debating as I would still be in my interview clothes and don’t want to ruin them.  It is something to thing about right now.  We will see what I’ll do and how I feel after my interview.

Thank you so much for reading my blog. It is much appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Another Busy Day

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Good Morning, World!!! Today is going to be another busy day for me as I am attending another day of facilitator training to be a volunteer group facilitator at a Peer run community center that holds groups. Groups that are peer led and NOT led by a case manager or therapist. It may only be a volunteer gig but it works for me at the moment. Plus it looks good on the resume’.

When I get home I’ll prepare for my job interview for tomorrow. Not sure if I am ready for a full time job but at least I am getting my name out there and able to get job interviews.

I just wanted to let you know what was up today. I will try to post about the training this evening. I hope you all have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Cat Helping Me Through PTSD

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Good Morning, World!!! My cat woke me up from another nightmare. Something that I am an extremely proud of her for. I am just tired has hell and wish I could go back to sleep after the nightmare but unable to do so at the moment. Lil Gertie is curly up with me and giving me the emotional support that I need at the moment. She is an awesome little kitty.

On the other hand I did to attempt to get back to sleep as I have one more training to go to in regards in becoming a facilitator for groups at a peer run agency. Agency that only gets funding by getting grants. Being a volunteer facilitator will look great on the resume’. A resume’ that will help me get a job that I want.

Going back to the grants and funding. It’s has been a desire of mine to learn how to learn how to write grants as it could be helpful in getting jobs in the the nonprofit sectors of jobs. I hope someday I can go to school for this.

Thank you for reading. Have a good night everyone. Peace Out, World!!!

It’s Going To Be A Busy Weekend

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Good Morning, World!!! I know I just posted about an hour ago about how my Friday went. Well this post is going to be how busy my weekend is going to be going. I am going to be going to a facilitator training both today and tomorrow at a local peer run program. This training to help be a volunteer co-facilitator at this peer run program. The training is both today and tomorrow.

I know it it will be an intense training and am prepared for it as much as I can be emotionally. Trainings are quite emotionally draining and I have prepared as much as one can be prepared for such training’s.

I should get going as I need to get ready for the day. Have a great weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

A Full & Busy Friday (Late Post)

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Good Saturday Morning, World!!! This post is a day late as I wanted it to post it yesterday. I went to my doctor’s appointment yesterday morning. We had a heart to heart discussion about my suicide attempt late last week. We discussed a safety plan and called my therapist who was surprisingly available to answer his phone. So the three of us discussed the safety plan and the fear I had on stricter med moderating. My therapist informed me that it will need to be a discussion that need to be continued. He did think the ideas my doctor and I cam up with were great idea’s.

I also went to my Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) group. It is going to be challenging as we will be doing chain analysis but I am looking forward to doing this. Other members don’t want to do it has “its too hard” and it is but I am all for being accountable to my behavior. One person is thinking about dropping out because “its getting too hard.” I look at if this way if you don’t do something difficult that you won’t be able to grow as person.

Thanks you for reading. Have a good weekend. Peace Out, World!!!!

My Cat Thinks She Is Human

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Good Morning, World!!! I have notice a few things about Lil Gertie the last couple of days. It started when Lil Gertie took a Cheeto out of my hand the other day and just ate it. Then the other night she was more hyper than usual so I put on one of my favorite bands, Black Sabbath and she calmed the hell down. Who knew Black Sabbath would calm down a hyper cat. Last night she got on my lap and started eating my strawberry ice cream right from the bowl. Then as I was attempting to eat my doughnut she grabbed a piece and ate that this morning. I swear my cat thinks she is a human.

I go see my doctor in a couple of hours. She is just going to check up on me after my suicide attempt last week. My doctor is an awesome person. She wants to make sure I am doing alright both physically and mentally after last week.

I also start back up in DBT group today. I am so looking forward to DBT group this afternoon. I love being able to focus using my skills and being a “leader” in the group according to the group facilitators. I don’t know about being a leader but I do the skills and share my experience on how well the DBT skills work for me.

Thank you for reading. Have a great Friday. Peace Out, World!!!

Good Morning, World

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Good Morning, World!!! I got some sleep last night and woke up on this god awful hour because Lil Gertie woke me up form a nightmare. She woke me up with a like on the nose. With her waking me up from the worst part of the nightmare from happening she has done her job and I didn’t have to train her to do that.

I have quite a lot planned today. First I go see my doctor a ten this morning. I am looking forward to seeing her as she has been my doctor for nine years. She is going to do a check up after the attempt to take my own life last week. My doctor is awesome.

I will all so be starting Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) back up today. I am looking forward to this as it gives me the structure and skills I need to help myself. I love being able to help myself with the skills I know how to do has well as the ones I will be learning.

I emailed my therapist about the PTSD stuff and how Lil Gertie has been helpful for me. I attempt to only email him when I think he needs to know something soon. As someone who worked in the mental health field I know from experience that I am more likely respond to an email verses a voicemail.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

 

 

Late Evening Ramblings

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Good Evening, World!!! I sit here at my laptop attempting on what I should do next with my evening. I have already ate, taken a shower and am in my pajama’s ready to relax for the night. Not sure what I am going to do except watch the news. News that always seems to be so negative.

I have had a pretty good day.  Having structure in my life is always a good thing for me. As difficult as therapy was for me today it was a good session. As I mentioned in an earlier post we discussed what I could do differently to not attempt to take my own life. One of those things is having my cat, Lil Gertie around. Another thing is to attend groups to help with the structure part of my life that I need.

I think I am going to work on one of my workbooks. The one that is strengths based. The one that I am on the topic of courage. Courage is a difficult topic for me and I have no clue what. It is something to talk to my therapist about.

Life is good. I think I am going to go for a walk now. Have a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

Today Marks Four Years

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Good Evening, World!!! I know I just posted about the overall good day I had about an hour ago; I forgot that today marks four years since I started blogging. It is hard to believe that it has been four years since I started blogging.

In those four years it is my hope that reached out to people and educated folks to lessen the stigma of having a mental health challenge. It also comes to my conclusion that I have use my blog as a journal to give out hope. Hope to those who may feel alone in their mental health condition.

Well that is all I have to say about me blogging for four years. Have a great day. Peace out, World!!!