Still, No Sleep In Seattle

Good  Morning, World!!! It is now five o’clock in the morning here in Seattle and I still haven’t had a wink of sleep. I even took a dose of my sleeping meds after my last post and well the Ambien didn’t work. I just laid there in bed for about an hour while my cat, Lil Gertie, laid next to me purring as she got petted most of that hour.

I have managed to keep myself busy the last few hours. One of the things I have done was watch movies. In fact I watched two Harry Potter movies. That helped to take my mind off of things for a while.

The next thing I did was read a handful of Wonder Woman comic books. Reading Wonder Woman comic books always seem to give me the strength I need for the moment even if that is not my intention for reading Wonder Woman.

Watching Harry Potter and reading Wonder Woman may have helped me get my mind off of things as well a given me strength to handle things, I was hoping hoping that both would relax me enough to get to sleep. Unfortunately, I was not able to get to sleep doing either.

Now I am watching the morning news as I await the arrival of my news paper. I prefer to read the news paper first and then watch the morning news however my news paper has not arrived yet. Of course it is just five o’clock in the morning and the paper usually gets here between five thirty and six o’clock in the morning.

I do have therapy later this morning. In fact I see my therapist at eleven thirty this morning for an hour. The lack of sleep is one of the many things I hope to bring up to him today. I really like my therapist as he is quite helpful. Besides being helpful to me he is a strengths based therapist which means he helps me focus on my strengths so when in times of weakness, I can rely on the strength I have. He is also recovery focused which is a great thing for me. Having a therapist the is recovery focused and strengths based is awesome and rare or I think it is rare as it is difficult to find one that is both especially in the community mental health system.

I don’t have much else to say at the moment. It looks like I have been long winded for this post and that wasn’t my intention. My intention was to keep this post sweet and to the point and not so long. I apologize for my post being so long and e being incredibly long winded. It appears that I need to end the post from my cats, Lil Gertie, point of view as well. I say this cause she is attempting to sit on the key board of my laptop to prevent me form writing.

As this post comes to a close, I want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. I hope everyone has a great week. Have a good day everyone. Peace Out, World!!!

A Sleepless Night Turns Into Morning

Good Morning, World!!! I didn’t sleep at all last night and it now six forty five in the morning in my corner of the world. I am struggling at the moment not only because I had a sleepless. I am also struggling with some severe PTSD as well as grief over my grandma’s death nearly seven months ago.

I am planning on spending time with family today. Not because I am dealing with the grief of my grandma but because it is something my grandma wanted as her last wish. For her family to spend time together on the regular basis. I am not sure if I am wanting to go due to the lack of sleep however I will go due to it being the wish of my grandma.

I am not sure what else I am going to do today but I plan on doing something. Most likely I will attempt to take a nap due to the lack of sleep I got last night. I also plan on doing some grocery shopping and laundry. I, of course will play with Lil Gertie, my cat.

I don’t have much more to say. Thank you for reading my blog. It is very much appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Too Early To Be Up On A Saturday

Good Morning, World. It is six o’clock in the morning in my corner of the world. I have been awake since about three this morning when my cat woke me up from a nightmare by licking my toes. Some how my cat knows when I am having a nightmare and wakes me up before it can get any worse.

I did make me a nice breakfast and just finished eating it. I had scrambled eggs, bacon and French toast. I gave Lil Gertie, my cat, a little piece of bacon. She appeared to enjoy the bacon. She deserved the piece of bacon since she did wake me up from a nightmare.

I just wish I could go back to sleep. Going back to sleep would be nice. Maybe I can take a nap later on before I go to my volunteer job. I don’t want to be a cranky bucket when I am talking with people on a help line.

Thank you so much for reading my blog. It is so very much appreciated from my end of things. I hope everyone has a great weekend. I hope you all can find something to do to enjoy the world around you. Peace Out, World!!!!

Friday Evening Blues

Good Evening, World!!! Right now I am feeling a little blue. Actually, I am feeling sad and depressed. I am missing my grandma. I wish she was here so I can talk to her but she is not.

I did do some baking. Baking helped me a great deal. I was able to give away some of the things I baked to some friends. Friends who mostly live in my building and rarely get freshly baked goods due to their finances or lack of friends and/or family in their life or their disability. I try to do something nice for the friends I have that live in my building due to the fact many don’t have much of a support system.

I will be spending time with my family on Sunday and I am looking forward to it. I am looking forward to it as it will give me a chance to get out of my apartment building. I have been somewhat isolating myself and not really going out into the community like I should. Spending time with neighbors have been helpful but spending time will be great.

I just don’t have that much to say right now. Maybe it is because I am really missing my grandma at the moment. My cat, Lil Gertie, has been helping me a great deal today. She has pretty much been by my side much of the day when I wasn’t in the kitchen or at a neighbors place.

Thank you for reading. It is greatly appreciated. I hope everyone has a great weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

Finding Ways To Get Out of This Slump

Good Morning, World!!! For some unknown reason I am struggling this morning. I had a good night of sleep and have had breakfast. Usually a good nights sleep with a good meal helps with the better moods yet that doesn’t seem to be the case at the moment.

I am not sure what I am going to do to combat the struggles I am dealing with at the moment. I think I am going to spend time with Lil Gertie, my cat, because she is able to keep me grounded a good portion of the time.

I think after I am done blogging, I will email my therapist and let him know that I am struggling for some unknown reason. I think he would be appreciative that I am letting him know that I am having a rough moment.

I think after emailing my therapist about this slump that I am in, i am going to do some baking. I think I’ll back some brownies and a cake. Baking will give me something to do and most importantly, I’ll be able to share it with other people. To me being able to give things away especially stuff I have made gives me a sense of joy.

I need to get going. I think emailing my therapist would be the most helpful to me in the moment. Then on to the baking. Thank you for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great Friday. Peace Out, World!!!

A Day of Self-Care

Hello, World!!! Today, overall has been a good day. Despite it being a good day I have dealt with a great deal of grief regarding my grandma. Tomorrow (Sunday, September 2nd) would have been my grandparents 63rd wedding anniversary.

Since I have been dealing with grief a great deal today and the last couple of weeks I decided to make it a day of self care. I spent most of the day playing with my cat, Lil Gertie as well as reading Wonder Woman comic books. I did this so I could be in a good head space to volunteer earlier this evening for a help line..

Volunteering helped me a great deal. It helped me get out of my head as well as out of myself to help others. Helping others by volunteering gives me a purpose that even work can not give me.

Now that I am home, I am going back to doing what I was doing earlier in the day. That is petting and/or playing with my cat, Lil Gertie, and reading Wonder Woman comic books. I know it will be helpful for me as it has been proven helpful to me earlier as well as in the past.

Thank you for reading. Have a great rest of your Saturday. Peace Out, World!!!

Monday Morning Madness

Good Morning, World!!! As always there is always some madness to Monday mornings. Not sure why there always seems to be some morning madness to Mondays but there is. Today’s Monday morning madness it brought to you by last minute shit that needs to be done before I head to conference later on today.

For instance, I have some last minute packing I need to do. Stuff like my laptop other such stuff. For the most part I am mostly packed. I highly dislike packing which is why I do as much as I can as early as I can. I pack early because I am always fearful I might forget something.

As I pack the last of what need to, I am also getting ready for the day and other stuff I need to do. For example, I have therapy today. I have to emotionally prepare myself for therapy as it is hard and difficult work. Another thing I need to do I get wet (canned) cat food for my cat so my cat sitters can give Lil Gertie, my cat, a special treat while I will at the conference. Another last minute thing I have to do is get my meds. I most definitely need to get my meds or I won’t be able to function very well.

Well, I need to get going and get ready for a long day ahead. Thank you so much for reading my blog. I hope you have a great Monday. Have a great week ahead. Peace Out, World!!!

Ways To Get Through The Grief Today

Good Morning, once again, World!!! I know this is my third time blogging this morning but I am having a tough moment with grief at the moment. So I want to discuss what I plan on doing today to help through the grief of missing my grandma.

First and fore most I am relying on the support of Lil Gertie, my cat. She has her moments of being a cat and not want anything to do with me or any other human. Just having her around is helpful for me. She has be cuddly with me this morning which is most helpful with dealing with grief.

Another way I am going to deal with the grief is going to go to a local peer run organization to volunteer. I volunteer by helping co-facilitate a peer support group. Due to confidentiality I can’t go into more detail about it. But I enjoy being able to volunteer by co-facilitate a peer run group.

Another thing I am doing today is spending time with my family. We are celebrating my grandpa’s birthday today even though it was this past Thursday (August 23rd). Celebrating my grandpa’s birthday is going to be a good thing. Yes, a little difficult as it is his first birthday without my grandma but my dad, two uncles and I will do our best to make it a good one for him.

When I get home from spending time with my family, I plan on packing. Packing for a peer conference I will be volunteering at. The conference may not start till Tuesday but I need to be at the hotel tomorrow afternoon to help do last minute set up as I am volunteering for the conference. So I will be doing a lot of packing. Yes, I will be able to attend the sessions of the conference as I volunteer and that is the beauty of it. I just hope I don’t forget anything when I am packing for the conference.

Thank you for reading. Have a great Sunday. I hope to be able to blog again later today but I can’t make any promises. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Blog
  • Co-Facilitate Group (A volunteer gig I have)
  • Spend time with family

Monday

  • Blog
  • Therapy
  • Head to Hotel for conference
  • Help set up last minute stuff for peer conference
  • Spend time with friends (who are fellow peer specialist/counselors)

Tuesday

  • Blog
  • Attend and Volunteer at Peer Conference
  • Spend time with friends (who are fellow peer specialist/counselors)

Wednsday

  • Blog
  • Attend and volunteer at peer conference
  • Head home after conference is over
  • Spend time with cat when I get home from the conference

Thursday

  • Blog
  • Go to doctor’s appointment
  • General lazy day
  • Spend time with cat, Lil Gertie

Friday

  • Blog
  • Job interview
  • Spend time with family

Saturday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Spend time with friends
  • Volunteer at the Warm Line

 

Noon Time Randomness

Good Afternoon, World!!! I just woke up from a late morning nap and is now twelve noon. I decided to take a nap after reading the news paper and a good cry over my grandma. I still miss my grandma and I don’t think that will ever go away.

I also had a good cry over what was in the newspaper this morning. Actually it has been all over the news on television as well. The good cry I had was about how there is a cat killer in Washington’s capital city of Olympia. Sadly, eleven cats have been killed in Olympia. Olympia is about sixty miles southwest of Seattle. As a cat owner this angers me. What kind of sick individual kills harmless animals especially cute cuddly cats that love with all their heart.

Now onto a totally different subject, the weather. Seattle weather is much more cooler. But unfortunately the cooler weather isn’t helping the air quality of the region due to the wild fires. The poor air quality is effecting my asthma greatly.

I don’t have much to say in the post either. Sorry for such short post as of lately. Thank you so much for reading my blog. It is much appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!