No Sleep For Me

Good Morning, World!!! It is seven o’clock in my corner of the world and was unable to sleep last night. I took my Ambien as prescribed and still didn’t fall asleep. Yes, I remember blogging through the Ambien fog.

I was finally almost asleep when I had a severe asthma attack that led me to go to the Emergency Room.  At first the doctor though I was having an anxiety attack but thankfully my oxygen levels proved the doctor wrong. I love it when the doctors are proven wrong. My asthma attack was due to the poor air quality Seattle is having due to all the wild fires around the state.

When I got home from the hospital, I tried to get back to sleep. Unfortunately, I was unable to get to sleep Partly out of fear of having another asthma and partly because my cat wanted to play. So I gave up on sleep and gave into my cat and played with her. On the plus side at least I can take a nap later on in the day.

Thank you so much for reading my blog. It is so very much appreciated from my end. Peace Out, World!!!

Sleepless In Seattle Due to an Asthma Attack

Right now, I don’t want to wish anyone a good fucking morning as I am sitting in a hospital bed dealing with an asthma attack. I have been dealing with asthma as long as I can remember and this is the worst attack that I have had in several years. I blame it on the poor air quality due to all the smoke the wild fires are burning.

The thing that pisses me off the most is the doctor thought I was faking it to make it look more like an anxiety attack to get some strong anti-anxiety meds but boy was he wrong when the nurse looked over me and stated that it’s a real case of asthma. The doctor was not too happy with the nurse but the nurse saved my life by doing her actual job when doctor really didn’t do anything at all.

As I sit here at my laptop, I am receiving some breathing treatments. They appear to be working as it seems like I am breathing better. The nurse should be back shortly to see how things are going for me.

Hopefully, I won’t be here too much longer. I hope your Tuesday starts off better than my Tuesday has. I can’t wait to get back home to my cat, Lil Gertie. I am sure she (my cat) is wondering where the hell I am.

Thank you for reading my sickly post. I will be better in no time. Have a great Tuesday and thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Adulting Type of Day Turned Into A Childhood Type of Day

Good Afternoon, World!!! Today started out with me having to do some adulting. I had to go to DSHS and take care of a mistake that they made and was easily fixed. I then took care of some medical bills and getting charity care for most of the bills and on a payment plan for the rest of the bill. I also set up a payment plan with a collection agency due to an overdue medical bill. On top of that I got my meds and did some household chores.

After realizing that I got all my adulting done for the day by ten thirty in the morning, I realized my emotions were starting to get the better of me. The first thing I did was cuddle with my cat. I ended up playing with my cat with her wand thingy and laser which she loves playing with both.

As I played with my cat I realized my emotions were still at an uncomfortable level so I decided to do some art work. I did some painting as well as collaging. I even combined the two genres which looks really cool.

As I finished painting I decided to play with some of the toys I have which helped a great deal. It helped me deal with the childhood emotions I was dealing with when I was done doing the adulting things. There is something therapeutic about playing with toys even as an adult.

My grandpa then called me if I wanted to go over to his place to go swimming and to have dinner. I, of course said yes to this. I love swimming and it is hard to say no to free food.  I swam for a couple of hours and ate till I was stuffed.

So when I came home from my grandpa’s house, I decided to sit down at my laptop and blog about it. Dealing with both my adulthood and childhood emotions today was a good thing emotionally.

Thank you so much for reading my blog. I am grateful that I have people like you who are willing to read what goes on in my life. I hope you all had a great Monday as mine turned into an awesome one. Have a great evening. I hope all of you will continue to read my blog, no matter how much I ramble on. Peace Out, World!!!

An Adulting Type of Day

Good Morning, World!!! I don’t know where to start so I guess, I will start at the beginning. I started off the day with going to the DSHS office and well it always sucks dealing with government agencies but thankfully everything was taken care of. Thankfully, I am getting some of my medical back and getting my food stamps back.

After dealing with DSHS, I had to make some phone calls. Phone calls regarding medical bills and one collection agency. I have been able to get charity care and/or make payment plans which is a burden off of my back.

I have also gone to the pharmacy to get my meds for the week. I am now getting my meds on the weekly basis per my psychiatric nurse practitioner. After having a suicide attempt a month ago with Tylenol she didn’t want to risk me overdosing on my meds. To tell you the truth I am more likely to stop my meds than to over dose on them. I am hoping that I will only have to do this for a month or two to prove myself again. I know she is only doing this for my protection. So, I got my meds and I take them as prescribed.

I have some household chores that I have been putting off that finally got done. Getting my household chores done is a great accomplishment.

Hell, doing everything I have done today by ten thirty in the morning in my corner of the world is a major accomplishment. I am very proud of myself for being able to do all this by ten thirty in the morning.

Now, I don’t know what to do with the rest of my day. I know I will be spending time with my cat, Lil Gertie as she helps me with my emotions.  As I figure out what to do with the rest of my day, I want to thank you for reading my blog. Have a wonderful Monday and a great work week. Peace Out, World!!!

Just Me Bitching About Shit

Good Evening, World!!!  I am struggling at the moment and not sure why. I have an inkling why but it’s just the same bullshit I have been discussing about in most of my post as of lately.

I am getting highly annoyed with this weird ass mouth infection that appears that won’t fucking go away. Normally if I was in this much pain, I would go to the hospital however I already know that all the doctors and nurses would say is to take ibuprofen which doesn’t really do shit but I understand why they don’t want to give me something stronger. Doctors are fearful of getting someone addicted to narcotic pain relievers and I don’t blame them. I just want the pain to go away. Actually, I want the infection to be gone so the pain can be gone.

I was suppose to hear back by the end of last week to get an interview at a potential employer sometime this week. That hasn’t happened yet. I wish people would keep their word and yes I know people get busy. I just want to get back to work.

Right now all I can do is to distract myself. I have been playing with my cat which has be quite helpful. Having a cat around sure is quite helpful. I have also been doing some art work. Specifically, I have been coloring. Coloring gives me a sense of peace and that is quite helpful.

Thank you for reading my blog again. I plan on posting again tomorrow. I hope you have a great rest of your Sunday evening. Peace Out, World!!!

 

There’s Nothing Like Cuddles From The Cat

Good Evening, World!!! There is nothing like being home especially where there are cat cuddle’s involved. Being able to cuddle with my cat today, or any time for that matter, has been quite helpful to me. Having a cat to come home to makes being home that much more better.

Right now I am watching the five o’clock news. As usual there is nothing really good on the news. Just a bunch of politics. Mainly, a bunch of politicians acting like a bunch of children. In fact children act more mature than politicians do now a days.

Right now I am having my anxiety and depression are acting up and I am not sure why. I am attributing a little bit to my current health problems and other to not having a job.  I mainly blame it on my weird as mouth infection that appears that won’t fucking go away.

I think I am going to work on applying for jobs after I am done post this blog and getting some cuddles from my cat, Lil Gertie. Getting cuddles from my cat, Lil Gertie, is quite helpful for me. I think job hunting and applying for jobs will be helpful as well.

Thank you so much for reading my blog. I appreciate it from the bottom of my heart. Have a great rest of you Sunday. Peace Out, World!!!

Home With Cat

Good Afternoon, World!!! I don’t know if I stated in my last post, I am now home with my cat. In fact my last post was written and posted here at home. It is nice to be home with my cat at my side. Right now she is purring and it is calming me down quite a bit.

Now that I am home, it is my goal to get my depression and anxiety under control. How do I plan on doing this you ask. Great question. I plan on blogging off and on all day today. I also plan on doing chores which is an odd way of helping with depression and anxiety. Of course spending time with my cat is another way that will be helpful for my anxiety and depression.

I also plan on spending it time with some of my neighbors who have become really good friends. In fact we will be having a potluck dinner. More like an early dinner at about four in the afternoon in my corner of the world. That is less than an hour away for me.

I just wish I wasn’t having such high anxiety and increasing depression despite everything I am doing to combat it. Maybe if I blog later on about the dinner I had or whatever the hell is on my mind will help.

I want to thank you for reading my blog no matter how depressing it can be. For me I appreciate you for reading my blog. I thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Have a wonderful Sunday. I hope to blog again later on today to let you know how things have improved. Or I hope improved.  I am very grateful for all of you reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Why Can’t My Brain Turn Off

Good Afternoon, World!!! I am struggling at the moment with my brain not turning off. I am not sure why I can’t turn it off at the moment. I have had a pretty good day as I spent it with my family.

I am wondering why my brain won’t turn off and there are many reasons why. Reasons I can’t take care of till tomorrow. One has to do with DSHS paper work that has to do with human and/or computer error. Another reason is that a couple of my medical bill have gone to collections and I thought I took care of it with the appropriate people so it looks like I will be on the phone a lot tomorrow and maybe most of the week. Oh how I hate being on the phone for things I thought I already have taken care of.

All this is making me worry about money even more than I should be worried about it. Hopefully all this will be taken care of this tomorrow if not sometime this week. There is nothing I can really do right now as it is Sunday and have to wait to a weekday to deal with all this shit.

Dealing with all this shit isn’t helping much with my depression which sucks. But one thing that is helping with my depression right now is my cat. Having a cat that is willing to cuddle with you when you are down is quite helpful. I love Lil Gertie, my cat, so much.

Spending time with my family overnight and this morning was quite helpful with trying to turn my brain off as well. It helped a little but not as much as I would have hoped. I did enjoy spending time with my grandpa.

Now I have to figure out how to spend the rest of my day as I need to keep busy. I guess, I can do the usual stuff with doing art work, read, and spend time with neighbors and friends. I might even look for more jobs and apply for them. Another thing I can do is go for a walk as well as do household chores.

I want to thank you for reading about what is going on in my brain right now. I just hope everything works out as it needs to work out. Have a good Sunday. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Still With Family But Missing My Cat

Good Morning, again, World!!! I am still spending time with my family. Mainly my grandpa and uncle. It is always nice to spend time with family but I am missing my cat right now. I know my cat is in good hands with my friend (who is a neighbor) taking care of Lil Gertie but I still miss her. I should be going back home today.

My uncle is taking me to the DSHS office to take care of some medical insurance issues due to the fact that they think I make more money than I actually make. I am glad that I have family to help me out with this stuff. I hope I can get it taken care of tomorrow without having to go to the Social Security office which is even a bigger nightmare.

I just wish my health was in better shape as this weird ass mouth infection is really getting to me. Having to be on a butt loud of antibiotics is not my idea of fun. I feel like that my health is affecting my mental health. My mental health is something I need to keep an eye on especially my depression. This is where I wish I was home with my cat but maybe being with my family is helping me with the depression to a degree.

My grandpa is making breakfast for a late breakfast early lunch. Maybe more like a brunch. Not sure what he is making but it sure smells good. Having a supportive family means a great deal. Even though their support is not as supportive as they think it is but their heart is in the right place.

I better go an see if my grandpa needs help making breakfast or lunch or whatever it is. I hope you all have a wonderful Sunday. Peace Out, World!!!

Spending Time With Grandpa

Good Evening, World!!! It is ten o’clock at night in my corner of the world. I have been spending time with my grandpa as I am staying the night at his place tonight. We went to Red Robin to have a nice meal with wonderful service. After eating at Red Robin, we came back to my grandpa’s place and I applied for a job.

A part time job as a peer specialist. I was going to apply for my jobs but I got to sleepy to do so, so I feel asleep for about three hours. Sleep that I desperately need. Now that I am up and awake I plan on applying for more jobs as a peer specialist.

I am looking forward to my volunteer job interview with the Seattle Art Museum (SAM) on Thursday. I am looking forward to this because it will help me gain more of a community in the art community. Plus if I get the volunteer job it will look good on the resume’.

No need to worry about Lil Gertie, my cat, as she is being taking care of my a friend of mine who happens to be a neighbor. A friend who is really good with animals. He should be called the animal whisper.

Well, I am going to get going and watch the news. Have a wonderful night everyone. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!