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Friday Evening Ramblings

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! My therapist checked in with me before he left the office for the three day weekend. He reminded me the free music event going on this weekend at the Seattle Center. I plan on going to Folk Life on Monday with my friend from high school.

My anxiety has been acting up so I have been painting. I painted or attempted to paint another picture of Lil Gertie. I am hoping that with practicing that I could get good enough to sell some of my art.

Well I need to go and eat dinner. Have good three day weekend. Have a Happy Friday. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! As many of you know my family celebrated Mother’s Day today to honor my grandma. It was difficult for all of us as this is the first Mother’s Day without my grandma since she passed away.

As I told you earlier this week, I went to the Social Security office to discuss why I wasn’t getting any money. To find out I was suppose to be getting some money but they “forgot” to give it to me. Thankfully, my provisional checks were reinstated as I wait for Social Security  to make a decision.

I also made the decision to officially look into Buddhism. I have found that folks who consider themselves Buddhist to be at peace with themselves. Plus, I feel like it can help me with my recovery.

Thanks for reading. Have a goodnight. Peace Out, World!!!

Random Thoughts

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! I just woke up from a four hour nap. I just hope I can sleep tonight. I doubt I will be able to sleep but I will still try to do so.

Other than the late nap, I am doing well. I got my social security stuff taken care of even it it is just a temporary solution for now. I am not going to be complaining about the temporary solution because I am grateful for it.

I talked to brother today. He and I have the same mom but different dads. He hopes he made the right decision in contacting his aunt on his dads side. Jay is an awesome brother. He is extremely protective of me despite him being eleven years younger than me.

I better get going as I don’t have much else to say. Have a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

Good News

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I got good news. I am eligible for provisional eligibility of social security till they make a final determination if I am disabled in their eyes. I have had this disability for thirty years. I don’t think anything has changed. I still have mental health challenges whether or not I work or not.

I would love to go back to work and have a job I love again. I just don’t know if I can go back as soon as I had hoped. I love working and having a job where I can be a productive member of society.

Being a productive member of society for me would be working however that is not the case at the moment. So for me going to groups is a way for me to be productive. Being productive is crucial for me and my recovery.

Thank you for reading. I hope you have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Up ToO eArLy, AgAiN

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I am up too early, once again. I am getting a little annoyed with either not sleeping or getting up at this god awful hour of the morning. At least I got sleep. I think I got about five hours of sleep.

I am going to the social security office today. This time I hope I can actually get there. I need to take care of some business. They keep telling me that I am getting money and then go around saying I am not getting money. They have been doing this for two months now.

I thinking after I am done blogging, I am going to read. I am of course am going to be reading Star Wars: Heir To The Empire by Timothy Zahn. As I have mentioned in many other previous post the last few days, I have been enjoying the book quite immensely.

Thanks for reading. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

More Random Ramblings.

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I am starting to feel a lot better than I did this morning. I am planning on going to the social security office tomorrow since I didn’t make it today. On the plus note, social security put money into my account for some reason. I am not going to argue with getting money.

I bought two more Star Wars books to read with the money I got today. I am really impressed by the Star Wars: Heir To The Empire book I thought I would buy more. I really am enjoying the book.

Another thing I am planning on doing with the money is buying some art supplies. Art is another thing that is helpful for me and I love to paint. Painting helps me express my emotions when I can’t share them verbally.

Thank you for reading. Have a great day. Peace out, World!!!

Not Going to the Social Security Today

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I was headed out to go to the social security office to take care of some business. Unfortunately, I threw up. I threw up in the hallway of my apartment building. I cleaned up my mess and well now I am curled up on my couch blogging.

I am planning on reading my Star Wars books as well as resting most of the day. I love reading and am grateful that my depression isn’t severe enough to have an effect on my concentration.

Thank you for reading. I hope everyone has an awesome day. Peace Out, Word!!!

Preparing for the Social Security Office

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I am preparing to go to the Social Security office as they stopped giving me my hard earned money, I paid into the system. I am not looking forward to it as the Social Security office gives me really high anxiety.

To help me at the Social Security office I’m taking some stuff to help me while I wait. One thing I will be taking is one of my workbooks. A workbook about recovery and your strengths. Another thing I will be taking is my Star Wars book that I started read on Sunday. Reading is a great time to kill time while you wait.

I should get going so I can get ready. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Working Through Depression & Anxiety

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! I am still struggling with the depression as stated in my last post. When I realized that my depression was still acting up, I needed to eat dinner. I had Macaroni and Cheese and Fried Chicken. Eating helped both the depression and anxiety.

I may not know why the depression is acting up but I know why the anxiety is acting up. It is acting up because I am going to the social security office tomorrow. I don’t do well when I go to the social security office. My anxiety acts up when I am there for some reason.

I have been reading my Star Wars: Heir To The Empire book. I am really enjoying the book immensely. I hope to write a book review on it when I am finished with it. For me reading has been quire helpful for me as of lately.

Thank you for reading. Have a great evening and Peace Out, World!!!

Too Much Sh*t On My Mind

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I don’t know what to think right now. I have a lot of shit on my mind. I don’t know why I am having all this stuff going through my head.

I’m having trouble sleeping because of the shit going through my head. One thing I can’t seem to get out of my head is the trauma related stuff. Why can’t the PTSD give me a break? Especially, when I am wanting to go to sleep.

I am also thinking a lot about my grandma. I miss her so very much. I wish she was still here with me and my family. I know she is watching over me and is my guardian angel. She still looking out for me or I hope she still is.

I am also thinking about the money issues I am having because social security won’t make a decision about my case. I am still disabled. My disability didn’t all of a sudden disappear; although it would very nice if it did.

On the humorous side of things, I am also thinking about the Star Wars book I am reading. Of all things that I am thinking about I find this the best thing or the least anxiety provoking or painful.