Tag Archives: Recovery

Weekly Check-In

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Good Evening, World!!! This is a difficult as I am typing with a broken hand. I broke my hand by punching brick wall. Never punch a brick wall as you will always loose to the brick wall. I have learned my lesson to use my skills instead of harming myself.

I didn’t go to my volunteer job because of dealing with the grief of my grandma’s death. I think that is why I got so angry. Angry that my grandma passed away. I wish my grandma didn’t die. I miss her so much.

Not much happened this week. Just dealing with the grief of my grandma and helping plan her funeral for Monday. Oh yeah Seattle got some snow and it has been frigid cold here as well.

Thank you for reading my blog. No need to worry about me as I won’t self harm. Peace Out, World!!!

Just a Rambling or Two

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Good Morning, World!!! I was able to get back to sleep after my last post discussing about how I woke up from a nightmare. Nightmares are not my idea of fun and not conducive to one getting sleep.

Right now I am thinking about my grandma and her funeral on Monday.  I miss her so much and its going to be difficult to say goodbye to her on Monday. I just want my grandma back so much. I love her so very much.

I think once I am done blogging I will do The Mindfulness Workbook that I’ve been working on. It’s helping me overcoming fear and embracing compassion. I am enjoying doing this workbook as well the other workbook I am doing.

I think I am going to get going and do my workbook. Thank you very much for reading my blog. It is much appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Had A Not So Lovely Nightmare

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Good Morning, World!!! Good news is that I finally got some sleep. Bad news is I woke up with a nightmare. Having nightmares is not my idea of fun nor is my idea of a good night’s sleep.

Since I woke up from a nightmare that was a bit more rattling than usual I decided to blog. After I finish this post, I am going to read Wonder Woman comic books. I love reading comic books especially Wonder Woman.

Thank you for reading. It is greatly appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Snowing In Seattle, Again

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Good Evening, World!!! It’s snowing again in Seattle. The weatherman inform people that it’s “not currently snowing in Seattle.” Well, I am sorry to say but it is snowing in my neighborhood and I live in Seattle.

Despite it snowing, I went and saw Gilbert earlier today. We discussed my grief with my grandma and her funeral on Monday. We also discussed the symptoms of my PTSD, Anxiety and Depression as well as what I can do to keep myself safe if self-harm urges are to appear. (NO, I don’t have urges to self harm nor am I suicidal.) We came up with a safety plan as a precaution as I’m going to be spending a great deal of time with my family. Don’t get me wrong I love my family, they just know how to get under my skin and vise versa.

Speaking of family, I want to call my grandpa. Have a great weekend and Peace Out, World!!!

Friday Morning Bullsh*t

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Good Morning, World!!! I, once again didn’t get any sleep last night. I am starting to get frustrated with this little to no sleep thing. I fear if I continue to not get any sleep that the symptoms of my mental health conditions will increase. This is something I’ll be discussing with Gilbert later on today.

If you been reading my blog the last couple of weeks, you know that I have been watching the Winter Olympics. It is something I have been enjoying and I am going to be sad when they end.

Todays starts spring training games for baseball. This means baseball is just around the corner. I love watching baseball. Hell, I loved playing baseball in little league. I wasn’t the best player on the team but I sure loved it.

Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Fun Fact Friday

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  • Chickens can remember over 100 faces of people or animals.
  • Chickens can taste saltiness but not sweetness.
  • The record for most egg yolks in one egg is 9 yolks.
  • Chickens can see and dream in full color.
  • Both prayer and meditation help with self-control
  • Prayer and meditation help with feeling less stressed out
  • Meditation and mindfulness helps us with empathy

Two In The Morning Ramblings

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Good Morning, World!!! It is two o’clock in the morning in my corner of the world. I am of course having trouble sleeping once again. Sleep hasn’t come easy to me recently and as frustrating as it is, I am glad to have the skills I need to help me through sleepless nights.

One of the many skills I used tonight is art. I painted some. I also did some collaging. I actually collaged on some of my paintings and I personally think it looks really cool. But then again beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

Another skill I have been doing on sleepless nights like tonight is reading. I am still reading Ship of Magic. Yes, I realize it is taking me a while to read it but I’m enjoying it. Enjoying it is all that matters

I have also worked on my workbooks. Specifically, The Mindfulness Workbook as it gives me ideas to calm my mind to help me sleep or at least get some rest. Doing any of the workbooks is helpful to me and my recovery.

Thank you for reading. Goodnight. Peace Out, World!!!

Thursday Night Ramblings

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Hello, World!!! It is eleven o’clock at night in my corner of the world. I have attempted to go to sleep yet I am unable to do so. I am hoping that I can get to sleep tonight as I took a nap earlier today because I was unable to sleep last night.

I have been using the Calm app to help me with my sleep. I find that it does help me get some great rest if I’m unable to sleep. Mindfulness and meditation helps me sleep as well as relax because it gets me to be in the present moment.

Being in present moment is always a good thing as it means I am in the here and now. Being in the here and now means I am able to enjoy the moment even if it is a negative moment. It is my goal to enjoy each moment as it comes even if it is a not so good moment.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Recovery Ramblings

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Good Evening, World!!! It has been an uneventful day for me and right now that is a good thing. It’s a good thing because recent events regarding an assault I experienced and the death of my grandma.

I have been doing one of my workbooks for most of the day. The workbook I have been doing is The Queer & Transgender Resilience Workbook. I have been finding it quite helpful for me not just in regards to my gender identity and sexual orientation but my recovery as well.

In fact realizing my gender identity and sexual orientation is apart of my recovery. Something that Junior is proud of me for acknowledging as well as accepting me as I am and loving me. I consider myself as a gender fluid, non-binary, pansexual individual and Junior loves me as I am.

I have also been doing another workbook called The Mindfulness Workbook to help me keep up my mindfulness practice’s. I have been finding this helpful with my recovery as well as my everyday life. It’s been quite helpful in ways I never thought were possible. It has been helping me be more mindful of the present moment.

Speaking of being mindful of the present moment, I realize I am hungry and need to eat. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World.

Tough Moment = Reading Wonder Woman

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Good Morning, World!!! It’s a beautiful sunny, frigid day in Seattle with snow on the ground. As beautiful as it is outside, I am emotionally not doing so well at the moment. I think part of it has to do with not being able to sleep for the last two nights.

As, I struggle to sleep I think I am going to read some Wonder Woman comic books as it is helpful to me. Plus it’s quite enjoyable to read comic books. I am happy that I have a dad that got me collecting Wonder Woman comics as it is something I can do for the rest of my life.

I am going to go and read. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!