Loving My Coping Skills Box

Good Evening, World!!! I am sitting here at my laptop slightly depressed. I can’t blame the weather on my depression today as it is sunny outside. It’s a wee bit chilly but beautiful day.

As my depression acts up this is when I use my coping skills to make sure it doesn’t get worse or at least give it a try that it doesn’t get worse. In fact I used my coping skills box to help myself. One of the skills I used was Sudoku. I also did some cross-stitching and feeling like I am making some progress with it.

After I am done blogging, I am going to go and read. I’ll probably go to the local park and read. There is something special about reading outside. Reading appears to be helping me a great deal lately. Maybe it is because things are starting to get better that I am able to concentrate on reading.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

 

It’s Been a Meh Monday

Good Evening, World!!! It’s been a meh Monday. A Monday that included depression that wasn’t being helped by the weather. The weather has been dreary and rainy even for Seattle. You know its dreary and rainy when Seattleites  start complaining about it.

I discussed my depression with my therapist during our fifteen minute check in today. We came up with a plan on how I can combat the depression for today. Of course, going to art group was on the list of things to do. I also discussed that when I get home after art group that I could do some painting. Which I’ve already did one painting and planning on at least starting another one as I find it relaxing. We also came up with the idea of working on one of my workbooks. We also talked about making sure I am eating and staying hydrated as that can help me combat the depression.

The weather today is good reading curled up in your bed weather. Something I will be doing after I am done with this post. I am enjoying the book immensely.

Thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Sunday Morning Ramblings

Good Morning, World!!! I am debating what I should have for breakfast. I’m thinking something simple like cereal. I think since its a dreary day I’m going to have some hot cereal and some hot tea while reading the news paper.

I am not liking the fact that by depression is acting up a little bit this weekend. I think part of it has to do with the weather. It’s been a dreary spring here in Seattle. On a positive note on the dreary weather its what makes Seattle and the rest of Washington so green and beautiful.

As my depression acts up I have to be more diligent in my recovery do what I need to do to push through it. It is not as easy as it appears when I write about it. It’s harder than hell to push through it. I push through it because it’s what I have to do to remain in recovery.

For me my recovery means the world to me. It’s what keeps me going and making the right decisions. Decisions that aren’t always easy to make. But everyone, whether they have a mental health diagnosis or not makes difficult decisions everyday.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Yucky Weather + Depression = Reading

Good Evening, World!!! Right now I am dealing with some increase of depression symptoms. Which is not a good thing because the weather is just yucky outside. Yucky weather doesn’t help with the increase of symptoms.

Since the increase of depressive symptoms and yucky weather I am going to read. Hell, it is perfect weather to be curled up in bed with a good book. A book to help me forget about my symptoms even though I know it is temporary.

In fact it was my therapist that suggested that I read. He works odd hours and I am okay with that as it appears that it fits what I need at the moment. He works five days a week and two of those days his hours are 9am to 5pm while the other three days are 12noon to 8pm. Today is one of those days he is in the office till 8pm. That is why I was able to talk to him this late.

I think I am going to take the suggestion to go and read. Thank you for reading. Have a great weekend and Peace Out, World!!!

Sleepless In Stormy Seattle

Good Morning, World!!! It is two thirty in the morning in Seattle and I am wide awake once again. At least I did get some sleep tonight so that is a plus. I am not going to complain about getting roughly two hours of sleep. It is more than I got last night.

If you were to look outside right now you would not have guessed that it was a beautiful day in Seattle yesterday. It is quite stormy outside as I sit here and write this post. Stormy weather can be enjoyable at times.

I think I am going to binge watch some M*A*S*H. M*A*S*H  is one of my favorite television shows. The comedy and humor in the show helps me a great deal with the symptoms of my mental health conditions.

Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Time For A Nap

Good Afternoon, World!!! I am home from my mental health agency. I went to day treatment as well as art group. I of course am happy that I chose to go today.

As I mentioned earlier I briefly checked in with my clinician. I have a good feeling about him after my brief interaction with him today. I see him tomorrow one on one for our first “real” session with him.

It is beautiful day in Seattle today. I have been on a few walks to enjoy the weather.

After the enjoying the walks and getting no sleep last night, I am going to now take a nap. Having insomnia sucks shit.

Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Good News!!!

Good Afternoon, World!!! I just wanted to tell the world I have a job interview for a peer specialist (counselor) job. It is on Wednesday and I am slightly anxious about the interview but also excited about it as well.

I have decided since my last post that I will be attending art group. Art is always a great thing for me to do. I made this decision before finding out about the interview. Art will help me express my emotions. The many emotions I am having at the moment.

The sun is out here in Seattle. The sunny warm spring like weather is always good on a Monday. Nobody really enjoys Mondays even if you are working.

On a side note I briefly checked in with my clinician about the job stuff a few moments ago. He seems cool. We will discuss more tomorrow but he appears to care and comprehend the fact that I need more human interaction and something to do with my life. He honestly seems to understand the fact I need some structure in my life that I can be happy with.

Thank you for reading. It is so very much appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

I Miss Work

Good Morning, World!!! It looks like it is going to be yet another lazy day for me. The weather just sucks here in Seattle. At least it is not freezing ass cold like back on the East Coast and in the Midwest of the United States. In some places in the U.S it is even snowing. So I guess Seattle’s nasty, yucky ass weather isn’t as bad as it could be.

As yucky as it is today and the fact I want to be lazy, I’ll attempt to do something productive today. I am going to be applying for jobs today. Jobs that I may not even get an interview for but at least I am doing something in hopes to get off of disability. Plus, not working is boring as hell for me.

Yes, I have been doing things to keep myself busy but for me work gives me a sense of accomplishment other things don’t always give me. I love going to work most of the time and look forward to when I am able to go back.

Thank you for reading. It is greatly appreciated from my end of thing. You are all awesome. Peace Out, World

Sleepless in Rainier Than Usual Seattle

Good Morning, World. It is just past three o’clock in the morning in my corner of the world and I am tired as hell. For some reason I am unable to sleep right now. Listening to the rain is helping me stay relaxed and calm.

Another thing that is calming me is my book. It is helping me not think about things that are bothering me at the moment. It is nice to be able to be so into a book and enjoy the world the author has created.

Thank you for reading. It is much appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

Good Evening, World!!! Right now I should be volunteering however I am still dealing with the grief of loosing my grandma. I miss her very much.

Besides dealing with grief all week, I’ve been busy. Busy doing attempting to be a productive individual in society. Society that expect me to be doing well but I am not or least not where I want to be.

The week started out with me meeting with Gilbert (now old therapist), my now old case manager and my new clinician. It was interesting. Interesting in the fact I am not sure how this is going to play out for me therapeutically.

I have also been reading my book off and on this week and am grateful to have the time to read. I am enjoying the book I am reading.

Most importantly I am starting up cross stitching again. It is helping me with my depression symptoms. Cross stitching and reading is something I have been doing most of the day as it’s even too rainy for us Seattleites.

Now I am going to watch movies from my childhood and binge eat on stack food. Thank you for reading. Goodnight and Peace Out, World!!!