Weekly Check-In

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Good Evening, World. It is Saturday which mean its weekly check-in time even though I haven’t done one in a few weeks. I have had many up and downs this week. If you have been reading my blog regularly I got laid off and my last day was Friday, June 3rd, 2022. Which put be in a depression that sent me into the Emergency Room for psych reasons. Thankfully I was not hospitalized.

Monday of this week I had an interview for a peer specialist job. If I wouldn’t have been discharged from the Emergency Room for psych reasons I wouldn’t have received the call on Wednesday to accept the job I had interviewed for on Monday. My orientation is on Monday, June 20th and my first day of training is on Monday, June 27th.

Sadly, I found out on Thursday, June 9th that my mom has lung cancer and test are still being done. They don’t know if how severe it is as her memory is sadly going down hill. The doctors need to do a MRI to see if there are any unusual spots on her brain and if so is it able to do an operation on the possible brain tumor which would have spread due to the Lung cancer. They will able deal with the lung cancer and take out the spot so that’s a good thing. If it turns out there is no spot on her brain when get gets the MRI, it could mean she could have dementia or Alzheimer’s. As much as I don’t want my mom to have Alzheimer’s. or dementia, I would rather haver her have that than a brain tumor due to her lung cancer.

Going on to a better subject, Seattle had a beautiful day. I was able enjoy the Sunny is Seattle day with my cat Billie Dean. Billie was actually brave enough to be outside on his harness and leash for ten minutes. He spent thirty minutes walking around inside my apartment building. We both got are steps in today.

I do not have much more to say in this particular post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated that you read my blog from my perspective. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog.. Peace Out, World!!!

A Rollercoaster of the Last Few Days

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Good Evening, World. Today has been a rollercoaster of a day. Lets start with the good news. I had an interview on Monday an was offered the job yesterday (Wednesday) that I got the job. I am looking forward to the new job that I start June 27th of this month. I have mixed feelings with this job but at least I’ll have employment starting the end of the month.

On that note my mom’s health hast been the best and have forgetting things a lot and usually remembers everything. My mom’s breathing has been getting worse so long story short the found a spot on her lung. It’s been made official she has lung cancer but need more test to be done see what stage it is in. The doctors need to do more test including removing the spot on her lung. She will be having more test including an MRI for her head due to her forgetfulness which is unlike my mom. If they find something in her brain that it is not suppose to be there not only will she have surgery on the removing the spot if find one if it safe enough to do it as the brain is very fragile. I will keep you updated about my mom when test results come in.

I’m just glad that I have the support of my friends, family and of course my cat Billie. Today has been a tough day and Billie has be helpful.

Than you for reading my blog. I hope you can give out positive energy and vibes for my mom. I love her so much. Again thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Yesterday Was Not a Good Day

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Good Morning, World or at least it is three twenty one in the morning in Seattle. Yesterday (Tuesday) was not a good day for me. I ended up in the hospital twice in the Emergency Room due to being suicidal. First time I went in it was four something in morning and was discharged. Thankfully I got home just in time for my psychiatric nurse practitioner called me for our phone appointment, She put me on Ativan which was a good thing.

Being home was not a good thing so I called my therapist who is fairly new to me and appears to be a great therapist. I also called one of the supervisors who happens to be my therapist supervisor. I called the both and left them both an email. The supervisor suggested to go back to the hospital so I did. But the first thing I did was have my grandpa and uncle pick up Billie with his supplies to take to grandpa. My uncle and grandpa dropped me back at the same hospital I was earlier.

On that note they had already did shift change and the social worker on duty was surprised to see me as I’m not going to the Emergency Room for mental health in over four years. Partly glad it was her and partly wish she wasn’t her. She pointed out some stuff I needed to hear which let me come back home. I’m glad she helped me make that decision as I fear if I ended back in a psych ward I most likely would have retreated to old behavior.

As of right now I can’t sleep for unknown reasons so I took an Ativan to help with my anxiety since Billie my cat is with my grandpa and uncle. I know Billie is in good hands but I sure do miss the little dude. Well not so little as he is fifteen and a half pounds. He could loos a few pounds just like I do.

I do not have much to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Thank you again, from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Three O’clock in the Morning Tuesday Chaos

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It is three o’clock in the morning Seattle time and it’s nothing but chaos. First a neighbor starts pulling on the fire alarms in the building which wakes everyone and their pet up. Almost every evacuate. Manly the ones with animals and pets. The Fire Department gets here quickly and turns off quickly.

Sadly, this happened six more times from the same neighbor and all the neighbors are now out of the building and abut to fight the neighbor pulling fire alarms, The cops showed up just in time time or someone would have gotten seriously hurt . The good thing is everyone with a pet or an animal were sticking together because the pet were keeping us calm.

Thank you for listening to me ramble on about building drama. Than you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Manic Monday

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Good Evening, World from Seattle, Washington. Today has been a Manic Monday for me. First I had to get up early and take an hour and a half bus ride for a job interview. Not sure how it went but if I didn’t get it, I would not be disappointed. So as of right now I a still unemployment, Not liking the fact I’m not working but it’s a way of things.

On to other things I’m glad I brought a book with me as it took me two hours from my job interview to my doctors office via public transportation just like getting to my job interview. I took book to read on the bus as well as I waited for my job interview and my doctor. Thankfully everything was on time today but I got a lot of reading done in my science fiction book.

When I got home, Billie my cat was thrilled to see me. I cuddled with him as I read more of my book. Reading appears to be helping me right now as it helps me now focus on the reality of what is going on in my world and the rest of the world.

I do not have much more to say in thing particular blog post. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Again thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Stress Free Sunday

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Good Evening, World!!! It is eight o’clock in the evening here in Seattle. If you read my blog on the regular basis you know that I have been laid of as of this past Friday (June 3rd). Yesterday I was stressing a little bit but realized the stress knowing I was being laid off is not long a stress at least at the moment. It has been a stress free Sunday and feel great to be stress free. The last three months at my now previous employ caused my anxiety and depression symptom increase. Now that everything is done now with the lay offs it is like the lift has been lifted.

On that note I volunteered today and as PAWS Cat City and that help immensely. I’m happy that volunteer at Cat City because it is a form of self care for me just like my own cat Billie is a source to help with my stress. It appears that animals help a great deal. I am grateful for my cat Billie and and my volunteer job at Cot City.

On a good note I have a job interview tomorrow. I am nervous as hell but at least if I don’t get the job I have the practice of the job interview. Send good juju, energy, vibes or any thing good my way when it comes to my job interview tomorrow (Monday).

I don’t have much to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. It it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Haven’t Been Back to Sleep Yet

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Good Sleepy Saturday Morning to you from Seattle. I still haven’t been to sleep since I was rudely awaken by three neighbors in the hallway screaming at each other. Two went to jail for domestic violence while the third when to the hospital tot get psych evolution.

Currently it is peaceful on my floor and Billie my cat is trying to help me write this blog. I think he is trying to tell me we both need more sleep which I agree with his assessment. I love Billie so much how he helps with my anxiety.

As some of you know I have advertisements on my blog. Every time someone clicks on an advertisement, I get a paid few cent per add buy I don’t get paid the money till I hit at least the on hundred mark and then I get the money. I am hoping that you the read look at least one or two adds every time you are reading my blog. I could really use the money now that I’ve been laid off. Every click to an advertisement helps. I’m usually not the one to ask for money and I have June and Julys rent paid for all reading with my apartment management. My bills are covered through July as well. The one thing I will be lacking is food as you can only get certain about of food from the food banks and I am not quite qualified for food stamps. I will try get unemployment and am worried how I can pay for my meds but will try to get stated aid for medical through the state. The is why I am asking that you click on the advertisements to help, pretty please the a cherry on top.

It is now eight o one o’clock in the morning I am I am going to try to get some sleep. Thank you for reading blog. It means a log to me. Peace Our, World!!!

Good Sleep Turned into Not so Good Sleep

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Well, Fucking Good Morning, World!!! I was surprisingly having a good night considering my last official day of work was yesterday (Friday). Considering it was emotional day, I wasn’t expecting a good night sleep till three of my neighbors got in an extremely loud scream match at three thirty in the morning. It almost got physical at one point in time. It is now four forty five in the morning and the Seattle police showed up to the screaming match that was already lasted an hour at four thirty five in the morning Seattle time. Needless to say my neighbors on my floor and myself aren’t exactly happy with the screaming neighbor and the lack of response from the Seattle Police Deportment.

It reality I was hoping my good night sleep wouldn’t have been interrupted due to the fact yesterday (Friday) was my final day at work due to lay offs. A good night sleep for me after a traumatic event of being laid off would have been good for my mental health symptoms. Right now is a time to reflect on a job I loved a sadly got laid off from. A job that turned into a dream job for me.

On the bright spot I have my cat, Billie sleeping with me which is a comfort in itself. Having Billie around going to my therapist has helped me get through the last three months of know I was and now officially laid off.

On the great news front I have three interviews next week. Two of the three sound promising. I am telling future employs that I would need two week in between my end date at my now former employer and starting a new job and everyone appeared to be okay with that considering how traumatizing the lay off process was for everyone involved.

It’s not five o’clock in the morning and the cops are at my door wanting to know what I heard and saw from the screaming neighbors. So, I need to get going. I hope everyone has a good restful weekend and a Happy Saturday. Peace Out, World

A Mid Afternoon Blog

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Good Afternoon, World!!! So far my day is going well and am grateful tomorrow is holiday where I live so it’s a three day weekend. Also on that note my last week at work due to layoffs is only a four day week instead four day week. It is going to be an emotional week but i know I have the support from others.

It being a soggy Sunday in in Seattle, I am mostly staying home reading a book on Star Wars. I also volunteered at PAWS Cat City. Spending time volunteering with cats is so much fun. Another fun thing i get to do is spend the rest of my day with my cat Billie as I read a Star Wars book. I love my cat, I love reading and I love Star Wars.

Now, I am waiting on Grubhub to deliver my late lunch. I ordered my favorite burger which it the Whiskey River Bar-Be-Que burger. It is a good day in Seattle to order in as it’s raining here in Seattle and not the typical drizzle Seattle get.

After I get my food and eating it, I am going to go back to reading the Star Wars book I am reading with Billie, my cat, by my side. It’s great day to just do a do nothing type of day.

I don’t have much more to sat in this particular blog post. I just want to thank you for reading my blog. It means the world to me that you read my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Breakfast of Champions for Lunch

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Good Afternoon, World!!! It is now 12:00noon in the afternoon here in Seattle. I finally got food in my stomach. I order McDonalds via Grubhub. My breakfast slash lunch was pancakes, four hash browns and a hot chocolate. Billie my cat wanted me to share be this was a no share meal with Billie the cat.

As I hate my meal Billie laid next to me as I ate and listened to a podcast about Philosophy. In fact I listened to Philosophize This. In fact I’m grateful for this podcast as I am learning lots of information.

I think I need to finish this post as I am about to fall asleep. I hope you hall have great day. Peace Out, World!!!