Tag Archives: Anxiety

Dealing With PTSD

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Good Morning, World!!! I am blogging once again. Yes, so soon after my last post. I am struggling with some PTSD symptoms. Symptoms that are related to childhood trauma.

Blogging about what is going on can be helpful to me. This is one of those moments where I think it is helpful for me and I hope it can be helpful to at least one other person in the world. It is my hope that when I post about my struggles that at least one person in the world doesn’t feel so alone.

I think I am going to work on one of my workbooks before heading to my doctors appointment. Working on my workbooks will help with the PTSD as well as the anxiety that goes with me going to the doctors today.

Thank you for reading. Have a wonderful day. Peace Out, World!!!

Nothing But Random Thoughts

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Hello, World!!! I am sitting here just going to blog about whatever the hell is on my mind at the moment. I don’t care what comes out of my fucking mouth right now. I am a little angry for no apparent reason.

I am angry at myself for locking myself out of my apartment. This increased my anxiety. So, I took my Xanax to help me with the anxiety once I was let back in. I had to wait an hour and half before someone could come unlock my door.

Now I am going to read my book about Why Buddhism Is True by Robert Wright. After that I will read my Buddhist Scriptures as this might be of help me to help myself calm down from the anxiety.

Having a spiritual bath is a key part to people’s recovery. I hope this the right path for me especially in regards to my recovery. Plus to help reduce my anger and anxiety without having to take any meds for it.

I think I might be doing some more painting to help me through the anxiety. Painting helps me express all my emotions when I have trouble acknowledging what they are.

Thank you for reading. Have a good Mother’s Day!!! Peace Out, World!!!

Painting to Help Through Axiety

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Hello, World!!! I am doing better than I was than my last post. I have been painting the last few hours. Painting has helped me express my emotions when I can not seem to put word to my emotions. One of these days I will share more paintings with you.

I think I am going to go to bed now. Have a great nights sleep. Goodnight and Peace Out, World!!!

Unexpected Anxiety

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Hello, World!!! I am struggling at the moment. I am have some severe anxiety symptoms for some reason. I have had a relatively good day.

I mean I spent time with my family. I made them lunch. Despite my dad being a little cranky and getting on my nerves all was good. My family was grateful that I made plenty of food for leftovers. It’s always nice spending time with my family.

I then came home and had a friend come over. She stayed for about an hour as she needed to get home to her family. But it was nice to visit with my friend for an hour. I love spending time with this friend even for a limited time.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Preparing for the Social Security Office

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Good Morning, World!!! I am preparing to go to the Social Security office as they stopped giving me my hard earned money, I paid into the system. I am not looking forward to it as the Social Security office gives me really high anxiety.

To help me at the Social Security office I’m taking some stuff to help me while I wait. One thing I will be taking is one of my workbooks. A workbook about recovery and your strengths. Another thing I will be taking is my Star Wars book that I started read on Sunday. Reading is a great time to kill time while you wait.

I should get going so I can get ready. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

All I Want Is…

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Good Morning, World!!! Right now all I want is sleep. I haven’t been to sleep yet. I just want to get to sleep especially since I have to be up in less than three hours to go to the social security office.

I have been reading my Star Wars book when I haven’t been pacing or trying to sleep. I think the reading is helping me through long hours of not doing anything as well as my anxiety.

Thank you for reading. Have a great day and Peace Out, World!!!

Working Through Depression & Anxiety

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Good Evening, World!!! I am still struggling with the depression as stated in my last post. When I realized that my depression was still acting up, I needed to eat dinner. I had Macaroni and Cheese and Fried Chicken. Eating helped both the depression and anxiety.

I may not know why the depression is acting up but I know why the anxiety is acting up. It is acting up because I am going to the social security office tomorrow. I don’t do well when I go to the social security office. My anxiety acts up when I am there for some reason.

I have been reading my Star Wars: Heir To The Empire book. I am really enjoying the book immensely. I hope to write a book review on it when I am finished with it. For me reading has been quire helpful for me as of lately.

Thank you for reading. Have a great evening and Peace Out, World!!!

3 Hours of Reading & Trying to Sleep

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Good Morning, World!!! I am still awake. After my last post I was hoping to get back to sleep. I, unfortunately was unable to do so.

I think not being able to get back to sleep is due to my anxiety. Not only is my anxiety acting but my depression is acting up as well. Not sure why but it is. Maybe its due to the lack of sleep.

I have been reading the last three hours when I wasn’t trying to get back to sleep. I am grateful I chose to read the Star Wars book. I know I have said this before but it is an easy read or eye candy as I like to call it.

I think I am going to get going and watch the morning news. Have a great day everyone. Peace Out, World!!!

Saturday Morning Ramblings

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Good Morning, World!!! I am still struggling with some depression from yesterday. Not sure why but I am. I am also dealing with some anxiety. My weighted blanket has been a life saver the last couple of days.

Right now I am figuring out what I am going to do for the day. I already know that I will be working on my workbooks as well as read. I will also be spending time with Junior and our friends to celebrate Cinco de Mayo.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Depression Strikes, Again

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! Right now I am struggling with depression and anxiety. I am not sure why as it was an overall good day. Symptoms come at the most inopportune time especially those associated with PTSD.

I have been doing my workbook on mindfulness. It has been quite helpful for me working this workbook as well as the other workbooks I am doing. I am finding that using mindfulness is helping me with my reactivity and how I respond to things.

I also ordered three Star Wars books from Amazon as they were giving deals on Star Wars stuff. I got one of the books for free. I am looking forward to reading the Star Wars books as I am a huge fan of the Movies.

Speaking of reading I read today as well. I am finally getting some where in one of the books I am reading. It is finally getting good. I love to read.

Thank you for reading. May the 4th be with you. Peace Out, World!!