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A High Anxiety Monday

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I am struggling so much with anxiety that I am unable to make it to my therapy appointment. I am not sure why my anxiety is acting up so badly but it is. It hasn’t acted up so badly to where I am unable to make it to an appointment especially therapy. Just as long as it is not this bad tomorrow I’ll be okay.

I say just as long as it is not this bad tomorrow, I’ll be okay because I have a job interview tomorrow. It is job I really want and one I think I would be good at. That is why I hope my anxiety isn’t this high tomorrow.

I found out this morning that it could take up to three weeks to find out how much I made from the advertisements on my blog. That means at least another month with them. Depending how much I make all depends if I keep them. I may not keep them as I don’t like them but I need the extra money.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Posted on by Gertie

Sunday

  • Blog
  • Clean apartment
  • Art
  • Workbooks

Monday

  • Blog
  • Therapy
  • Speaking engagement
  • Workbooks

Tuesday

  • Blog
  • Job interview
  • Art
  • Workbooks

Wednesday

  • Blog
  • Art
  • Workbooks

Thursday

  • Blog
  • Day treatment
  • Art
  • Workbooks

Friday

  • Blog
  • Art
  • Workbooks
  • Baseball game

Saturday

  • Blog
  • Art
  • Workbook
  • Baseball game

Weekly Check-In

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! If you have been keeping up to date on my blog you know it has been a tough week for me. You also know that I, unfortunately self harmed. A self harm action I will be discussing with my therapist.

Another thing I need to talk to my therapist about is my sleep issues. Sleep issues that has its ups and downs. It just appears it is more down than up because if it was up I think I would be able to sleep.

Something else that happened this week was that I got a phone call. Not just any phone call. A phone call to schedule a job interview. My job interview is scheduled for this Tuesday and I hope it is a job for me.

I also completed three paintings this week. Paintings that helped me express my emotions in a healthy way. One of these days I need to share my paintings with you all. I have shared a painting or two but that is it. I want to share more paintings with you.

Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

So Far a Busy Tuesday

Posted on by Gertie

Good Afternoon, World!!! It is early Tuesday afternoon and so far I have done a lot today. One of the first things I did today was work of my mindfulness workbook. I started the first chapter which is on Fear and Mindfulness. I didn’t finish the chapter as I had to get go to get to my therapy appointment on time.

I showed my therapist the coping skills box I made per his suggestion. I also share the paper I wrote. He was impressed by both the box and the paper. More so that I was willing to do both. He now realizes that therapy homework will be beneficial to me and will think of assignments for me to do starting next week.

Another thing that happened today was that I found out that I have a job interview at a community mental health agency for a peer position next Tuesday. This will be a part time job which would be so much better for me than a full time job. I hope I get the job I am interviewing for next Tuesday.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Gertie & Their Job Search

Posted on by jjuniorz

Gertie is getting quite anxious as of lately. Primarily because they have too much time on their hands or that is what they think and I agree. Gertie does better when they are working. Preferably working at a job that has  meaning to them. When they are working their anxiety and depression symptoms are much better.

Gertie is waiting to hear back from the place they had an interview last week. While they are waiting to hear back they have been applying for other jobs. Jobs that will give them a purpose in their life. With Gertie focusing on getting a job some of their symptoms have subsided.

Having Gertie’s symptom’s subsiding slightly is a good thing for them and I personally am thrilled that they are dealing better. They aren’t doing as well as they want to be doing but is doing better and they will take that.

 

 

Sunday Night Ramblings

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I am still pushing through the depression. Depression that appears to be lingering. Lingering a lot longer that I would like it but I know without shadow of doubt that all this will make me stronger in the long run. As I am fighting through the depression and realizing the strength I have, I at least have hope. Hope that I know things will get better. It may not feel like it at times but it will get better. I know things will get better because it has happened before.

As I think about when I was doing “well” I know it involved me working. Not working is not exactly helping my depression but I know that my new therapist will help me find the structure I need. That was very much apparent during our first appointment. He thinks me working would be beneficial for me and I agree.

Having a therapist who appears to be on the same page as me a good thing. I am hoping that I am not getting my hopes up to high about this as I tend to do that a great deal. I do like that fact that he has an “odd schedule” for working at a community mental health agency.

I think I’m going to go and listen to music while I work on one of my workbooks. I haven’t decided which one quite yet. It appears that music and my workbooks have been helpful for me the last few hours and that is a good thing.

Thank you for reading. Have a good night. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! I am at a loss on what to say right now even though I have a lot on my mind. A lot on my mind because of everything that happened this past week. Not that any of it was bad. Just a lot happened.

Tuesday, I met with my therapist for our first one on one session. My new therapist appears to be cool. He is recovery minded and is in line with what I want to accomplish in regards to my recovery.

Wednesday, I had my job interview that went okay. In all honesty I won’t be let down if I don’t get the job as I don’t think the job would be a good fit for me to begin with.

Thursday, I met with my new psychiatric nurse practitioner. She appears to be cool. She took me off of the Seroquel as I am on Abilify now. I’m just having even more trouble sleeping now.

I also got my taxes done on Thursday. I am getting more money back than I expected and am thrilled about that. Now I can pay a good portion of my credit card off.

That’s pretty much what I did this week. I mean my depression has been acting up and it sucks shit but all I can do is accept reality and push through it. It’s the only thing I can do right now. I can not let it get to me at the moment as if I do then shit can hit the fan quite quickly.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Job Interview & Other Ramblings

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! As many of you know, I had a job interview today. The job deals with dealing those in crisis. I am not sure if I did well in the interview but I know that it might not be a good fit for me. Plus, travel time might be an issue for me.

I am tired as hell right now. I think I am so tired from my interview and the long travel time for it. Plus, I didn’t sleep all that well last night. I am thinking I might lye down for a nap. An hour nap at that. I want to be able to sleep tonight.

Before taking a nap I need to eat. I don’t know what I am going to make for dinner yet. I just know I might be able to feel slightly better than I feeling right now.

Have a good evening!!! Peace Out, World!!!

Currently At Job Interview

Posted on by Gertie

Good Afternoon, World!!! As you read this I should be having my interview at the moment. No, I am not writing this at the moment. I scheduled it to be post it at this time as writing it when I did was helping me in the moment with my anxiety. Truthfully, I am most likely full of butterflies as you read this.

Blogging about something ahead time that hasn’t happened yet is weird yet I wanted to schedule this post for now so you my reader can send out positive vibes, positive thoughts, prayers, wish me luck or whatever to me at this moment in time. Also as I am writing this (even though it is a scheduled post) it is helping me with my anxiety.

Thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Gertie’s On Their Way To Their Interview

Posted on by mamabearraine

Hello!!! It is I, Mama Bear. I realize it have been a few weeks since I last posted. I have been quite busy with family and work. My youngest child is going through their own mental health crisis and needed to focus on that. I requested Gertie not share that as I want to share more about my family when I post. Today is not the day I will post about my family as I want to discuss Gertie and their job interview.

At this very moment Gertie is on their way to their job interview. It is my hope that Gertie gets this job as I know them well enough that they do better with their mental health symptoms when they are working. It is my hope that they get the job they want. Gertie is aware that I don’t think this is the right job for them but if it is meant to be they will be offered the job and Gertie will accept it if it fits their schedule and value system. Gertie is an extremely wise person and will do what is best for them with much consultation from individuals such as myself and Junior. It is my hope that Gertie does well and gets this job if it is meant for them.