Tag Archives: Hope
No Sleep Ramblings
Good Morning, World!!! Right now I’m giving up on the sleep aspect of the night. I am however not giving up on hope. The hope I finally was able to grasp again after loosing for a long while.
Hope that I am able to show other through my interactions in every aspect of my life. Aspects of my life that I hope my recovery shows through even through the bumps in the road.
I happen to be in the middle of bump in the road with my recovery due to the death of my grandma. I do know that my grandma would want me to work through the pain of her death through hard work.
Okay, enough rambling and I’ll end the post for now. I know I will be okay today. Peace Out, World!!!
Everyday Inspiration; Day 3: One Word Inspiration
Hope
Hope is something that is needed to be in recovery. If it weren’t for hope I wouldn’t be in recovery and I don’t think I would be writing this blog. The reason being is I think if it weren’t for the hope I have I would have died by suicide. I wrote a poem on hope.
Hope is something
One must desire. With hope recovery is
Possible. It’s possible for
Everyone even if they believe they are too far gone.
Everyday Inspiration; Day 1: Why I Write
Good Afternoon, World!!! I write for a multiple reasons. Reasons, I had planned to write about and reasons that were unexpected.
Let’s start by why I started my blog. I started my blog for two main reasons. The first reason was to help educate people who don’t have lived experience that folks like myself who do have lived experience can live a productive life. It may not be productive in the eyes of a “normal” person but productive from my perspective.
The second reason I started blogging was to give those who struggle with a mental health condition/challenge that there is hope in choosing to live in active recovery whatever that may look like to the individual reading. Yes, I’ve shared by heartbreak and struggles here but I’ve gotten up and wiped myself off and hope that what I share give those who have lived experience some sort of hope.
There were some unexpected reasons I blog. The first happens to be advocacy. I didn’t realize that I could advocate here on my blog. Advocacy is something I love to do and am proud that I am able to do it on my blog. The other unexpected reason I write is that I have found that it helps me with my own recovery. My recovery means the world to me.
Thank you for reading. I appreciate all of you because if it wasn’t for you the reader I would not be writing on this blog. Thanks, again. Peace Out, World!!!
Ugh, I Just Want to Sleep
Good Morning, World!!! I am still wide awake. I’m not sure exactly why I am not able to sleep but it’s starting to get a little annoying. Yes, maybe it’s because I have “treatment resistant insomnia” but I think something is bothering me. I’m not sure what but something is.
Yes, I realize it could be my grandma and dealing with her being at deaths door because she is in hospice care. Dealing with my grandma being in hospice is not easy yet I honestly don’t think it’s the reason I am unable to sleep.
I just wish I knew why I couldn’t sleep because if I did then maybe I could sleep. It’s something that I need to be able to work on my recovery. Hell, it not only helps with my recovery be it helps with staying physically healthy.
Thank you for reading. It’s appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!
At Grandma’s House
Hello, World!!! It’s Sunday afternoon and things aren’t going so well for my grandma. She is having trouble staying awake and talking when she is awake. She still has her sense of humor and laughs at my purple hair. Hell, she doesn’t like my purple hair but thats okay, she’s eighty-eight years old.
Seeing my grandma like this is difficult yet rewarding. Being able to help my family especially my grandparents is rewarding for me because they helped my dad raise me. My grandma was like a mother to me or attempted to be a mother when she wasn’t being a grandma to me.
As difficult as it is right now for me I am doing good self care like blogging and other stuff. I need t get going and help my grandpa out with my grandma. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!
Weekly Check-In
Hello, World!!! This week has been one of hope and insight as well as I think some growth. My therapist says he has seen a lot of growth in me and he owes it to the hope and the insight I have.
As many of you know I had two job interviews this week. Interviews that went extremely well. One went so well, that I am already on the short list and they weren’t even done interviewing yet.
My grandma went into hospice care this past week and it was extremely difficult yet she is doing quite well. She is still funny as hell.
I also volunteered at the Warm Line tonight. It’s always nice to help others and see my fellow volunteers. It was a difficult night because I ended up dealing with two callers who were suicidal. I got through it and now I’m at home relaxing. I left early due to the suicide calls and am doing good self-care.
Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!
500th Post
Good Morning, World!!! This is my 500th Post!!! A post that wouldn’t have happened without you my reader. Its hard to believe that as of this post I’ve written 500 post.
Today has been a good day thus far. A nice relaxing day. I’ve been watching That 70’s Show which absolutely hilarious. For me humor works as both as preventive skill and a crisis coping skill. Right now its just for pure enjoyment.
I just wanted to thank you for reading my blog. It is much appreciated. Without you I would not have an active blog. Thank you!!! Peace Out, World!!!
Sunny In Seattle
Good Moring, World!!! Thankfully, I was able go back to sleep after my last post. The best part about waking up this time around is that it’s sunny outside and I was able to see a bald eagle fly around my window for about ten minutes. I have to say that this is going to be one of my favorite moments of the day and the weekend.
I think I’m going to paint the eagle I saw outside. I paint when I want to express my emotions. Right now I feel content with how things are going. Yes, life may not be where I want it at the moment however I’ll take feeling content with life any day.
I hope everyone has a great day. Have a great weekend. Peace Out, World!!!
Happy Friday
Good Evening, World!!! I’m watching the Opening Ceremonies for the Winter Olympics. I love the fact that the Olympics bring the world together. Its the one sporting event the world can enjoy together.
I saw Gilbert today for therapy. We discussed the progress I am having. He feels that with me seeing him two to three times a week has been helpful and it has helped. I just wish my official therapy services weren’t pulled from my care. Gilbert is attempting to his best for me to gain my trust with him and everyone else on my treatment team and it appears to be helping from my end of things.
I want to get going to continue watching the Olympics. Have a wonderful weekend. Happy Friday and Peace Out, World!!!
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