Tag Archives: Mental Health

I Can’t Seem to Stay Awake

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Good Early Afternoon, World!!! For some reason, I can’t seem to stay awake today. Not sure why as I feel fine physically. Maybe my body is try to catch up with the depression I have been recovery from. I’m not sure why I am sleeping most of the day away but apparently I need the sleep. I just hope I am able to sleep tonight.

Besides sleeping most of the day, I have been able to do some chores. I cleaned the kitty litter box as well as both the bathroom and kitchen. So, I haven’t exactly been a lazy, I’ve just been extremely sleepy for some odd reason. My big issue for the day is being able to sleep tonight. I’ll worry about that when tonight comes if the no sleep happens.

Since I have done some chores among my long sleeping periods, I think I am going to read as it appears to be one of those lazy type of days for me. Since I love to read maybe it will help me stay awake a little bit.

Thank you for reading my blog. It is very much appreciated from my end of thing. Wish me luck on being able to sleep tonight night since I have been sleeping the day away. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Hump Day (Wednesday) Ramblings

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Good Morning, World!!! I had another wonderful awaking with my cat laying next me purring. Waking up next to a purring cat is an awesome way to wake up.

As I woke up this morning, I began to realized that it’s Wednesday and that the weekend is that much closer. I’m looking forward to this weekend because the Blue Angels are here in Seattle for Seafair week. I love the Blue Angels. I will be watching one of their shows this weekend.

As much as I am looking forward to this weekend, I am also looking forward to the day ahead.  I’m looking forward to the day ahead because I woke up with a grateful heart. Plus, I see my therapist. I am needing to discuss with him some issues. Issues regarding my depression symptoms. Depression symptoms that nobody wants. Hell, nobody wants to deal with depression, period.

Well, I am done rambling on about shit that most people don’t want to read about. I am going to end this post. Have a good day. Peace Out, World!!!

Depressed Yet Grateful

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Good Morning, World!!! I woke up this morning depressed yet grateful to be alive. I’m grateful to be alive as I am realizing that I never would have thought when I was in my late teens and early twenties that I would live to be my current age of 39. I thought way back when that I would have been dead due to suicide.

Despite being depressed and unemployed, I am grateful for my life and the life I have lived thus far. Yes, I have made my fare share of mistake however they have helped shaped who I am today. I have decided to share with you my gratitude list for the day.

  • Life itself
  • My cat, Lil Gertie
  • My family
  • My friends
  • The blogging community
  • The mental health help I am getting
  • My therapist
  • My doctors
  • My apartment
  • My teddy bear
  • Being able to read
  • Music
  • Being able to play the flute and harmonica
  • Summer

That is my gratitude list for today. I hope it helps you find the little things in life to be grateful for. Thank you so much for reading my blog. It is extremely appreciated on my end that I have people that read my blog. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Good Morning, World!!!

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Good Morning, World!!! There is nothing better than having a cat laying next to purring as you wake up in the morning. As I woke up this morning Lil Gertie was beside me on my bed purring. I personally think its the best way to wake up in the morning. My love for Lil Gertie grows everyday and I can’t imagine my life without her.

As I get ready for the day, I realize how lucky I am to be alive. I am lucky to be alive for many reasons and am grateful that I am alive. I am grateful to be alive because that means I have more love to give and am still able to help others out.

I am loving the weather Seattle is having. I love it when the weather hits the 80’s or higher. The only thing I don’t like about the hot weather this summer is now I have a cat I need to worry about when the weather heats up.

I should get going to get ready for the day. I just wanted to post so I can get back in the habit of blogging again. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Combating Summer Depression

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Hello, World!!! As I stated in my last post, I was in the hospital for a week and I am now out and doing better. I may be doing better than I was before I went into the hospital however my depression is still there. Having depression any time of the year sucks shit but during the summer it sucks even more.

Despite still fighting off depression, I have been finding ways to combat the depression. The main ways I have been combating depression is spending time with friends and family. Spending time with others has been proven helpful for me.

Another way I have been combating summer depression is attending summer parties. Parties that include other people as well as a great deal of food. In fact I am going to be hosting a summer party later this week. Actually, it is going to be an ice cream social. I’ll be providing the ice cream while the attendee’s will bringing the toppings. I’m looking forward to this get together I am having.

Thank you for reading my blog. Have a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

It’s Been A Couple of Weeks

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Good Morning, World!!! I know it has been a couple of weeks or so since I last posted. I have been struggling quite a bit as of lately. In fact I was in the hospital for a week and got out yesterday (Thursday). I am doing much better that I was when I went into the hospital.

I had a neighbor as well as my grandpa take care of my cat while I was in the hospital. The worst part about being in the hospital was missing my cat. It has been quite nice being home with my cat. My cat hasn’t left my side since I have gotten home which has helped my anxiety a great deal.

I hope to post again soon as I am hungry and am going to eat. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Belated 4th of July Post

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Good Morning, World!!! I want to apologize to you my reader for not blogging as much. I have been struggling a great deal with my depression. My depression symptoms appear to have effected me severely enough that I haven’t been blogging.

Since my depression symptoms got in the way of blogging, I wanted to tell you about my 4th of July.  Despite my depression symptoms acting up, I managed to attended the Mariner versus Angel game here in Seattle. I really enjoyed myself with the exception of having Mariner’s fans throwing things at me. Due to having things thrown at me, I received a ticket to another game. I am also happy to say that the Angels won the game.

As for watching fireworks, I watched them at home on the television as I wasn’t sure how Lil Gertie was going to react to them. Lil Gertie didn’t react all that well to the fireworks. She hid in my dirty clothes hamper which is in my closet. She meowed out fear a good portion while fireworks were going off.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Depression, Isolation & Voices, Oh My

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Good Evening, World. The last couple of weeks haven’t been the easy for me. I dissociated for nearly an entire week and then last week I was severely depressed. I barely did anything last week. I only went to my appointments and DBT group. I pretty much isolated last week. To add on top of the depression, dissociation and isolation, my voices are acting up.

My mental health treatment team is getting so concerned that they think the hospital might be just around the corner and think they are right. I just don’t know what the hospital can do for me but keep me safe. I am not at risk of self harming or attempting suicide but my treatment team fear for my safety when I am dissociated.

Thank you for reading. Peace out World!!!

Weekly Plans

Posted on by Gertie

Sunday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Do laundry
  • Buy baseball ticket (Mariners vs. Angels) for the 4th of July

Monday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Art group
  • Therapy
  • Workbooks

Tuesday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Hearing voices group
  • Workbooks

Wednesday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Workbooks
  • Be lazy

Thursday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Therapy
  • Workbooks

Friday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • DBT group
  • Workbooks

Saturday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Volunteer

Weekly Check-In

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Good Afternoon, World!!! My weekly check in this week isn’t much as I don’t remember my week due to dissociation. Dissociation that caused me to not attend any groups nor appointments with my therapist. I do remember yesterday (Friday). I remember it and how I talked with my therapist and how concerned he was and is for me especially regarding the dissociation.  I have a session with him on Monday as well as my normal session on Thursday to make sure I am getting out of this particular dissociative episode.

As concerning as my dissociation is for me, I need to continue on with my structured activity as I would if I hadn’t dissociated. That includes me getting ready for my volunteer job for this evening. So that I means I am going to end this post for now. Sorry for the short check-in. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!