Tag Archives: Sleep

Late Morning Ramblings

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I am sitting here trying to figure out what to do with my day. I was suppose to go to a baseball game but the person who had the tickets gave them to a family who had never been to see a baseball game. I couldn’t be more proud of my friend as she did it out of love and compassion.

Life has a way to make you think. As much as I wanted to go to the baseball game to not have to deal with my reality of money and Social Security. Yes, I am worrying a little about it right now but I know in reality it is going to all work out.

I am loving my weighted blanket. It is proven money well spent. I slept well because of it last night. If you have the money to get one I recommend you get one if you have trouble with sleep and/or anxiety.

Thank you for reading!!! Peace Out, World!!!

May the Fourth Be With You

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I woke up this morning from a nightmare. A nightmare that is a symptom of PTSD. Dealing with childhood drama as an adult is difficult to do but it is possible to lessen the pain with a lot of therapy.

I may have woken up from a nightmare but I got about six hours of sleep. I owe the amount of sleep due my new weight blanket. I am in love with the weighted blanket.

Today is May 4th and is a day Star Wars fans celebrate here in the United States. May the Fourth be with you represents May the force be with you from Star Wars. I love Star Wars.

Thank you for reading. May the fourth be with you. Peace Out, World!!!

Midnight Ramblings

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! It is midnight in my corner of the world. I am up watching television. Actually, I am watching The Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon. I watch this show as it helps with my anxiety especially before I go to bed for the night.

Another thing that helps with my anxiety is the new weighted blank I got today. I really recommend it as it appears to be helpful. Or at least the twelve or so hours I have had it. I didn’t think it would be helpful and boy was I wrong.

I have been working on one of my workbooks. In fact I have been working on the workbooks that deals with mindfulness. Focusing on mindfulness as been quite helpful when I am dealing with.

I think the Ambien is starting to kick in. I think I should get some sleep before I get a little loopy from the Ambien.

Thank you for reading. It is very much appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

 

A Happy Little Post

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I am sitting here trying to figure out what to blog about. I did finally get some sleep last night. I actually got five hours of sleep and for me that is a lot of sleep. I am not complaining about it as I am thrilled about it.

My anxiety isn’t as bad as it has been and I think it has something to do with the sleep I got last night. Not having as much anxiety has me thrilled as well.

That is my happy little post. Thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Fighting Off High Anxiety

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I am have some high anxiety again. Anxiety that appears to come and go as it pleases. I just don’t understand why it is so high lately. I think part of my high anxiety today is due to not sleeping. Having no sleep adds to my symptoms of the mental health diagnosis I struggle with.

I think I am going to be working on one of my workbooks. I am not sure which one yet but I will be working on one of them. They appear to be helping me in multiple ways. They are helping me better myself.

Another thing that has been quite helpful as of lately is reading. I am really enjoying the books I am reading. Yes, I am reading multiple books. I am enjoying them immensely.

Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Back From The Emergency Room

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I am back from the emergency room (ER). They gave be some other meds to help me sleep. They want me to try to get sleep without the meds first. I will try to take a nap but wont take the meds till tonight. The doctor wants me to contact my mental health treatment team which I am going to do. I just want to sleep.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Wanting The Oh So Elusive Sleep

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! It is now five thirty in the morning for me. I still haven’t gotten any sleep. Sleep that I am desperately wanting and needing. I finally took some Ambien and it didn’t fucking work. It usually does and it is frustrating the hell out of me that I can not get some fucking sleep.

I am so frustrated that it is putting me in crisis mode. Enough of a crisis mode that once I am done blogging, I am going to take myself to the Emergency Room (E.R). I will be okay, I just need someone to fucking hear me on how fucking frustrating getting no sleep is. Right now I think going to the E.R is the best bet. I don’t want to concern you all. I just wanted to let you know what is going on. I know I will be okay, I just need to get the sleep thing taken care of.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Is It Too Much To Ask For Sleep

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! It is three o’clock in the morning and I haven’t been to sleep yet. I have been keeping myself busy by reading. Reading appears to be of help to me. Especially on nights where I am unable to sleep. Reading is so much more fun than watching middle of the night television. Television that is nothing but infomercials.

I have also been working on my workbook. A workbook that is geared toward folks with insomnia who struggle with depression and anxiety. I am only on the first chapter but so far I am finding it helpful.

I am grateful that I have the abilities to help myself through not being able to sleep. Yes, insomnia suck shit but I am able to help myself. I am able to help myself by reading, doing workbooks, blogging and other such things.

Thanks for reading. I hope to be able to get some sort of sleep. Have a great morning even if it is still the middle of the night for you. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Still Awake in Seattle

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! It is just after five thirty in the morning and I still haven’t been to sleep. Yes, I have attempted to get to sleep, I just was unable to do so. I even took my Ambien to be able to sleep and still a no go at the oh so elusive sleep.

Despite getting no sleep I have managed to stay busy. I pretty much stayed busy by reading. Reading appears to be one of my go to activities as of lately. I enjoy reading immensely.

Even though I read most of the night, it still didn’t take my anxiety away a hundred percent. I am worried about money like many people around the world are. I am worried that my tax refund check won’t get here in time to pay the rent. I know I am most likely worried about nothing but I am worried.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

No Sleep in Seattle

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I am having issues sleeping once again. Which should be no surprise to anyone who reads my blog on the regular basis. Sleep hasn’t come easy for as of lately and it is starting to frustrate the hell out of me.

As frustrating as not being able to sleep is for me, I have come up with creative ways to keep myself busy. One of those ways is looking at potential tattoos I would like to get. For me the tattoos I get represent hope and/or recovery. I want the tattoos I get to not only give me hope and represent recovery but to give others hope as well.

Not only have I been looking at potential tattoos, I have been working on my mindfulness workbook. The chapter I am on is discussing spaciousness, compassion and mindfulness. The part I am having trouble with is having compassion for myself. I can have compassion for others but find it difficult for myself.

I think once I am done blogging I’ll read. I am eager to finish the books I am reading. In fact the book I am reading is a really good book and I am enjoying it immensely.

Thank you for reading. Have good rest of your night. Peace Out, World!!!