A Nice Day off of Work

Happy Friday, Night from Seattle. In fact there is only nine minutes left of Friday here in Seattle. I decided to take a PTO (Paid Time Off) day off and I am glad I did. It’s allowed me to take a metal health break from work especially with the board of of directors are wanting to close the agency and the county wanting to keep it open. See very little hope from the county but I a not holding my breath.

Today’s day off was for self care. I spent a lot of time with friend pets and animals which is a good thing because it helped with my mood and helped me hopeful for the day. Of coursed spending the day with my cat Billie Dean aka Billie the Kat. I love having time with pets and animals.

I also spent the day doing artwork while listening to music. I colored and painted as I listened to various genre’s of music. I primarily listened to old school eighties rock. The kind with the big hair. I think it helped a great deal doing art while listening to music.

I also spent time with a family member who helped me with my taxes. We will finish them tomorrow. So I feel like I had an overall good day.

After starting my taxes with my family member, I decided to read. I read most of a book that I started today an will finish the book tomorrow. Looking forward to finishing the book tomorrow.

I don’t have much more to say but thank you for reading my blog. I am grateful for you the reader reading my blog. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Just Got a Dreaded Call

Hello, World!!!! This is going to be a short and dreaded blog. I just got a call saying a colleague of mine attempted suicide. Thankfully, they are going to live but this is the what we expected but just not so soon. I will be visiting this colleague later today as it’s the middle of the night here in Seattle. I am grateful for my cat who is giving me the comfort and empathy, I need at the moment. I am grateful that my colleague will survive. I hope you all have a good rest of your night.

Coming to Terms with the Reality but there is a Glimmer of Hope

Hello, World!!! I’ve been absent from blogging due to finding out that the agency I work at will be be closing down according to the board of directors. On the hopeful side King County wants to keep my employer open. Open because we have been the longest opened Queer mental health agency in North America if not the world. It’s been open for 53 years. It’s been around longer than I have been a live. I know the reality is that it most likely will close but at least there is some hope from King County,

I trying work with some amazing colleagues who I have grown to love a family. I just hope they feel the same about me. My colleagues have become both friends and chosen family. I just hope a miracle from the universe or a hail Mary happens before the final decision is made. If it were up to the board of directors the agency would have been shout down by now.

Any way peoples cats and other pets have been keeping us entertaining during meetings as well as sessions with clients. I will miss seeing all the pet and animals my clients and colleagues have. Shutting down Seattle Counseling Services is not a good thing especially for the Queer community.

I don’t have much to say but I have a very slightly hope that my employer can stay open. I don’t have anything else to say except thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I wouldn’t be writing my blog. Again thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading m blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check In

It is another Saturday night in Seattle. Of course I am spending it alone with my cat, Billie Dean. In fact Billie has been helping me with the depression and the anxiety. My friends and family have been helping as well, like my cat Billie as well as my colleagues. It feels great to feel loved by my pet cat as well as my friends, family and colleagues.

The best part of this week is that I will be there to the last day which is May 6th. I might even be there to September but that is not one hundred percent yet. At least there is somewhat of a date. I really love this job and feel like I have a niche at this job.

It is a sad day in a America when the longest queer mental health agency is closing down. My employer serves more than two thousand clients and it breaks my heart that the clients have to go to other agencies that has caused trauma to them.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end that you the reader, read my blog. Again thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Update About Layoffs

Good Morning, from Seattle. This hasn’t been the best couple of weeks regarding work as my employer is closing down. On the the plus side I will be there to the end which is May 6th. King County and my employer are trying to stay open so the interns can get their hours to graduate. The county is also trying to get my agency to merge with another agency. To me that is good news.

The heartbreaking news is not knowing if we are going to close or merge with another agency as a lot of clients have been traumatized by other agencies. I don’t want to retraumatize the clients my employer serves.

Another great news, my colleges, friends and family have all been supported of me and me of them. I am feeling the love from the people around me. I am happy that I have a job to at least May 6th and maybe till mid September.

As far as my cat goes, he has been loving on me and cuddling me. He seems to know something is wrong. Wrong with all the tears I have been crying.

I do not have much more to say in this particular post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog.. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Just About Rumblings

Hello, World!!!! I went to work today via going to the office tomorrow. I love going into the office as it gives me more proactive ways to do to do some work. I love my job and am sad that my employer is going under which means everyone is getting laid off. I am concerned about my clients that my employer serves. The need the help they need in the queer community .

On that note I had to go to the hospital due to having an injury. I have some major bruisers and a broken finger. My boss says I could work from home due to my injury. I love my job and that y supervisor isn’t a micromanager. My servicer is awesome.

I am happy to be home with my cat and he is helping me with the grief of being laid off from my employer. I love the fact that he comforts me with the grief with the laid offs.

I do not have much ore to say about this particular blog post. I want to thank you for reading my blog.

Overall A Good Vacation Despite the Unknown of my Lay Off Date

Good Morning, World!!! Despite finding out that my employer will be going our of business a week before my vacations and six days before my 43rd birthday, I had a good vacation and birthday. Granted it could have been better, I didn’t let it get me down.

I did not let it get it down because I had the love and support from friends, family, colleagues and of course my cat Billie Dean. I enjoyed my time in Bremerton and knowing that I have people and cats on my side supporting me. I am grateful that I had a vacation. I think I needed it so I can be the be I can be for my clients and my colleagues.

I don’t have much more to say in thing particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It it greatly appreciated that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Cat Sleeping in Human’s Lap While Human is Having a Sleepless in Seattle Type of Night

Good Very Early, Morning, World!!! It is 5:34 in the morning Seattle time and have not gotten much sleep. I think part of the reason I am sleepless in Seattle is because I am worried about the clients my employer serves. Sadly, the board of directors made the decision to close the doors of the longest running Queer mental health agency in the United States. Someone told me the world but I am not sure about that the world but I do know it’s the longest Queer mental agency in the United States.

I may not have liked finding out six days before my birthday that I will be getting a lay off without an unknown date especially since the following week; I am on my vacation. As depressing and anxiety provoking all this is, I am having an okay vacation. I was able to spend a couple of days in Bremerton an am now back home in Seattle.

It was nice getting out of town for a few days which helped a little bit with the depression and the anxiety. Now if I can get some sleep as the depression and anxiety regarding the lay offs for my job isn’t helping any of the sleep.

On the plus side of all this my cat hasn’t left my side since my grandpa watched Billie for me at my grandpa’s place. I think we are both glad to be home. I love my cat Billie Dean so very much and I know Billie loves me very much.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank for reading by blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Good night and Good early morning world!!! Peace Our, World!!!

A gRaTiTuDe & CoMpLaInInG pOsT

Good Evening, World!!!! It has been a week and two days since I last blogged. I found out that my employer will be no longer a mental health agency much longer. The board let us know on Tuesday, March 1, 2022. It came to a surprise to everyone including to the CEO. Needless to say we are all going through grief especially for our clients. I am still in shock one week and two days later. On top of that I found out six days before my birthday and my vacation.

On to the gratitude part of this post is at least I’ve had the support of my friends, family and colleague who have become family. I think all this has brought my colleagues closer together. As far as the clients go most of them are taking better than I thought they would. I am grateful for my colleagues and clients. They are the reason I do what I do and be a peer support specialist. I will miss working with my clients and colleagues. Oh, the supervisors are amazing.

I do not not have much more to say in this blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again thank you from the bottom of my reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end. Peace Out, World!!!

Wishing the Depression Would Disappear

Hello, World!!! It is late Friday evening, In fact it is almost on eleven at night on Friday. I went to work today and that went fine and dandy despite the depression and anxiety would go away. I love my job and am grateful for it. I just wish Depression and Anxiety wouldn’t get in the way of my job but at least I am still able to work and do an okay job at it. Of course when I got home from work Billie Dean greeted me at the door which helped with the depression and anxiety

When I got home I spent time doing some art while listening to music. Specifically the type of art work I was doing was coloring. I was doing some coloring of some morbid coloring books while listening to YungBlud and Nirvana. I love doing art while listening to music. As I was coloring and listening to music, Billie of course was trying to “help” me do my art work by coloring.

I do not have much more to discuss in this particular blog post. I just want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope to start back to Everyday Inspiration course tomorrow (Saturday). I really want to finish the course. Again, thank from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World.