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Wanting to Escape from My Own Reality

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Good Evening, World!!! Right now I really want to escape my own reality. The reality of the depression I am dealing with. I personally think the depression I am currently dealing with has something to do with being in quarantine due to Covid-19.

Let’s start with first things first, work helps me not focus on my own reality as I need to make sure the needs of my clients get met. Plus it feels good when a client accomplishes a goal that they have bee working on for a long time. I love being able to walk along side of people who are working on their own personal journey of recovery.

Another thing the helps me escape from my own reality is volunteering at a local animal shelter. Even though I have my own cat to play with it is gratifying to see cats get adopted into a furrever home. Seeing cats adopted is rewarding in itself and I am thrilled to be able to experience that and not just with the cats I have adopted but cats that have been adopted by others.

Another way, I find a way to escape from reality it reading. Reading all sorts of books including comics or comic books. I do have to say be favorite comic book is Wonder Woman and I have my dad to thank for that. Despite my dad loosing his ability to read, he always encouraged me to read. In fact my favorite genre’s of books are science fiction, fantasy and horror books. Since my dad is unable to read due to a traumatic brain injury (TBI), we call each other every evening and I read him books. Doing this has helped mend and heal our issues. We do occasionally read comic books but that is more my thing that my dad’s thing. I am just grateful that reading to my dad is healing our relationship.

Of course I can forget my sweet loving cuddle bug of a cat that helps me escape the realities of what life has to bring. The cat love is unconditional and am grateful for my cat Billie Dean.

Let not forget the most important of escaping reality which is sleep. Sleep can be a major reality escape especially with people dealing with depression and other such mental health diagnosis.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading m blog as if it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be witting my blog. It is great appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. Again thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Not the Most Productive Day I’ve Had

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Good Evening, World. It is seven ten in the evening in my neck of the woods known as Seattle. If you have read my last few post, I was not able to at all last night and spent most of the the day sleeping. I am finally awake enough to be able to semi function and I by they I mean by writing this post. And of course having a neighbor who is a close friend get me some groceries. I just wish my neighbor would hurry up with getting me my groceries. I shouldn’t be complaining as this neighbor is one of the good guys and respects people even they don’t agree politically.

I guess, I am being inpatient is because I am tired as hell and didn’t sleep last night but did sleep most of day. I sadly, missed work due to the lack of sleep and and I highly dislike missing work as the clients I work with depend on me. I think part of the reason my sleep schedule is unpredictable is because my depression symptoms are starting to slightly increase which is not a good thing.

Not only is my neighbor who is my friend getting groceries for me, my cat has been even more cuddly more than he normally is. Billie being cuddly and my friend getting me groceries is very helpful for my depression symptoms.

I do not have much more to say in this particular post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Still Can’t F*cking Sleep

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Good Morning from Seattle!!! I still have not be to sleep and it is fucking pissing me off. And I really don’t care if this post isn’t G rated. Part of me is wondering if I am unable to sleep because of depression but I am not having my typical signs of depression but it’s something to think about.

On the plus side of things, my family, friends and colleagues are worried about me. In fact they all have been checking in on me which makes me feel love and appreciated. I have some pretty awesome people in my life including my colleagues. My colleagues really seem to care about each other. Of course I know my friends and family love me and care about me.

And of course my precious kitty cat, Billie Dean loves me so very much. He has been following me around all day as well as cuddling with me. He is my baby and I don’t care what others think as Billie in part of my family. I am so glad that he picked me in the shelter. Being picked by any animal is a precious thing especially when it’s a cat or bird.

I best be going now as I am starting fall asleep as I write this blog. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Thank you again from the bottom for my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Not Going to Work Today

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Good Morning, World!!! As if this day couldn’t get worse. Well it could get worse but I have faith it won’t. Despite not getting much sleep last due to an idiot neighbor pulling the fire alarm due to other neighbors not wearing mask which is annoying in itself. I found out my dad was in the Emergency Room all night. He will be admitted to the hospital. It looks like I won’t be going to work like I had hoped to do. I did let two supervisors know as well as HR know that I would be going into work but I will have to now tell them I won’t be going into work. I really want to work but due to the lack of sleep due to a neighbor and my dad being in the hospital, I wouldn’t be at my best to help my clients. I really want to be at my best for my clients at work as they deserve to have me at my best.

On that note, Billie Dean, my cat is cuddling me right now. I think he senses that something is wrong and is comforting me. I just love my cat, Billie so much. He know exactly when I need some extra loving care and comfort.

As far as my dad goes, I hope he is just in the hospital for a couple of days. On a positive note he does not have Covid-19. He had a couple of grand mal seizures so they are just keeping him for observation and to make sure his meds are at an appropriated level. I love dad and am grateful that he raised me as a single dad back in the 80’s and 90’s with the help of my grandparents.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to say thank for reading my blog post. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you all have a great Wednesday ahead of you. I know I will try to have a good Wednesday. Just remember I appreciate all of you and think you are all awesome people. Peace Out, World!!!

Too Tired to Sleep

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At this point in time I don’t really care if my blog is rated fucking G. I am getting extremely fucking angry at my neighbor who keeps pulling the fire alarm. I understand his frustration with others not wearing their mask but that doesn’t mean you put the fucking fire alarm. I’m sure sometime down the road I will laugh over this but right now it’s not exactly laughable. Well, I can giggle a little because the dude tells on himself when the firefighters arrive to the building. I honestly don’t know who is my angry myself and my neighbors or the fire department. I am pretty sure that the firefighter are just as tired as my neighbors and I with the about of times my neighbor has pulled the fire alarm.

On that note, I am pretty sure that the animals in my building aren’t happy about it either. I sure know my cat Billie Dean isn’t a happy camper about it. On a good note at least my neighbors with pets including myself are evacuating which means we get to know each other a little be more. Not exactly the way I would want to get to know my neighbors but at least we are getting to know each other.

The thing my neighbors and I don’t understand is why the dude is pulling the alarm for one or two people not wearing their mask. I know for a fact that I wear my mask but when the fire alarm goes off, I don’t always remember to wear my mask as I am too concerned with getting the hell out of the building with my cat. So, personally I don’t think this neighbor is exactly thinking this through.

The think that pisses me and my neighbors off the most as well as the fire department is that the police and apartment management aren’t doing shit about it. At least the fire department is fining the neighbor as well as the apartment building management. But sadly it doesn’t seem to be helping but at least the fire department is doing their job unlike the cops and apartment building management. Well it is four forty five in the morning I am going to try to get some sleep as I have to get up at seven o’clock in the morning for work. I just hope I am not a cranky bucket for work.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post except that I want some fucking sleep and not have the fire alarm to go off again due to the idiot neighbor pulling the alarm. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader do read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog So, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I greatly appreciate all of you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!! It’s now time to try to get back to sleep. Good night world, or maybe I should say good morning since it is four forty five in the morning. Peace Out, World

Angry As Fucking Hell Due to a Neighbor

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Good Fucking, Morning, World!!!! I have been woken up four times in a matter of two fucking hours. One of my neighbors keeps pulling the fucking fire alarm because other neighbors are not wearing their goddamn mask. I understand being frustrated with other people not wearing their mask but don’t put the fire alarm.

The sad thing about it is that this dude admits it to the fire department who fines him as well as the building management. Sadly, the building management and the stupid cops are not doing shit about it. I personally think the dude needs to get arrested for it. I know for a fact I am not the only neighbor highly pissed over this situation.

I’m pissed about it because if I don’t get enough sleep then I will not be able to work and work in an appropriate manner. I work with people that have mental health issues and I need to be on top of my game to help my clients.

It’s frustrating as hell but at least my work is understanding for the most part. I just get going so i can get some form of sleep. Peace Our, World!!!

Weekly Plans

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Sunday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice.
  • Work on workbooks focused on what I need to do for my recovery.
  • Sadly, I can volunteer a Cat City due having Covid-19 but I get to volunteer at home by calling inactive volunteers to see if they want to come back or remain furloughed due to being precautious of Covid-19.
  • Walk around the block. (Wish the Covid-19 fatigue will allow me to walk more but just grateful to be able to walk around the block.)
  • Read
  • Figure out some SMART goals for 2022 (some I have mention and will mention in this post.)
  • Learn about Tarot and Tarot Cards
  • Journal about my day
  • Of course spend time my cat, Billie

Monday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Spend time reflecting on Betty White legacy to animals as today will be her 100th birthday. I am grateful for her love of animals of all kinds.
  • Work on workbooks focused on my recovery needs
  • Walk around the block
  • Volunteer by calling new donor’s to PAWS thanking them for donating and how grateful paws is for their donation.
  • Continue to learn about Tarot and Tarot Cards
  • Continue to work on figuring out goals for 2022
  • Journal
  • Time with my awesome cuddle bug of a cat, Billie.

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk around the block
  • Work
  • Work on workbooks regarding my recovery
  • Continue to learn about Tarot and Tarot Cars
  • Work on small goals to complete the big goals for 2022
  • Journal

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk around the block
  • Work
  • Work on workbooks focused on my own recovery
  • Define my goals to small goals to accomplish the bigger goals for 2022
  • Continue to learn about tarot and tarot card
  • Journal
  • Of course have time with Billie my cat the love bug who loves barbeque potato chips

Thursday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk around block
  • Work
  • Work on recovery focused work book
  • Get a Covid test done to hoping to confirm I am Covid-19 negative
  • Journal
  • Focus on goals for new year and see how realistic they are for 2022

Friday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk around the block
  • Work
  • Work on workbooks related to my recovery
  • Focus on the realistically for my 2022 goals specifically the smaller ones to be able to accomplish the bigger ones
  • Continue to learn about Tarot and Tarot Card
  • Journal

Saturday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice.
  • Walk around two blocks
  • Work on recovery focused workbooks
  • Spend time with my extra loving cat.
  • Hopefully be able to do a tarot card reading on myself and journal about it.

Side note I will let you know what my 2022 goals are at some part this week. Both the Big goals and the small goals to accomplish the big ones.

Weekly Check-In

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Good Evening, World!!! This week has one hell of a week. Not exactly a bad type hell of week but more like a frustrating type hell of a week. First things first, I had to take this past Monday off due to still having covid-19 and feeling like fucking shit. I still feel like crap but at least I am feeling better enough to work. Thankfully, I have the luxury of being able to work from home because I would not be feeling well enough to be working in the office. Covid-19 is no fucking joke. I was informed my the Emergency Room doctors as well as my own doctor that if I hadn’t had the vaccine and the booster shot for Covid-19 I most likely would have end up in the hospital due to the fact I have underlining health issues.

On that note, despite not feeling very well, I still worked most of the week from home. I worked from Tuesday through yesterday, Friday. In fact I initially wasn’t going to work yesterday, Friday, because it would have been my grandma’s 92nd birthday but realized taking off the day she passed away on would be a better day to take off. My supervisor, therapist, doctor, friends and family all agreed. Even though work went well this past week, I did manage to celebrate my grandma’s birthday by having a slice of banana cream pie as it was would she would have wanted for her birthday. I also sang happy birthday to a picture of my grandma.

Despite working from home while to completely feeling well, my friends and family have been checking on me to see how I have been doing especially health wise. There nothing like having Covid-19 to worry everyone for several reasons. One of which everyone want to make sure I am isolating so I don’t infect others which is a no brainer and something I am doing. Secondly, they are all worried that the Covid-19 can get worse for me due to having other health issues. I am so blessed to have friends and family that love me. Talk to you all later as now it’s time to spend more time cuddling my cat, Billie Dean. It appears that Billie want me to stop typing and give him attention.

Just Rant about Covid

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Hello, World!!! I am still Covid-19 positive and is sucks shit. I feel like crap but at least I am able to work from home. Even though I feel like shit, I am grateful that I feel well enough to be able to work and work from home. I would rather work from the office but at least I have the luxury to work from home due to having Covid.

Even though, working from home can suck at times, I am glad to be home with my cat, Billie Dean. Spending time at home is nice and all but I am going stir crazy. Going stir crazy because I have stay isolating due to having Covid.

I sadly cant volunteer at the moment due to Covid and miss it greatly. On the plus side they are being supportive. They having been checking on me which is feels good. Not only that my employer has been supportive as well.

I am just grateful to be feeling better and that I am able to work from home. I love the extra time with my cat, Billie. I am grateful that I have a cat that loves me.

I don’t have much more to say. Thank your for reading my blog. I hope you have a great week. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans (Slightly Late)

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Normally my weekly plans would be done on Sunday mornings and wasn’t in a healthy space to do it this morning. Anyway, I am now in a health place to do them.

Sunday

  • Take time for self care
  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Blog
  • Sadly not volunteer due to having Covid-19
  • Spend time with my lovey cat Billie Dean
  • Shower
  • Recovery workbooks
  • Spend time with my cat Billie

Monday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Recovery workbooks
  • Work from home due to having Covid
  • Spend time with cat, Billie

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Recovery Workbooks
  • Work from home due to Covid
  • Spend time with cat Billie
  • Attend a 12 step program via Zoom

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Recovery workbook
  • Work from home due to Covid
  • Attend 12 step group
  • Spend time with my cat Billie

Thursday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Recovery workbook
  • Work from home due to Covid
  • Attend 12 step group
  • Spend time with my cat Billie

Friday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Recovery workbook
  • Work from home due to Covid-19
  • Spend time with my cat Billie

Saturday

  • Just to s self care day