Tag Archives: Grief

My Day So Far

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Good Afternoon, World!!! I am back from spending a few hours with my family to honor my grandma. We had my grandma’s favorite meal of ham, mashed potato’s and peas. My grandpa said a prayer and started to cry which got me to cry. A cry that I needed. I am having a difficult time with dealing with grief of any kind especially over the death of my grandma.

I am now listening to NPR podcast on about Ted Radio Hour which is based on TedTalks. The topic of the podcast is collaboration. I am liking the talk of collaboration because it can mean different things to different people.

After the podcast is over I plan on reading a book on Buddhism called Why Buddhism Is True. I am wanting to learn about Buddhism. I also got a book called Buddhist Scriptures. I am wanting to better myself and hope that Buddhism helps me on my recovery journey.

Thank you for reading. Have a wonderful weekend and Peace Out, World!!!

Keeping Busy Through Grief

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Hello, World!!! Right now I am dealing with some sadness. Sadness about missing my grandma. I miss greatly miss my grandma. It’s going to be a hard few days for me. Tomorrow is Mother’s Day and Monday is the third month anniversary of my grandma’s death. I wish dealing with grief wasn’t so difficult.

I have been doing multiple things to help me with the grief I have been dealing with. One of the things I have been doing to creating my schedule for next week. Having a regular schedule helps me with my recovery.

Another thing I have been doing is painting. Painting and all forms of art help me express my emotions. The emotions that I can not express in words come through in my art.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Dealing With Grief

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Good Morning, World!!! Today, I am getting together with my dad, grandpa and two uncles to celebrate Mother’s Day a day early in memory of my grandma. Tomorrow is going to be a difficult day for my family as well as myself because it is going to be the first Mother’s Day without my grandma.

To help with the grief with this weekend I have a lot planned. Some of what I have planned is as simple as stuff I do everyday. Stuff such as reading Star War: Heir To The Empire or painting or listening to Podcast. Reading and listening helps me forget about the loss for a temporary amount of time. Painting helps me express my emotions.

Thank you for reading. Have a great weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Too Much Sh*t On My Mind

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Hello, World!!! I don’t know what to think right now. I have a lot of shit on my mind. I don’t know why I am having all this stuff going through my head.

I’m having trouble sleeping because of the shit going through my head. One thing I can’t seem to get out of my head is the trauma related stuff. Why can’t the PTSD give me a break? Especially, when I am wanting to go to sleep.

I am also thinking a lot about my grandma. I miss her so very much. I wish she was still here with me and my family. I know she is watching over me and is my guardian angel. She still looking out for me or I hope she still is.

I am also thinking about the money issues I am having because social security won’t make a decision about my case. I am still disabled. My disability didn’t all of a sudden disappear; although it would very nice if it did.

On the humorous side of things, I am also thinking about the Star Wars book I am reading. Of all things that I am thinking about I find this the best thing or the least anxiety provoking or painful.

Time With Grandpa

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Good Afternoon, World!!! I am visiting my grandpa right now. My grandpa is doing well. We have been playing Monopoly most of the visit and are taking a break. I am enjoying my time with him. I am visiting him because we are both having trouble with grief over my grandma.

Missing my grandma is difficult and that is why I am keeping myself busy. Busy with various things.  Spending time with people like my grandpa and later on with Junior and some of our friends.

Another way I have been keeping myself busy is reading. Reading has been one of my go to things as of lately to help me. To help me through some difficult moments.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

A Brief Post

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Hello, World!!! I am a little sad at the moment. I am missing my grandma a great deal at the moment. I wish she was here to give me some advice or at least for her to tell me that everything is going to be okay even I already know that but don’t feel like it.

On the plus side my new weighted blanket is really helping at the moment. I was skeptical when I bought it and now I am convinced that it is worth the money I spent on it. I highly recommend getting one if you have anxiety. Not sure about the sleep part of the help yet, as I haven’t been to bed yet.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Nothing but Just a Bunch of Rambling

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Good Afternoon, World!!! First and fore most I am having anxiety as Social Security informed me that I am “no longer disabled” and are discontinuing money that I worked hard for. They are also telling me I owe them money when I told them of the over-payment to begin with. I am having really high anxiety over this yet I can not do anything about it till I go into the office about it. I plan on going on Monday as I am sure tomorrow will be busy as it is the day after everyone gets paid. I may have anxiety over it but there is nothing I can really do right now.

I am also really sad right now because I am missing my grandma. I miss her and I know she would tell me everything is going to work out. I just have to remember that. I know she is watching over me and will want me to not worry about the Social Security.

The one thing that is helping is helping is something I just got from Amazon which is a weighted blanket. It is helping with everything that is going on for me at the moment. I am sweating by the weighted blanket. It is quite helpful.

I also saw my therapist today. I discussed with him my social security issue and he is going to help me the best he is able to do. I then checked in with him about a half an hour ago to inform him about how the weighted blanket is being of major help and how I wasn’t expecting till tomorrow. He really wants to help me the best he way is able to do so.

Thank you so for reading my blog. It mean the world!!! Peace Out, World!!!

Saturday Morning Ramblings

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Good Morning, World!!! I again didn’t get any sleep last night. Having insomnia sucks shit yet I am attempting to look at the silver lining in it. Right now the silver lining is being of support to my best friend who lost her mom yesterday. She leaned on me and another friend of our due to the fact we know what it is like to recently loose someone close.

I also did some reading. Reading has been quite helpful to pass the long nights. It has also been quite entertaining. Being able to read and entertain myself has been a useful tool for me.

Since we are on the topic of reading, I most likely will be reading most of the day as the weather is not exactly nice. It is a typical Seattle weather type of day outside. Having a typical weather day like today is great for me to read and to rest since I didn’t get sleep last night.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Everyone Needs A Day Off

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Good Afternoon, World!!! It’s been a day since I last posted. I didn’t post for no particular reason. Sometimes we just need a day off every once in a while even from blogging. Don’t get me wrong, I love blogging, I just need a day off.

One of the things I did yesterday was nap most of the day. I think it was because I was so tired and catching up on sleep. Not only did I sleep a lot yesterday, I also read. I read Ship of Magic by Robin Hobb. I am enjoying the books thus far. Besides reading and napping I worked on two of my workbooks. Workbooks that help me with my recovery.

Having a nice day off from blogging was a good thing. Unfortunately, my best friends mom died today from health complications. She was only in her sixties. She was like a second mom to me. This was the friends mom that helped me convince my grandma to play the flute.  Please keep my friend and her family in your thoughts and send positive vibes their way.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Facebook Meme’s That Describe Grief and Depression

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I have decided to post meme’s on how I am feeling right this moment. Grief and depression.

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