Tag Archives: Hope

Just Too Much Adulting

Posted on by Gertie

Good Afternoon, World!!! I know it is only two in the afternoon in my corner of the world but I have had just too much adulting for the day. Yes, while doing chores I listened to music which helped a great deal. It is just the other parts of adulting that were getting to me.

For example, while listening to music and cleaning my apartment two of my neighbors were screaming at each other in the hallway. Screaming that led into a physical altercation between the two of them which led to the police being called.

Now that I am done adulting for the moment, I am going to take a break from reality. Taking a break from reality by doing some things I enjoy doing. One thing to escape reality that I will be doing is art. It will help me express the emotions of the day and life in general.

Another way I am I escape reality it by reading. Reading a book or two that is fiction. Actually, I will be reading a fantasy book. Reading a fantasy book is definitely an escape on reality.

Thank you so much for reading about my life. Peace Out, World!!!

A Day of Adulting

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! Today is going to be a day full of adulting. It is my plan to do some chores today. Specifically household chores. I also have to pay my credit card bill but that is a simple as eating apple pie.

I am not a big fan of doing chore yet I know it is a necessary part of life. A part of life for me that is conducive to my recovery. It always makes me feel better when I accomplish things especially when in comes to having a clean apartment. I’m not a messy person it is just me wanting  to feel good for my birthday tomorrow. We all feel better when our place of residence is clean even if we aren’t necessarily messy folks.

Now it is time for me to go and adult. Have a great day!!! Peace Out, World!!!

The Oh So Elusive Thing Called Sleep

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! Once again I am having another night of what looks like of no sleep. Sleep is a major part of my recovery and to living everyday life. I guess that I am getting frustrated that I am not being able to sleep. Sleep is key for me to be stable.

Stable to where I can function as a productive member of society. Society that expects people like myself to work. Hell, I expect me to work because I know I am able to do so however my symptoms are getting the fucking what of being a functioning adult.

Now that I am done venting, I am going to attempt to get some sleep. Thank you so much for reading. Goodnight. Peace Out, World!!!

Monday Evening Ramblings

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! I am wanting to blog right now but having some issues at the moment. Part of it is genuine writers block while the other part is due to mental health symptoms. Symptoms that are quite bothersome and annoying as hell.

I did see Gilbert today. We discussed the recent trauma I experienced. We also discussed the art work I did in Art Group today. He really likes the fact that art helps me open up about stuff that I need to discuss to help me with my recovery.

For me finding way to help me with my recovery is quite important to me. That’s why I am grateful that Gilbert is invested in my recovery. I think he is more so at the moment than I am but that is okay with me for now.

Thanks for reading. It’s much appreciated from my end. Peace Out, World!!!

Thin Mints Washing Away My Sorrows

Posted on by Gertie

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Good Evening, World!!! It has been one of them days. No matter what I do, I gain a little ground and then trip over the other shoe that finally dropped. Even though, I am struggling at this particular moment in time, I remember the things that give me hope like what I mentioned in my previous post.

I might be dealing with grief and loss from my grandma’s death as well as a trauma but I’m not harming myself which is a good thing. No, I don’t have urges to self harm but what I’m saying is that with the recent difficulties I am dealing with is that I could have some mental health symptoms that are more difficult than others to deal with.

Right now, I am eating a box of Girl Scout Thin Mint cookies. It is quite soothing for me to treat myself to Thin Mints. Girl Scout cookies are only sold for a limited time once a year.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Finding the Hope in the Little Things

Posted on by Gertie

Good Afternoon, World!!! The last year and a half has been quite the struggle for me yet every time I feel like I am making some ground something trips me up. Sort of like tripping over the other shoe dropping.

Yet when I am tripping over the other shoe dropping, I tend to find the hope in the little things. Little things like reading a book or listening to my favorite music or even creating art. Yes, all the above mentioned give me hope yet something else gave me the hope I needed for this moment in time

That hope came from the two workbooks I am doing. One is about resiliency regarding my sexual orientation of being a pansexual and gender identity of being a non-binary, gender fluid individual. The other workbook is on mindfulness. So the workbooks I am doing on resiliency on who I am with my gender identity and sexual orientation as well as being mindful of being in the moment is what is giving me hope. Hope of who I am as an individual despite tripping over the other shoe dropping.

Thank you for reading. It is much appreciated from my end. Peace Out, World!!!

Gertie’s Grief

Posted on by mamabearraine

Gertie didn’t want me to post today however I am a person of my word. Gertie is dealing with grief of the death of their grandma. Gerties grandma died two weeks ago today. Please send out good thoughts and vibes Gerties was especially since the funeral is over with next Wednesday is Gerties birthday.

Yes, Gertie’s birthday is a week from today. They would be to happy with me however Gertie is like one of my own children to me.

Have a wonderful week and keep Gertie in your thoughts and vibes.

Back Home In The Concrete Jungle of Seattle

Posted on by Gertie

Good Afternoon, World!!! The funeral was amazing. I am finally back home in the concrete jungle I call Seattle.

The first thing I am going to do after I am done blogging is call Gilbert, my therapist. After that I’m going to get my meds. Good ole meds in the jungle of Seattle.

Thank you for reading my short ass post regarding me back in the concrete jungle of Seattle. Thank you so much for reading and Peace Out, World!!!

At The End of The Rainbow

Posted on by Gertie

You and a friend have decided to try and follow a rainbow to see if the end holds a pot of gold. But when you finally reach the end, you find something much more valuable than a pot of gold—and it changes your life.

It is a simple as we find out through the journey we went on that our friendship will last through the good times and the bad times. Because of this we received what our hearts desired. For me it was an education in the mental health field and for my friend it was marrying the love of her life.

 

Dreading Tomorrow

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! Tomorrow is my grandma’s funeral. It is going to be an extremely tough day for my family and I. I am not wanting to say goodbye to my grandma. I miss her so much.

Instead of giving a speech I will be a playing my flute at my grandma’s funeral. It’s something she loved even though I don’t play all that well. My uncle is giving the eulogy while my other uncle as well as my dad share some stories. Of course my grandpa will be sharing some things as well.

Thank you for reading. It’s much appreciated especially now. Peace Out, World!!!