Tag Archives: Mental Health

Currently At Job Interview

Posted on by Gertie

Good Afternoon, World!!! As you read this I should be having my interview at the moment. No, I am not writing this at the moment. I scheduled it to be post it at this time as writing it when I did was helping me in the moment with my anxiety. Truthfully, I am most likely full of butterflies as you read this.

Blogging about something ahead time that hasn’t happened yet is weird yet I wanted to schedule this post for now so you my reader can send out positive vibes, positive thoughts, prayers, wish me luck or whatever to me at this moment in time. Also as I am writing this (even though it is a scheduled post) it is helping me with my anxiety.

Thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Gertie’s On Their Way To Their Interview

Posted on by mamabearraine

Hello!!! It is I, Mama Bear. I realize it have been a few weeks since I last posted. I have been quite busy with family and work. My youngest child is going through their own mental health crisis and needed to focus on that. I requested Gertie not share that as I want to share more about my family when I post. Today is not the day I will post about my family as I want to discuss Gertie and their job interview.

At this very moment Gertie is on their way to their job interview. It is my hope that Gertie gets this job as I know them well enough that they do better with their mental health symptoms when they are working. It is my hope that they get the job they want. Gertie is aware that I don’t think this is the right job for them but if it is meant to be they will be offered the job and Gertie will accept it if it fits their schedule and value system. Gertie is an extremely wise person and will do what is best for them with much consultation from individuals such as myself and Junior. It is my hope that Gertie does well and gets this job if it is meant for them.

Hump Day (Wed.) Morning Ramblings

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I am sitting here at my laptop thinking about what I have going on today. Mainly, what I have going today is an interview. An interview to have a job as a Peer Specialist (Counselor). A job that I know I am capable of doing.

On that note I, posted about when I applied for the interview on a social media site. I informed people that “if and only if I get the job will I need stricter boundaries with a handful of individuals.” I deleted it primarily because I accidently crossed a friends boundary. On that note another “friend” commented on it. To find out this person thought I deleted it because of them. They passive aggressively mentioned something about my post on his wall without mentioning my name. More or less mutual friends knew who they were talking about as I got some private messages via social media and some text asking me if I’ve read and if I think it was about me. I’m not sure if it about me but I see how others may see it. The original post wasn’t even about them or geared toward them. I stated that “I’m freaking out” and that was the key part of the post as I was freaking out due to the possibilities of setting stricter boundaries that didn’t involve the person being passive aggressive. Maybe with me posting about this is being passive aggressive.  If it is being passive aggressive, I am not attempting to do so as I am just venting about. I guess I wish this individual would have reached out to me as I did them after seeing their post. Now this person is “livid” with me because they think I am “bragging” as I posted on social media that I have an interview. I am not sure what is going on with this person but I am concerned for them as they appear to be quite symptomatic to me.

Enough about that situation and on to a different topic, sort of. It’s about boundaries and how everyone has some form of them. Some of us are better at not letting folks cross them. For me it is easy for me to not allow folks to cross my boundaries with the exception of some of my family. I think that is why I got angry yesterday with family. I allowed them to cross my boundaries and that was all on me. Realizing this I can discuss it more my therapist so we can work on it.

I don’t have much more to say other than what I have already said. So, I am ending this post as I do not want to risk repeating myself. Peace Out, World!!!

Anxiety Over Job Interview

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I am having some anxiety over my job interview tomorrow. I think I am more concerned on transportation than anything. Actually, I worry about the bus to get be back to the ferry after the interview as it only runs once an hour. The bus not the ferry.

I know myself well enough that once I am on my way there I won’t be so high anxiety. I say this because riding the ferry is helpful for me. It is one of the skills I have for myself to calm myself the fuck down.

As I am working through the anxiety I realize that I need use some skills. Skills like I have discussed multiple times in past post. One such skill is reading. I am hoping to finish the book soon but I am loving it. Another skill I can do is some art. Specifically, coloring.

Thank you for reading my blog as I go and use my skills. Peace Out, World!!!

Anger Subsided

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! I am feeling slightly better than my last post. The anger subsided a great deal. After reading a couple of chapters in my book I realized that I needed to talk with friends so I did. Reading as well as talking with friends helped the anger subside. My therapist gave me a great suggestion of reading.

I need to get going as I realize I am hungry. I need to make dinner. Have a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

Anger = Call to Therapist

Posted on by Gertie

Good Afternoon, World!!! As much as I love my family, they are driving me nuts right now. Driving me nuts over petty shit that I shouldn’t let get to me but I do.

I talked with my new therapist about this and he suggested some things for me to do so I am not so angry with them. The cool thing about everything is that he knew what questions to ask about me and my anger. He now knows that me calling when I am angry is a good. This is a way for me to be preventative to do self harm urges and self harm acts. Thankfully, the anger toward my family didn’t lead to self harm urges which is why I was being preventative.

Something that my therapist and I came up with is to keep my mind busy so reading and books. I found out that my therapist is also an avid reading. His enjoys science fiction and fantasy genres. Knowing something as simple as this helps me with trusting my therapist. Talking about ways to not be so angry and books with my therapist helped lessened the anger a great deal.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World.

First Session With New Clinician

Posted on by Gertie

Good Afternoon, World!!! I met with my new clinician today. He is my case manager but we are going to be do therapy work so he is more like a therapist for me. We discussed quite a lot today and my anxiety was put at ease.

One of the main topics we discussed was boundaries. Boundaries about our therapeutic relationship. He appears to have good boundaries.

We also discussed our expectations of the relationship and what I want to work on. He appears to be on the same page as me regarding expectations and my recovery plan. My new therapist is on board with my recovery as well as the recovery movement.

I think I’m going to like this new therapist as he is proving himself already. He is encouraging me to build more structure in my life. He thinks I need more recreation in my life which is true.

Thank you so much for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Tuesday Morning, Ramblings

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! Today, I have my first one on one session with my new therapist. I am having some anxiety about it however I know it is normal to have some as it an emotion many deal with.

As you may know if you read my last post is that I didn’t get much sleep last night. I only got about two hours. It is two hours more that I got the night before. Sleep is a precious thing that when I get some I cherish it.

Thank you for reading. Peace out, world!!!

Sleepless In Stormy Seattle

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! It is two thirty in the morning in Seattle and I am wide awake once again. At least I did get some sleep tonight so that is a plus. I am not going to complain about getting roughly two hours of sleep. It is more than I got last night.

If you were to look outside right now you would not have guessed that it was a beautiful day in Seattle yesterday. It is quite stormy outside as I sit here and write this post. Stormy weather can be enjoyable at times.

I think I am going to binge watch some M*A*S*H. M*A*S*H  is one of my favorite television shows. The comedy and humor in the show helps me a great deal with the symptoms of my mental health conditions.

Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

No Nap For Me

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! I couldn’t sleep. I was unable to take a nap and it sucks shit that I was unable to do so. Not sleeping or in this case napping is not fun. I just want to be able to get some sleep.

Not sure why I am unable to sleep but I am having some anxiety over my job interview on Wednesday. I am excited about it but I experiencing anxiety and know that it is completely normal.

I am also having anxiety over seeing my new clinician even though I have a good feeling about him with my limited interactions with him thus far. Maybe it is because I don’t do well with change especially within my mental health treatment.

I think I am going to do some art to help with the anxiety. It helped earlier today in art group. I think the type of art I’ll do is coloring as it is helpful and calming for me.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!