The Waiting Game

I am sitting here waiting for my family to come pick me up so we can head over to Spokane for my grandma’s funeral. Spending five plus hours in the car with my family will be challenging which is why I am going be making my backpack a DBT bag for the next couple of days.

For me making sure I have the tools or skill I need to not make the situation worse is the key to what DBT is about. Plus I will feel better about myself if I do what I need to do.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Blog
  • Head to Spokane for Grandma’s funeral
  • Read

Monday

  • Blog
  • Attend Grandma’s funeral
  • Hang out with friend

Tuesday

  • Blog
  • Head back to Seattle
  • Read
  • Clean apartment

Wednesday

  • Blog
  • Therapy
  • Clean apartment

Thursday

  • Blog
  • Dr. Appointment
  • Clean apartment

Friday

  • Blog
  • See case manager
  • Go to DBT group
  • Therapy

Saturday

  • Blog
  • Lunch with friends
  • Volunteer

 

Ugh!!! Someone Pulled The Fire Alarm

Hello, World!!! I’m getting frustrated as hell. Someone keeps pulling the pull station and it sets off the fire alarm. I was in the middle of working on one of my workbooks. I am now shaken up by this. It triggers my PTSD as I been in two fires.

Now that I have been triggered, I am going to do some mindfulness and meditation practices. I need to get back to being relaxed so I can sleep tonight.

I hope everyone has a great night. Thank you for reading my blog. Goodnight. Peace Out, World!!!

In Physical Pain (Not Looking For Sympathy)

Hello, World!!! I am in physical pain from breaking my hand. Never hit a brick wall because the brick wall always wins. I am not asking for empathy nor am I asking for sympathy. I am just venting my frustrations about me self harming.

I think I have had enough self pity about me harming myself. Now on to being productive. I need to pack to go to Spokane tomorrow for my grandma’s funeral on Monday.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

Good Evening, World!!! This is a difficult as I am typing with a broken hand. I broke my hand by punching brick wall. Never punch a brick wall as you will always loose to the brick wall. I have learned my lesson to use my skills instead of harming myself.

I didn’t go to my volunteer job because of dealing with the grief of my grandma’s death. I think that is why I got so angry. Angry that my grandma passed away. I wish my grandma didn’t die. I miss her so much.

Not much happened this week. Just dealing with the grief of my grandma and helping plan her funeral for Monday. Oh yeah Seattle got some snow and it has been frigid cold here as well.

Thank you for reading my blog. No need to worry about me as I won’t self harm. Peace Out, World!!!

Just a Rambling or Two

Good Morning, World!!! I was able to get back to sleep after my last post discussing about how I woke up from a nightmare. Nightmares are not my idea of fun and not conducive to one getting sleep.

Right now I am thinking about my grandma and her funeral on Monday.  I miss her so much and its going to be difficult to say goodbye to her on Monday. I just want my grandma back so much. I love her so very much.

I think once I am done blogging I will do The Mindfulness Workbook that I’ve been working on. It’s helping me overcoming fear and embracing compassion. I am enjoying doing this workbook as well the other workbook I am doing.

I think I am going to get going and do my workbook. Thank you very much for reading my blog. It is much appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Had A Not So Lovely Nightmare

Good Morning, World!!! Good news is that I finally got some sleep. Bad news is I woke up with a nightmare. Having nightmares is not my idea of fun nor is my idea of a good night’s sleep.

Since I woke up from a nightmare that was a bit more rattling than usual I decided to blog. After I finish this post, I am going to read Wonder Woman comic books. I love reading comic books especially Wonder Woman.

Thank you for reading. It is greatly appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Snowing In Seattle, Again

Good Evening, World!!! It’s snowing again in Seattle. The weatherman inform people that it’s “not currently snowing in Seattle.” Well, I am sorry to say but it is snowing in my neighborhood and I live in Seattle.

Despite it snowing, I went and saw Gilbert earlier today. We discussed my grief with my grandma and her funeral on Monday. We also discussed the symptoms of my PTSD, Anxiety and Depression as well as what I can do to keep myself safe if self-harm urges are to appear. (NO, I don’t have urges to self harm nor am I suicidal.) We came up with a safety plan as a precaution as I’m going to be spending a great deal of time with my family. Don’t get me wrong I love my family, they just know how to get under my skin and vise versa.

Speaking of family, I want to call my grandpa. Have a great weekend and Peace Out, World!!!

Friday Morning Bullsh*t

Good Morning, World!!! I, once again didn’t get any sleep last night. I am starting to get frustrated with this little to no sleep thing. I fear if I continue to not get any sleep that the symptoms of my mental health conditions will increase. This is something I’ll be discussing with Gilbert later on today.

If you been reading my blog the last couple of weeks, you know that I have been watching the Winter Olympics. It is something I have been enjoying and I am going to be sad when they end.

Todays starts spring training games for baseball. This means baseball is just around the corner. I love watching baseball. Hell, I loved playing baseball in little league. I wasn’t the best player on the team but I sure loved it.

Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Fun Fact Friday

  • Chickens can remember over 100 faces of people or animals.
  • Chickens can taste saltiness but not sweetness.
  • The record for most egg yolks in one egg is 9 yolks.
  • Chickens can see and dream in full color.
  • Both prayer and meditation help with self-control
  • Prayer and meditation help with feeling less stressed out
  • Meditation and mindfulness helps us with empathy