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My Cat Thinks She Is Human

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Good Morning, World!!! I have notice a few things about Lil Gertie the last couple of days. It started when Lil Gertie took a Cheeto out of my hand the other day and just ate it. Then the other night she was more hyper than usual so I put on one of my favorite bands, Black Sabbath and she calmed the hell down. Who knew Black Sabbath would calm down a hyper cat. Last night she got on my lap and started eating my strawberry ice cream right from the bowl. Then as I was attempting to eat my doughnut she grabbed a piece and ate that this morning. I swear my cat thinks she is a human.

I go see my doctor in a couple of hours. She is just going to check up on me after my suicide attempt last week. My doctor is an awesome person. She wants to make sure I am doing alright both physically and mentally after last week.

I also start back up in DBT group today. I am so looking forward to DBT group this afternoon. I love being able to focus using my skills and being a “leader” in the group according to the group facilitators. I don’t know about being a leader but I do the skills and share my experience on how well the DBT skills work for me.

Thank you for reading. Have a great Friday. Peace Out, World!!!

Good Morning, World

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Good Morning, World!!! I got some sleep last night and woke up on this god awful hour because Lil Gertie woke me up form a nightmare. She woke me up with a like on the nose. With her waking me up from the worst part of the nightmare from happening she has done her job and I didn’t have to train her to do that.

I have quite a lot planned today. First I go see my doctor a ten this morning. I am looking forward to seeing her as she has been my doctor for nine years. She is going to do a check up after the attempt to take my own life last week. My doctor is awesome.

I will all so be starting Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) back up today. I am looking forward to this as it gives me the structure and skills I need to help myself. I love being able to help myself with the skills I know how to do has well as the ones I will be learning.

I emailed my therapist about the PTSD stuff and how Lil Gertie has been helpful for me. I attempt to only email him when I think he needs to know something soon. As someone who worked in the mental health field I know from experience that I am more likely respond to an email verses a voicemail.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

 

 

Late Evening Ramblings

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Good Evening, World!!! I sit here at my laptop attempting on what I should do next with my evening. I have already ate, taken a shower and am in my pajama’s ready to relax for the night. Not sure what I am going to do except watch the news. News that always seems to be so negative.

I have had a pretty good day.  Having structure in my life is always a good thing for me. As difficult as therapy was for me today it was a good session. As I mentioned in an earlier post we discussed what I could do differently to not attempt to take my own life. One of those things is having my cat, Lil Gertie around. Another thing is to attend groups to help with the structure part of my life that I need.

I think I am going to work on one of my workbooks. The one that is strengths based. The one that I am on the topic of courage. Courage is a difficult topic for me and I have no clue what. It is something to talk to my therapist about.

Life is good. I think I am going to go for a walk now. Have a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

Today Marks Four Years

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Good Evening, World!!! I know I just posted about the overall good day I had about an hour ago; I forgot that today marks four years since I started blogging. It is hard to believe that it has been four years since I started blogging.

In those four years it is my hope that reached out to people and educated folks to lessen the stigma of having a mental health challenge. It also comes to my conclusion that I have use my blog as a journal to give out hope. Hope to those who may feel alone in their mental health condition.

Well that is all I have to say about me blogging for four years. Have a great day. Peace out, World!!!

It’s Been An Overall Good Day

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Good Evening, World!!! Today, overall has been a good day despite not getting any sleep. I even attempted to take a nap when I got home from day treatment and seeing my therapist.

As I stated I saw my therapist today. We discussed my suicide attempt on Wednesday and talked about it in detail. We discussed how having a cat helped me make the decision to live and carry on with my life. We talked about the three groups I plan on attending especially the DBT group I start back up tomorrow. We both agree that DBT group will be extremely important for me to attend. I showed him my scrap book and he appeared surprised that I was will to share something “so personal” with him. We talked about how arts and crafts have been helpful to me. In fact he wants me to continue to attend art group as he “feels like it helps” me express my emotions. He is going to sit in on Art group on Monday.

I see my doctor tomorrow and my doctor called me today to check in on me. We talked a little about my suicide attempt. She just wanted to make sure I was doing better and to make sure I’ll be going to see her tomorrow. I confirmed that I would be there tomorrow. We will be discussing the suicide attempt even though it was more than a week ago.

I am grateful that I am not suicidal and that I have a good support system that checks in with me. My therapist, doctor, and psychiatric nurse practitioner all agree that I am doing okay at the moment. They are talking with each other and agree that me being out of the hospital for psych reasons is a good thing.

Thank you so much for reading. It is greatly appreciated. Have a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!!

Bored In Day Treatment

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Good Morning, World!!! I am bored half out of my mind in day treatment. I am attending day treatment as I wait for my appointment with my therapist. There is not really much to do. So, I decided to use one of the computers to blog.

Besides blogging I have been working on one of workbooks. The one that is strengths based and recovery focused. Right now I am working on courage. I don’t know about the courage thing as I do what is needed to be done to help others and my recovery.

I am missing my cat dearly right now. I am wondering what she is doing at this present moment. She is most likely taking a cat nap like she does this time of day. Either that or she is getting into shit she is not suppose to be getting into.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Morning Ramblings

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Good Morning, World!!! I haven’t gotten any sleep and I am okay with that as I was able to spend quality time with Lil Gertie. As tired as I am, I am grateful for the time I had with Lil Gertie. She is an awesome lil kitty.

When I wasn’t spending time with Lil Gertie, I was doing one of my workbooks. Specifically, I was working on my Pathways to Recovery workbook. It looks at mental health recovery as a whole and how we can develop our strengths as well as some skill to be in recovery.

If you been reading my blog on the regular basis you know that my recovery means the world to me. I do workbooks to help me along my recovery process. I am not doing the workbooks to replace therapy, I am doing them in addition to therapy.

Since we are now on the topic of therapy, I am seeing my therapist today. I am seeing him for our new scheduled time for Thursdays at eleven in the morning. He is really cool and encourages me to build my support system by getting out of my box.

Something that has been helping me that last few days is scrap booking. I’m really enjoying doing it as it gives me something to do. It also gives me something to look at during the process of making it as well as when I am finished with it. When I look at it, it is helpful by giving me hope. Hope by helping me remember the good things in my life.

I think I am going to get going. I am going to watch the news and get ready for the day ahead. I hope everyone has a good day. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Laughter In Seattle

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Good Morning, World!!! It is just after twelve thirty in the morning in my corner of the world. I just got done watching The Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon. Watching The Tonight Show helps me be able to get things off my mind by laughing. Laughing also helps me get to sleep.

I think I am going to read for an hour and then go to bed. Not sure which book I am going to be reading as I am in the middle of reading multiple books. I might even look over my scrapbook as I have written in that. It might be help to put me in a good mindset to sleep.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Evening Ramblings

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Good Evening, World. Right now I am just fighting through some anxiety. Anxiety that is being reduced my Lil Gertie. I’m going to be seeing my therapist tomorrow and we will be discussing my anxiety and how my cat has been helping reduce the symptoms of it.

As you may know if you read my blog regularly I am using advertisements to earn some extra money. They will not pay you till you hit at least one hundred dollars. All I made for the month of April is nine dollars and seventy four cents. Well, at least it is a start. A start in the right direction.

Today, I adulted. I paid most of my June bill already. The only thing I have to pay is my credit card bill and I can do that tomorrow. Being responsible with paying on bills is always a good thing. I also but kitty litter and food for Lil Gertie. I also got her a bed to sleep in. It will go on the end of my bed at night and next to my chair during the day.

I have been doing a lot of scrap booking today. I painted a picture in my scrap book just for the hell of it. It is my scrap book to help me remember the events of my life so why not remember painting.

I think I am going to go now. Have a great day. Peace Out World!!!

Afternoon Ramblings

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Good Afternoon, World!!! I have been sleeping most of the day. I didn’t sleep very well last night so I took a nap. A much needed nap. A nap where Lil Gertie cuddled up to me. She is still napping.

I did buy Lil Gertie a kitty bed, kitty litter and some wet food. She is sleeping in her be only because I put it in her favorite place. She appears to like the bed. I don’t hear her complaining about it.

I am not sure what I might do after blogging the post. I think I might work on my scrap book as I have been enjoying doing it. I am looking forward to showing it to people including my therapist. My grandpa is eager to see the scrap book after he gets done with his trip. I even painted a picture in my scrap book.

I don’t have much more to say so I guess, I will end the post. Thanks so much for reading. Peace Out, World!!!