Getting Back Into the Swing of Things

Good Afternoon, World!!! I know I’ve mentioned that my new job didn’t work out for me so, I am applying for new job. I’m also going to go try to get back on Disability through Social Security and will be going to DSHS to get food stamps and hopefully some money till I get a job or disability. I’ve already applied for jobs. I’m just l waiting to hear back since it has only been less than three days for applying for six jobs. Yes, six jobs in three days. I need the money to pay the bills including the rent.

As far as getting back into things, I want to learn new things and start back into getting back into recovery focused stuff. One of the things I’m getting back into is blogging as well a recovery related workbooks. I am also going to read books on the regular basis. I will also be doing some basic math and pre-algebra math as I feel like it is something I need. Yes I know how to do math but I just want to improve it. I’m also going to learn how to do tarot cards. I will not only teach myself but have friends help me as well as watch YouTube video’s.

So, I think that is a good start get back in the swing of things. Plus if I get a job, I will be in the swing of things already but I would just need to to adjust my schedule around. I’m grateful I have time to start all this but sad I don’t have a job or disability coming in money wise to pay bills.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Happy Weekend and Peace Out, World!!!

Plans to Make a Better Future

Right now I have a lot of desires to improve my life. Of course my cat Billie Dean helps improve my life. I love him so very much. I know he loves me very much as well. He has kept me stable the last two and half years. I love him so much and wish his dental work wasn’t so expensive.

I am also teaching myself tarot card in hopes it will give me a better direction in my life. I also have a tarot journal to help with it creating a life worth living. A life worth living is something I desire.

Therapy helps build a life worth living as long as doing self help books. I just want to be come a better self even if therapy and self help books are helpful.

Another thing that helps me is applying for jobs a reading. I hope to get a lot done next week. I don’ have much more to say except thank you for reading my blog. it it greatly appreciated from my end of things. Again thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World and have an awesome weekend.

Everyday Inspiration; Day 1: I Write Because…

I write in many forms for many reasons. But today, I will be writing about why I write my blog. I originally started my blog to help educate those who don’t struggle with a mental health diagnosis and/or substance use disorders (addiction) that we can live productive lives just like those who don’t struggle with those issues. I also started blogging to give hope to those who are still struggling with mental health symptoms and/or addiction that recovery is possible.

Little did I know that when I started my blog that it would end up helping me with my own recovery and became a form of both self care and self help. I am grateful for this unexpected surprise of blogging is helping me with my recovery; both the ups and the downs.

As you can tell, I write my blog to help others as well as myself. Most importantly, I write my blog in hopes to lessen the stigma by educating those with out mental health or addiction issues that we can be productive members of society.

2022 Goals (Part 3)

Good Morning, World!!! It is 6:03am in the morning in my corner of the world here in Seattle. I have been coming up with some more goals I know that I can accomplish by the end of the year or hopefully make some small accomplishments with the goals.

One of the goals I want to focus on this year is self care. Self care can look differently to different people at different times. One of my self care goals is to get my hair cut and/or died twice this year. Getting a hair cut make me feel getter about myself.

Another self care goal which is also goal of my mine is to do my chores a on a more regular basis. Like actually get my apartment completely cleaned and declutter the stuff I do not need any more. I plan on having a schedule to do chores around my apartment at least three times a week. As far as the chores, I think cleaning my apartment will help with my depression.

As far as self help stuff, I plan on doing some self help workbooks to help with my healing and recovery. Workbooks tend to help me along with attending therapy session with my therapist. The more help I can get the more recovery I can gain to be able to help the people I help at work with.

I am also planning on attending a 12-step meeting that has the twelve step concepts in it as well as can have peer recovery language in it. It focus on the self and how to realize that you don’t need to fix the person with the problem that you just need to focuses on that you need to change yourself. It has pit of other 12step programs in it which makes it more center to being a better peer and had peer recovery language in the particular 12step program which is why I like it is so much. So far I still have more goals but wanted to let you know part three of my goals.

And of course taking care of my cat, Billie Dean will always be a goal. He is my baby and my life and I love him to death. I’m sure he loves me back. I love my cuddle but of a cat.

I don’t have much to say in the particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Nothing But Just a Bunch of Ramblings

Good Afternoon, World!!! As I sit here at my laptop, I am worried about my tax refund. I am worried why it hasn’t been approved yet. I know the IRS is busy right now with all the procrastinators but still I would like to know if my refund got approved. I guess I am just worried about the money aspect right now.

I am getting excited about the work shop I will be attending in a couple of hours. I am happy that I was invited to this workshop via private email. A friend invited me to attend it. It is about the implementation of recovery and peer services, to make sure they are going the way the county wants it to go.

I am not only have lunch with the friend who invited me to the workshop today but I am having dinner with another friend. A friend I have known for nearly 23 years. It is always good to spend time with people. People who care about you.

I have been working on two of my workbooks today. I am feeling slightly accomplished that I have been able to do so. Working on the workbooks has be quite beneficial to me and my recovery. Being able to help myself is an amazing feeling.

Thank you for reading. I hope to blog again this evening. Specifically about the workshop I attended. Have a wonderful weekend. Happy Friday. Peace Out, World!!!


Sleepless, Once Again, in Seattle

Good Morning, World!!! I’m Sleepless in Seattle, once again. Since, I am having trouble I decided to work on my workbook: The Queer & Transgender Resilience Workbook. I am finding this quite challenging for me as its really digging deep into who I am as a genderqueer non-conforming person. Stuff that I’ve been talking to both my therapist, Gilbert, and case manager about. They are helping me process what I need to while doing this workbook.

I also decided to start another self-help work book called The Mindfulness Workbook. It’s a beginners guide to overcoming fear and embracing compassion. I figured since one of my goals for 2018 was to increase my mindfulness and meditation skills. I am incorporating this into my daily practice now in the mornings.

Mindfulness seems to be helping me a great deal with my emotions and how I reacting to them and situations. Gilbert even mentioned it on Friday which shocked me as I wasn’t sure he was observing that.  It’s even helping my mental health symptoms.

Unfortunately, the lack of sleep is not helping with the mental health symptoms which is why I should get going. I think I will try to go and attempt to get some sleep. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World

A Year of Change

Good Evening, World!!! It has been two weeks and three days since 2018 started and have decided that this year will be a year of change. A year of positive change. In fact in October of this year (2018) it will mark fifteen(15) years since I made an active choice and decision with being in recovery. Yes, fifteen years. It’s difficult to wrap my mind around that I chose to be in active recovery back in 2003.

As I look back at 2003, I wasn’t where I wanted to be at in my life when I was 24 years old and am finding myself in a similar spot at almost 39 years old. The difference between now and then is that I have the skills and insight to know what to do to help and advocate for myself. Knowing how to help and advocate for myself is why I am making the decision to make this yet another year of change.

As many of you know, 2017 was not the easiest of years for me which is why I am wanting to make an active choice and decision to make an effort in my life regarding my recovery. I am making this year, a year of change in the positive direction with my recovery. I am planning on doing this in various ways which I plan to tell you how I’m going to this.

Many people have various ways on they get help for their mental health. Without sounding redundant, I’ll keep doing what I’ve been doing with going to see my psychiatric nurse practitioner, (temporary) therapist, case manager and attending groups. On that note, I’m going to add on somethings that will be yet a year of positive change for me. Some of what I’m going to mention are things others around the world have done to better themselves and their mental health.

One of the various ways I’m going to do to make this year a year of change is to set out a time to do mindfulness and/or meditation. I am doing this because I have found it quite helpful in the past as well as in the present. It helps me refocus what needs to be done when I’m dealing with an anxiety attack as well as help me focus on the day to come.

Another way I’m going to make this a year of change is to journal. I’ll continue to free write journal however I’ve decided I’ll do guided journaling. It is my hope that the guide journaling will help me remain positive or get me in a positive mindset. Yes, I know being positive or in a positive mindset isn’t going to happen every moment of everyday however I don’t want to be the one who bring negativity into this world.

The last thing I’m going to be doing to help myself make it a year of change is something many around the world have done. That something is doing self-help workbooks. Yes, I know that sounds corny and maybe even superficial however if it is something that has helped me in the past then it can’t hurt to try again.

In fact I ordered some self-help workbooks and a guided journal from Amazon and received most of the items I ordered today. I plan on starting on of the workbooks as well as the guided journal this evening.

Before starting on a working book and the guided journal, I need to make dinner and eat. I also need to do laundry however I can do laundry and workbook and/or guided journal at the same time.I hope that you found that me making an active change in my recovery refreshing from many of my past post over the last year. It is my hope to tell you more about the guided journaling and workbooks I am doing as I am doing them. Have a great evening, everyone. Peace Out, World!!!

2018; People Have Been Waiting For You

Happy New Year, World!!! 2018; You’re finally here and people have been waiting for you. 2018, people have been waiting for you because 2017 wasn’t the best of years for many of us; myself included.

As many of you know, 2017 wasn’t the best of years for me. It was a year of trials for me. I am attempting to look back at 2017 to look at any successes or triumphs I may have had and unable to find any. As much as I wish I had some sort of success or triumph in 2017, I realize that 2018 is a New Year.

A New Year to focus on what I need to do to continue on my road to recovery as well as to have the success and accomplishments I so desire to have. That’s why my goals for 2018 are simple or at least simple sounding. My goals sound simple in theory but in reality not so simple to do.

My goals for 2018 are as follows:

-Do a meditation or mindfulness exercise daily. (Preferably in the morning.)

-Do guided journaling daily. (This is on top of the free write journaling I do. The guided journaling is to help me focus on what is challenging me at the moment.)

-Do self-help workbooks. (This is to help me with my recovery and not take the place of what my mental health treatment teams helps me with.)

-Read books that are related to the mental health field. (This is to help me keep up to date on the field I choose to work in. I of course will still read books for fun.)

I do have other goals for 2018 but the above goals are the ones that I feel like that will help me the most to have a more successful and accomplished year than last year. I will have the help of my mental health treatment team as well as my friends with my 2018 goals.

Thank you for reading. As we begin 2018 I hope that this is a year that we are able to have a year of improvement and accomplishments we all can be proud of. I hope you continue to read and follow my blog. Happy New Years. Peace Out, World!!!