An Early Awaking

Good Morning, World!!! I am up way too early once again.  It is two thirty in the morning in my corner of the world. I am not sure what I am going to do till I leave for my therapy appointment. I leave at eight in the morning.

I think I am going to read. I will be reading my Star Wars book. I really enjoy Star Wars. It is an easy read and not difficult to concentrate on.

Thank you for reading. I hope you have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Too Much Sh*t On My Mind

Hello, World!!! I don’t know what to think right now. I have a lot of shit on my mind. I don’t know why I am having all this stuff going through my head.

I’m having trouble sleeping because of the shit going through my head. One thing I can’t seem to get out of my head is the trauma related stuff. Why can’t the PTSD give me a break? Especially, when I am wanting to go to sleep.

I am also thinking a lot about my grandma. I miss her so very much. I wish she was still here with me and my family. I know she is watching over me and is my guardian angel. She still looking out for me or I hope she still is.

I am also thinking about the money issues I am having because social security won’t make a decision about my case. I am still disabled. My disability didn’t all of a sudden disappear; although it would very nice if it did.

On the humorous side of things, I am also thinking about the Star Wars book I am reading. Of all things that I am thinking about I find this the best thing or the least anxiety provoking or painful.

A Star Wars Type of Evening

Good Evening, World!!! I am sitting here trying to figure out what to do as I have been reading most of the day. My eyes are starting to get a little strained and that is with using my glasses.

I think I am going to watch a movie. Not sure what movie yet but will watch a movie. I might watch the original Star Wars. Yeah, I think I am going to do that.

Thank you for reading. Have a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

Just Me Rambling About Random Sh*t

Good Afternoon, World!!! I am sitting here watching the news and blogging at the same time. I am going to be blogging what ever the hell that comes to my mind and right now I don’t know what that will be.

As I mentioned I am watching the local news. As usual there is no freaking good news being reported. I wish they would share some good news at least once a day.

I mentioned in my last post that I was working on my LGBTQ workbook. I went back to it and did one more section in the chapter I am on.  I also started working on my recovery workbook. I did a couple of sections on that as well.

I have also been reading my Star Wars book. It is an easy read and I might be done with it by this time next week if I focus on it. I am really enjoying the book and hope to read it as fast I think I will.

I am trying to figure what I am going to have for lunch. I think I am going to have a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. I will have glass of chocolate milk with it.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Feeling Overwhelmed = Star Wars Book

Good Morning, World!!! I have been working on my LGBTQ workbook and found myself getting overwhelmed. I am feeling overwhelmed because what I am working on is hitting close to home. Its hitting close to home because I haven’t admitted to myself a lot of things regarding my gender identity but I am learning how to do so.

Since I am feeling overwhelmed, I have decided to take a break from the workbook for a few hours and read. I am going to to read the Star Wars book I got yesterday (Sunday).  Sometime in recovery you need to realize it is okay to take a break every once in awhile to take a break. Especially when you are reading Star Wars.

Thank you for reading and Peace Out, World!!!!

A Taking it Easy Type of Day

Good Morning, World!!! I was planning on going to the social security office today however I fell asleep and slept through my alarm. I fell asleep because I was up way too early. Technically, I can still go but that means I would have to wait a lot longer. I am now planning on going on Wednesday as I have appointments tomorrow (Tuesday).

I am not really not planning on doing much today as the lack of sleep I got last night and I am not feeling all that well. I am not even planning on going to Art Group due to the fact that I am not feeling well. It is disappointing that I won’t be able to attend Art Group however I would rather get better today so I can see my therapist tomorrow as well as my primary care physician (pcp).

On that note, I am planning on taking it easy by reading the Star Wars book I started reading yesterday. I am loving the book. It is such an easy read. Something what I call eye candy.

Thank you for reading. I greatly appreciate all of you. Have an incredible day everyone and Peace Out, World.

Up Way Too Early

Good Morning, World!!! I woke up at three o’clock in the morning in my neck of the wood and have been unsuccessful in getting back to sleep. So, when I was unable to get back to sleep I decided to make myself some hot chocolate and listen to a podcast about philosophy. When I listen to a podcast, I take notes on them. I take notes on the podcast so I can look up the information myself. I do this so I can educate myself to the best of my ability as well as know what the hell I am discussing when I talk about it to others.

After listening to a podcast and looking things up, I decided to read. Read my Star Wars book that I recently got. I am highly enjoying the book. I haven’t read any of the Star Wars books till I started the one I am reading yesterday (Sunday). It is an easy read.

I think I am going to end this post and go back to reading. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated on my end. You all are extremely awesome. Have a very good day. Peace Out, World!!!

 

My Saturday

Good Evening, World!!! I have had a good day. I first had lunch with my family to celebrate my uncle’s birthday. He liked the card I made him as well as the picture I painted for him. He know where he is “going to put it.”

After lunch with my family I hung out with a friend from elementary school and junior high. I made her spaghetti as it is her favorite meal. It was nice to see her. We hang out every two months or so.

Now that my friend left, I am blogging about my day. I now plan on reading one of my new books. A Star Wars book. I am looking forward to reading it.

Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Depression Strikes, Again

Good Evening, World!!! Right now I am struggling with depression and anxiety. I am not sure why as it was an overall good day. Symptoms come at the most inopportune time especially those associated with PTSD.

I have been doing my workbook on mindfulness. It has been quite helpful for me working this workbook as well as the other workbooks I am doing. I am finding that using mindfulness is helping me with my reactivity and how I respond to things.

I also ordered three Star Wars books from Amazon as they were giving deals on Star Wars stuff. I got one of the books for free. I am looking forward to reading the Star Wars books as I am a huge fan of the Movies.

Speaking of reading I read today as well. I am finally getting some where in one of the books I am reading. It is finally getting good. I love to read.

Thank you for reading. May the 4th be with you. Peace Out, World!!

May the Fourth Be With You

Good Morning, World!!! I woke up this morning from a nightmare. A nightmare that is a symptom of PTSD. Dealing with childhood drama as an adult is difficult to do but it is possible to lessen the pain with a lot of therapy.

I may have woken up from a nightmare but I got about six hours of sleep. I owe the amount of sleep due my new weight blanket. I am in love with the weighted blanket.

Today is May 4th and is a day Star Wars fans celebrate here in the United States. May the Fourth be with you represents May the force be with you from Star Wars. I love Star Wars.

Thank you for reading. May the fourth be with you. Peace Out, World!!!