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Just A Bunch Of Ramblings

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Good Morning, World!!! I wonder at times on how many people really read my blog and if it is worth continuing to blog. I know it is worth continuing to blog, I am just having my doubts at the moment.

On a good note Lil Gertie is purring up a storm. She has been by my side most of the night. She slept right next to me. I love my cat so much. I am thrilled that I got her.

Right now, living with a mental health condition is driving me bonkers. It is driving me bonkers because of all the doubting I am having about myself. Doubting that I know is related to some old stinking thinking. Stinking thinking that sucks and I know that I will have to stop it as soon as possible or it could get worse for me.

Today, I am not sure exactly what I am going to do. I just felt like blogging at the moment. I think I’ll work on my workbooks for the good portion of the day. I also think I am going to be doing some scrap booking today. Both activities have been quite helpful for me and my thinking.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Interview Went Well

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Good Afternoon, World!!! I am now done with my interview at my previous employer. I think it went well. As with any job interview I had some anxiety that automatically goes with it. I say my anxiety was there but not as high as I thought it was going to be.

I am now at day treatment in my interview clothes waiting for Art Group. Art Group starts at one in the afternoon and it is now twelve thirty in the afternoon. I always look forward to Art therapy as it helps me express myself with what I am trying to say verbally.

As far as the group I am going to do at a volunteer job, I haven’t decided yet. I am either going to do it on grief or on self harm. Both topics can and are difficult to discuss and deal with. That is why I am thinking if I should offer to co-facilitate another group with someone and see how that goes.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Here Is To A Good Monday

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Good Morning, World!!! It is yet another Monday. Monday’s are days that many folks around the world dread because it is the start of the work week. I for one dread it for other reasons. Reason’s I would really not discuss at the moment.

Today, I don’t have much to dread at I have a job interview at my previous employer. I am looking forward to it. I am looking forward to it for a multitude of reasons. Reasons that I can not share due to HIPPA laws. One reason I can share is that I am looking forward to looking forward to seeing some former colleagues. Colleagues that I have become friends with.

After my job interview, I plan on going to Art Group. Art group helps me express myself when words tend to fail me. In fact my therapist is going to try to make it to art group to be a co-facilitator of the group. I personally think he would be good at it.

Here is to a good Monday everyone!!! Peace Out, World!!!

A Whirl Wind Of Things Going On

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Good Evening, World!!! The last few days have been a whirl wind. A whirl wind of things to do that has been overwhelming and mostly in a good way. Let’s start with the training I did this weekend. I attended a facilitator training to become a volunteer group facilitator at a local peer run origination. I figure this will help me career wise especially since I am applying for new jobs. Volunteering always looks good on the resume’.

I have a job interview at my previous employer. It is a Peer job at with one of their Substance Use Disorders (SUD) programs. It is a full time job and not sure if working full time is a wise decision for me to do. But I need the practice for the interview. If I get the job I can find out more it and turn it down if it is not the job for me.

I also have art group tomorrow that I am debating weather or not if I am going to go. I am debating as I would still be in my interview clothes and don’t want to ruin them.  It is something to thing about right now.  We will see what I’ll do and how I feel after my interview.

Thank you so much for reading my blog. It is much appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

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Sunday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Group facilitator training

Monday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Job interview
  • Art group
  • Workbooks

Tuesday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Hear voices group
  • Workbooks

Wednesday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Workbooks
  • Relax

Thursday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Therapy
  • Vocational Service’s Appointment
  • Workbooks

Friday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • DBT Group
  • Workbooks

Saturday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Workbooks
  • Volunteer

 

It’s Been An Overall Good Day

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Good Evening, World!!! Today, overall has been a good day despite not getting any sleep. I even attempted to take a nap when I got home from day treatment and seeing my therapist.

As I stated I saw my therapist today. We discussed my suicide attempt on Wednesday and talked about it in detail. We discussed how having a cat helped me make the decision to live and carry on with my life. We talked about the three groups I plan on attending especially the DBT group I start back up tomorrow. We both agree that DBT group will be extremely important for me to attend. I showed him my scrap book and he appeared surprised that I was will to share something “so personal” with him. We talked about how arts and crafts have been helpful to me. In fact he wants me to continue to attend art group as he “feels like it helps” me express my emotions. He is going to sit in on Art group on Monday.

I see my doctor tomorrow and my doctor called me today to check in on me. We talked a little about my suicide attempt. She just wanted to make sure I was doing better and to make sure I’ll be going to see her tomorrow. I confirmed that I would be there tomorrow. We will be discussing the suicide attempt even though it was more than a week ago.

I am grateful that I am not suicidal and that I have a good support system that checks in with me. My therapist, doctor, and psychiatric nurse practitioner all agree that I am doing okay at the moment. They are talking with each other and agree that me being out of the hospital for psych reasons is a good thing.

Thank you so much for reading. It is greatly appreciated. Have a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!!

Evening Ramblings

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Good Evening, World. Right now I am just fighting through some anxiety. Anxiety that is being reduced my Lil Gertie. I’m going to be seeing my therapist tomorrow and we will be discussing my anxiety and how my cat has been helping reduce the symptoms of it.

As you may know if you read my blog regularly I am using advertisements to earn some extra money. They will not pay you till you hit at least one hundred dollars. All I made for the month of April is nine dollars and seventy four cents. Well, at least it is a start. A start in the right direction.

Today, I adulted. I paid most of my June bill already. The only thing I have to pay is my credit card bill and I can do that tomorrow. Being responsible with paying on bills is always a good thing. I also but kitty litter and food for Lil Gertie. I also got her a bed to sleep in. It will go on the end of my bed at night and next to my chair during the day.

I have been doing a lot of scrap booking today. I painted a picture in my scrap book just for the hell of it. It is my scrap book to help me remember the events of my life so why not remember painting.

I think I am going to go now. Have a great day. Peace Out World!!!

Afternoon Ramblings

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Good Afternoon, World!!! I have been sleeping most of the day. I didn’t sleep very well last night so I took a nap. A much needed nap. A nap where Lil Gertie cuddled up to me. She is still napping.

I did buy Lil Gertie a kitty bed, kitty litter and some wet food. She is sleeping in her be only because I put it in her favorite place. She appears to like the bed. I don’t hear her complaining about it.

I am not sure what I might do after blogging the post. I think I might work on my scrap book as I have been enjoying doing it. I am looking forward to showing it to people including my therapist. My grandpa is eager to see the scrap book after he gets done with his trip. I even painted a picture in my scrap book.

I don’t have much more to say so I guess, I will end the post. Thanks so much for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Fun Doesn’t = Anxiety

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Good Afternoon, World!!! I am sitting here blogging as I watch The Ellen Show on television. Lil Gertie is sitting by my side purring. I have been having anxiety all day and Lil Gertie has been helping. Watching Ellen is proven to be helpful as well. It has proven to be helpful due to the fact she is funny as hell. I would love to be in the audience of the Ellen Show but fear being on television.

I have been working on my scrapbook a great deal today. It is starting to come along. I am looking forward to showing it to people including my therapist. Since my therapist is new to me, showing him a scrap book of what is important to me might help him get to know me a little bit more. Scrap booking is like painting for me. It is a way to express my emotions.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Sleepless in Seattle, Ramblings

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Good Morning, World!!! I am unable to sleep at the moment and it has nothing to do with my cat and every thing to deal with the symptoms of my mental health challenges. Dealing with a mental health condition is not my idea of fun yet I have learned a great deal from them. I have learned that acceptance of oneself is not easy however you can still have fun despite all the challenges the conditions bring.

For an example; painting can be fun. I love to paint. I am painting an abstract version of my cat for my grandpa per his request. My grandpa loves the idea that I am painting. He thinks it is a great way to express myself in a healthy and productive way.

Something else that being in recovery brings to me is faith. Or at least searching for a particular faith. Right now I have been reading books on Buddhism. It has given me some hope and peace that I have been looking for. Some people in my life may not like the idea that I am looking into Buddhism but they are grateful that I am searching for some type of faith even if it is not their faith.

I have been working on my strengths based recovery workbook. That part that I am working on is about attitudes. That attitudes that it is discussing at the moment is hope and courage. I am thrilled that I decided to get this workbook as I have been finding it quite helpful to me as well as to my recovery.

I find it amazing that being able to write in the middle of the night can come easy to me. Maybe it is because I am naturally a night owl or that I am more creative at night. Whatever the reason, I am glad that I can express myself in a healthy way. A way that my old therapist, Diana, would be proud of me.

Thank you for reading. Have a great morning and Peace Out, World!!!