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Saturday Night Ramblings

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I am sitting here wishing I could be in a different head space that I have been in for the last year and a half. All I want in this world is to be back to doing well. I can’t help but think something better is coming my way. I just want some type of breakthrough with whatever the fuck is going on with the continued symptoms that appear to not be subsiding. I just cant lose hope. Hope is the essential to a persons recovery.

As part of my recovery I need to create some structure to help me and this is something that I feel like my treatment team is failing at but I share the responsibility as I am the one the is responsible for my daily life not my treatment team. I’ve learned that personal responsibility in my recovery is something that no matter how a person is doing symptom wise people respect you. I just need to take personal responsibility in make sure things don’t get worse.

One way I do that is doing Dialectical Behavioral Therapy (DBT) skills. Skills that have been quite helpful for me over the years. If I do my DBT homework I know that I will be able to do my skills.

I think after doing DBT homework, I’ll do some art. Specifically, painting and collaging. Art helps me express my emotions in a way I am unable to do so in other ways.

Thank you for reading. Have a wonderful night. Peace Out, world!!!

It’s My Birthday & I Can Do What I Want

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! It is my birthday and Junior surprised me with some things. He first surprised me with breakfast in bed. He then gave me some presents that I will enjoy. I got some art supplies which I am eager to start using. I also go a dozen or so Wonder Woman comic books. I also got six books to read as well.

So more or less with the art supplies, books and comics books, I am going to be busy for a while. A type of busy I don’t mind doing. I’m looking forward to do some are as well as reading. I am looking forward to engaging with these fun activities.

Thank you for reading. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Happy Birthday, Gertie

Posted on by jjuniorz

First and fore most I want to wish the love of my life, Gertie, a very Happy Birthday. Gertie deserves the best birthday ever. I am starting off their birthday with doing my guest post all about Gertie and how I am going to celebrate them today. I’m posting this at four in the morning so when Gertie gets up with breakfast in bed that they will already have birthday wishes from you, the reader Gertie works so hard for. Breakfast in bed and birthday wishes from you, the reader is only the first two presents I will be giving to.

The other gifts Gertie will be opening first thing this morning is art supplies for their art work. Books and comic books for them to read. This way Gertie will have a way to express their emotions through art as well as get out of their on head by reading books.

Of course Gertie planned something for themselves as part of a recovery present to themselves which is to go and have a therapy appointment with Gilbert. Gertie thinks therapy is a great way to celebrate a birthday since they are not able to work at the moment.

When Gertie gets back from their appointment I’ll take them to their favorite restaurant of Red Robin. Gertie loves Red Robin. I already know what Gertie is going to get and that is what makes going to Red Robin so easy.

Thank you for reading. Please, from the bottom of my heart, to know forget to wish Gertie a Happy Birthday. I love Gerties so much. I want to make Gertie’s birthday as special as I am able to do so.

Just Too Much Adulting

Posted on by Gertie

Good Afternoon, World!!! I know it is only two in the afternoon in my corner of the world but I have had just too much adulting for the day. Yes, while doing chores I listened to music which helped a great deal. It is just the other parts of adulting that were getting to me.

For example, while listening to music and cleaning my apartment two of my neighbors were screaming at each other in the hallway. Screaming that led into a physical altercation between the two of them which led to the police being called.

Now that I am done adulting for the moment, I am going to take a break from reality. Taking a break from reality by doing some things I enjoy doing. One thing to escape reality that I will be doing is art. It will help me express the emotions of the day and life in general.

Another way I am I escape reality it by reading. Reading a book or two that is fiction. Actually, I will be reading a fantasy book. Reading a fantasy book is definitely an escape on reality.

Thank you so much for reading about my life. Peace Out, World!!!

Monday Evening Ramblings

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! I am wanting to blog right now but having some issues at the moment. Part of it is genuine writers block while the other part is due to mental health symptoms. Symptoms that are quite bothersome and annoying as hell.

I did see Gilbert today. We discussed the recent trauma I experienced. We also discussed the art work I did in Art Group today. He really likes the fact that art helps me open up about stuff that I need to discuss to help me with my recovery.

For me finding way to help me with my recovery is quite important to me. That’s why I am grateful that Gilbert is invested in my recovery. I think he is more so at the moment than I am but that is okay with me for now.

Thanks for reading. It’s much appreciated from my end. Peace Out, World!!!

Finding the Hope in the Little Things

Posted on by Gertie

Good Afternoon, World!!! The last year and a half has been quite the struggle for me yet every time I feel like I am making some ground something trips me up. Sort of like tripping over the other shoe dropping.

Yet when I am tripping over the other shoe dropping, I tend to find the hope in the little things. Little things like reading a book or listening to my favorite music or even creating art. Yes, all the above mentioned give me hope yet something else gave me the hope I needed for this moment in time

That hope came from the two workbooks I am doing. One is about resiliency regarding my sexual orientation of being a pansexual and gender identity of being a non-binary, gender fluid individual. The other workbook is on mindfulness. So the workbooks I am doing on resiliency on who I am with my gender identity and sexual orientation as well as being mindful of being in the moment is what is giving me hope. Hope of who I am as an individual despite tripping over the other shoe dropping.

Thank you for reading. It is much appreciated from my end. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Posted on by Gertie

Sunday:

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Art
  • Workbook
  • Pretty much be lazy

Monday

  • Blog
  • Knitting Group
  • Art Group
  • Therapy
  • Workbook

Tuesday

  • Blog
  • Clean apartment
  • Chores
  • Pretty much adulting all day

Wednesday

  • Blog
  • Therapy
  • Art
  • Read
  • Celebrate birthday
  • Pretty much be lazy due to being my birthday

Thursday

  • Blog
  • Art
  • Read
  • Workbook

Friday

  • Blog
  • DBT Group
  • Therapy
  • Workbook
  • Art
  • Read
  • DBT homework

Saturday

  • Blog
  • Celebrate birthday with family (a few days late)
  • Workbook
  • Art
  • Read
  • DBT homework

 

No Matter How Difficult; Honesty Is Best

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! It has been a long and difficult day for me. I started out the day with seeing my case manager. We had some not so good moments that we ended up working out which is huge progress on my end.

I then went to Dialectical Behavioral Therapy (DBT) Group. Group grew from four individuals to ten people. Lets see how many stick around this time. We of course have homework and I am okay with that. The homework will be quite helpful for me as it will give me the structure I so desperately need.

After group I saw Gilbert. It was a tough session however it was toward the end of the session that was the most difficult. I was honest with him about something I hadn’t been honest with anybody else about. Something that desperately needed to be told and I might share at a later date when I process it more with Gilbert.

Thank you so much for reading. It is much appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Anxiety Sucks Sh*t

Posted on by Gertie

I am struggling at the moment with anxiety. Anxiety that appears to be fluctuating quite quickly.  So quickly that I end up freezing. Freezing up so bad that I need to do something to get out of frozen mode.

For me I color. It has proven to be quite helpful for me. Coloring helps me a great deal express my emotions.

I also enjoy reading as it helps me get out of my head. It gets me out of my head enough to refocus my attention on to something else.

Thank you for reading. It’s much appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Two In The Morning Ramblings

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! It is two o’clock in the morning in my corner of the world. I am of course having trouble sleeping once again. Sleep hasn’t come easy to me recently and as frustrating as it is, I am glad to have the skills I need to help me through sleepless nights.

One of the many skills I used tonight is art. I painted some. I also did some collaging. I actually collaged on some of my paintings and I personally think it looks really cool. But then again beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

Another skill I have been doing on sleepless nights like tonight is reading. I am still reading Ship of Magic. Yes, I realize it is taking me a while to read it but I’m enjoying it. Enjoying it is all that matters

I have also worked on my workbooks. Specifically, The Mindfulness Workbook as it gives me ideas to calm my mind to help me sleep or at least get some rest. Doing any of the workbooks is helpful to me and my recovery.

Thank you for reading. Goodnight. Peace Out, World!!!