A Couple of Weeks Full of Much Needed but Unwanted Things to Do

I haven’t had the easiest starts to this week do to a traumatic weekend which led to two weeks of unwanted doctors appointments for myself. That doesn’t include Billie’s follow up dental procedure where one area is in the “grey area” of being infected but unsure unless they do test. They left it up to be to not do the test w/out antibiotics and come back in a week. Or do the test to see if antibiotics were needed or not do the test and do the antibiotics. I chose no test with the antibiotics. Its cheap and precautionary.

On top of that I’ve been having my own health issues, I will not exactly get into except medicare is so under staff right now; just thinking about it makes me want to cry. You would think some place like Seattle would have plenty of doctors but no.

Anyway on to better news I am having job interviews once again as the job I up getting after being laid off did not work out to well. I just hope I get a job that best works for me and the needs of my cat Billie as well as myself.

Overall Billie and I are doing fine and I don’t have much more to discuss in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It greatly appreciative from my perspective that you do read my blog. If it was not for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

Things Not Exactly Going My Way but I’m Okay With It

Let’s just start with the new job. I wasn’t exactly fired but I didn’t exactly quit. We (my supervisor and I) agreed the job wasn’t a good fit for me and I agree. Plus the commute sucked shit. Plus I missed spending time with my kitty cat, Billie Dean.

I spent a lot of time away from him at the new job I no longer have. I love my Billie and I know he loves me. He is a very sweet cat and I am sure he is grateful that the Seattle weather has cooled down a lot. Billie had expensive dental work done and will go back for a follow up with the vet a a couple of weeks.

I plan on going to the social security office next week to see if I can get back on it. As much as I wish I was working, maybe I need a break to take care of my disability.

On top of other issues I am having land phone line and internet issues which suck shit. I know a lot of small crap is going on and I am doing okay with it.

I don’t have much to say expect thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. I hope you all have a great weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

Just Some Ramblings About Life

Anxiety Increasing as Tomorrow Gets Closer

Hello, World!!! My anxiety is increasing as tomorrow gets closer. Even though I’ve had my first week of work it was mostly done remotely or in person with the HR and IT departments which is at different location that I will be working at. See tomorrow in my first day at my job site and I am nervous as fucking hell. I know it is okay to be nervous but not just anxious about my first day at my job site.

I am nervous about having to take public transportation again. The last two years I’ve been either working from home or taking Lyft to and from work due to Covid-19 as I was trying to limit the amount of exposure I could get. I’m not so worried about the exposure as much due to having the vaccine, the booster and actually being diagnosed with Covid-19 the day after I got the booster. Covid suck shit and I know there is a possibility of getting it again but that is not why I’m worried about using public transportation. I’m nervous because, I’ll be taking a route I’ve never taken before. I’m nervous because even on routes, I am familiar with, there are times I have to get off due anxiety and/or PTSD issues and would have to wait for the next bus so I could be in a better head space to be back on the bus. I know everything will be fine but I’m still anxious about it. I just to get use to public transportation again as well as a new route to me.

When I get home from work tomorrow I am sure my cat Billie dean will be more than happy that I am home. Hell, Billie is always happy when I get home even if it is for five minutes for checking my mail or taking out the garbage. I’m more than certain that I will be just as happy to be home as my cat will be.

I do not have much else to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, once again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Everyday Inspiration; Day 12: Critique a Piece of Work

I don’t have anything to critique at the moment. This will be a very short post. I will say that my critique would be my new job and the great way they are doing training. My new employer is doing an awesome job with training and is willing to be accommodable to those of us living with a disability. So far I give the training an A.

I Think I Might Like the Job but Could it Be the Job that is Best for Me

Hello, World!!! After three days of training at my new job has worn me the fuck out with all the training the last three days. I am thinking I’m going to like the new job but worry it could not be best for me. I really hope it is a good fit for me. I just don’t like the commute on public transportation part of work. I think that which ever direction this new job is to me is what I need to do at the moment. I have the day off but will still be looking work stuff all newbies need to look at.

On that note I plan on doing a math workbook to help me better at math and understand math terms better. It will give me an education in math that I’ve need since leaving California and getting a shitty education in the Bellevue School District.

On another note I will be doing two workbooks tomorrow. One on mindfulness and the other on recovery. Recovery with mental health workbooks. This is to help me become a better me to help other be their better selves.

I don’t have anything else to say. I just want to say thanks for reading my blog.

Everyday Inspiration; Day 3; One-Word Inspiration

Choice

I chose the word choice because we all have choices to make. Some are good and some are not so good. For example I had and interview for a job and told them yes when they offered me the job the next dey. I really ant this job; its the commute I am not not a big fan of. Even I have taken the job and haven’t started yet, I am still applying for other jobs that are closer to home and pay more.

Worse care scenario I make a decision of taking a job closer to home and pays more money. The think about this job that I took was be cause the HR lad who works there work at the job I was laid of from. In fact I admire her.

In all honesty I don’t ant to make the choice of making a job change especially if I haven’t started yet or just start the job. It is a choice I will have to decide on if it comes up.

Good News About New Job

Good Evening, World!!! I found out that I start my new job on June 11th. I am happy that will be working with those who have lived experience with mental health challenges and mental illness. The best part of the job is I get to work with people in crisis as well as well as doing groups and individual individually talking with other people such as professionals, friends and friends.

In fact I am looking forward to the new job. I may not like the public frans;artion. Public transportation from the U-District to Everette is long route.

Weekly Check-In

Good Evening, World. It is Saturday which mean its weekly check-in time even though I haven’t done one in a few weeks. I have had many up and downs this week. If you have been reading my blog regularly I got laid off and my last day was Friday, June 3rd, 2022. Which put be in a depression that sent me into the Emergency Room for psych reasons. Thankfully I was not hospitalized.

Monday of this week I had an interview for a peer specialist job. If I wouldn’t have been discharged from the Emergency Room for psych reasons I wouldn’t have received the call on Wednesday to accept the job I had interviewed for on Monday. My orientation is on Monday, June 20th and my first day of training is on Monday, June 27th.

Sadly, I found out on Thursday, June 9th that my mom has lung cancer and test are still being done. They don’t know if how severe it is as her memory is sadly going down hill. The doctors need to do a MRI to see if there are any unusual spots on her brain and if so is it able to do an operation on the possible brain tumor which would have spread due to the Lung cancer. They will able deal with the lung cancer and take out the spot so that’s a good thing. If it turns out there is no spot on her brain when get gets the MRI, it could mean she could have dementia or Alzheimer’s. As much as I don’t want my mom to have Alzheimer’s. or dementia, I would rather haver her have that than a brain tumor due to her lung cancer.

Going on to a better subject, Seattle had a beautiful day. I was able enjoy the Sunny is Seattle day with my cat Billie Dean. Billie was actually brave enough to be outside on his harness and leash for ten minutes. He spent thirty minutes walking around inside my apartment building. We both got are steps in today.

I do not have much more to say in this particular post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated that you read my blog from my perspective. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog.. Peace Out, World!!!

A Rollercoaster of the Last Few Days

Good Evening, World. Today has been a rollercoaster of a day. Lets start with the good news. I had an interview on Monday an was offered the job yesterday (Wednesday) that I got the job. I am looking forward to the new job that I start June 27th of this month. I have mixed feelings with this job but at least I’ll have employment starting the end of the month.

On that note my mom’s health hast been the best and have forgetting things a lot and usually remembers everything. My mom’s breathing has been getting worse so long story short the found a spot on her lung. It’s been made official she has lung cancer but need more test to be done see what stage it is in. The doctors need to do more test including removing the spot on her lung. She will be having more test including an MRI for her head due to her forgetfulness which is unlike my mom. If they find something in her brain that it is not suppose to be there not only will she have surgery on the removing the spot if find one if it safe enough to do it as the brain is very fragile. I will keep you updated about my mom when test results come in.

I’m just glad that I have the support of my friends, family and of course my cat Billie. Today has been a tough day and Billie has be helpful.

Than you for reading my blog. I hope you can give out positive energy and vibes for my mom. I love her so much. Again thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!