Still Can’t F*cking Sleep

Good Morning from Seattle!!! I still have not be to sleep and it is fucking pissing me off. And I really don’t care if this post isn’t G rated. Part of me is wondering if I am unable to sleep because of depression but I am not having my typical signs of depression but it’s something to think about.

On the plus side of things, my family, friends and colleagues are worried about me. In fact they all have been checking in on me which makes me feel love and appreciated. I have some pretty awesome people in my life including my colleagues. My colleagues really seem to care about each other. Of course I know my friends and family love me and care about me.

And of course my precious kitty cat, Billie Dean loves me so very much. He has been following me around all day as well as cuddling with me. He is my baby and I don’t care what others think as Billie in part of my family. I am so glad that he picked me in the shelter. Being picked by any animal is a precious thing especially when it’s a cat or bird.

I best be going now as I am starting fall asleep as I write this blog. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Thank you again from the bottom for my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Not Going to Work Today

Good Morning, World!!! As if this day couldn’t get worse. Well it could get worse but I have faith it won’t. Despite not getting much sleep last due to an idiot neighbor pulling the fire alarm due to other neighbors not wearing mask which is annoying in itself. I found out my dad was in the Emergency Room all night. He will be admitted to the hospital. It looks like I won’t be going to work like I had hoped to do. I did let two supervisors know as well as HR know that I would be going into work but I will have to now tell them I won’t be going into work. I really want to work but due to the lack of sleep due to a neighbor and my dad being in the hospital, I wouldn’t be at my best to help my clients. I really want to be at my best for my clients at work as they deserve to have me at my best.

On that note, Billie Dean, my cat is cuddling me right now. I think he senses that something is wrong and is comforting me. I just love my cat, Billie so much. He know exactly when I need some extra loving care and comfort.

As far as my dad goes, I hope he is just in the hospital for a couple of days. On a positive note he does not have Covid-19. He had a couple of grand mal seizures so they are just keeping him for observation and to make sure his meds are at an appropriated level. I love dad and am grateful that he raised me as a single dad back in the 80’s and 90’s with the help of my grandparents.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to say thank for reading my blog post. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you all have a great Wednesday ahead of you. I know I will try to have a good Wednesday. Just remember I appreciate all of you and think you are all awesome people. Peace Out, World!!!

Unable to Sleep so I Might as Well as Read

Good Very Early Morning, World!!! It just a few minutes after two o’clock in the morning in my corner of the world known as Seattle. I really wish could sleep but something I have learned in my recovery is go with the flow even though it is not easy to do at times.

Right now it seems like it is one of those times that it’s easy to go with the flow even when it wasn’t the flow you thought would happen. On of my new year’s goals was to be reading more. Long story short my great aunt who is my grandpa’s sister lent my grandpa to read a book. My grandpa hasn’t read it yet but let me borrower it to read. It appears to be an easy reading and not a very long book which is good thing. So it is my goal to read this book within two week starting after I end this particular blog post. The book is set in the holiday season focusing on Christmas. I am more into Science Fiction and Fantasy genre books but it never hurt to try something knew when it comes to reading or anything else. At least Billie Dean my cat will be cuddling up with me as I read this book. I hope to give a review of this book when I am done with it.

I do not have much more to say about this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog because if it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you have a better night sleep than I am having. Peace Out, World!!!

An Extremely Lazy Sunday

Good Evening, World!!! It is ten o’clock at night in my neck of the woods known as Seattle. I literally have done nothing all day be eat, sleep and read Wonder Woman comic books. I mostly slept all day. I wish I didn’t sleep all day because it screws up with my sleep hygiene; sleep schedule.

I’m starting to get worried about my sleep schedule because I am wondering it is mainly due to getting over Covid-19 or if depression symptoms are starting to creep back in. No matter the reason, I just want to be back on my normal sleep schedule. If it is because of depression, I will need to let both my physical and mental health teams be aware of it. As far as the Covid-19 shit messing with the sleep, I know it’s normal for some people to feel extremely fatigue that it makes them sleep more than they usually do.

As far as when I have been awake today, I’ve been in bed cuddling with my very sweet kitty, Billie Dean. In fact I joke around with people that I sleep with a man every night name Billie. Not my fault people don’t pick up on the joke especially when they know I have a male cat. Billie is such a cuddle but and a pain in the butt at times.

While being in bed most of the day cuddling with my precious cat, Billie, I have been reading comics. Specifically comic books. To be more specific, I have been reading Wonder Woman comic books. In fact the back story of me becoming a Wonder Woman fan was because of my dad who was a single dad. Long story short my mom abandoned both my dad and myself in the middle of the night when my dad was working a night shift leaving me home by myself at the age of three. I know my mom left a note but since I couldn’t l read it I called my grandparent phone number which I was required to memorize. Anyway, my mom left both me and my dad because she couldn’t handle dealing with a man with a TBI working on sobriety and a daughter dealing with hearing impairments and speech delays. Even though I had my paternal grandmother as a female role model, my dad with his intellectual disabilities and TBI know he was not able to read due to is disabilities he wanted to make sure I had a role model to look up to even if it was/is a fictional one. So at the age of them three my dad started buying me Wonder Woman comic books. As I grew older and learned how to read, I would read two to three Wonder Woman comic books to my dad as part of our bedtime routine. I may still be sad my dad was not able to read bedtime stories to me but am grateful that we looked and Wonder Woman comic books as apart of our bedtime routine which turned into me reading them to my dad once I was able to read. Yes, my grandparents did help with me learning to read but watching my dad full of pride with me reading is something I will never forgot.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post except the my dad making sure I learned to read despite him not being able to read makes my heart happy and grateful. I would like to thank you for reading my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reading reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader do read my blog. Again, from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

Good Evening, World!!! This week has one hell of a week. Not exactly a bad type hell of week but more like a frustrating type hell of a week. First things first, I had to take this past Monday off due to still having covid-19 and feeling like fucking shit. I still feel like crap but at least I am feeling better enough to work. Thankfully, I have the luxury of being able to work from home because I would not be feeling well enough to be working in the office. Covid-19 is no fucking joke. I was informed my the Emergency Room doctors as well as my own doctor that if I hadn’t had the vaccine and the booster shot for Covid-19 I most likely would have end up in the hospital due to the fact I have underlining health issues.

On that note, despite not feeling very well, I still worked most of the week from home. I worked from Tuesday through yesterday, Friday. In fact I initially wasn’t going to work yesterday, Friday, because it would have been my grandma’s 92nd birthday but realized taking off the day she passed away on would be a better day to take off. My supervisor, therapist, doctor, friends and family all agreed. Even though work went well this past week, I did manage to celebrate my grandma’s birthday by having a slice of banana cream pie as it was would she would have wanted for her birthday. I also sang happy birthday to a picture of my grandma.

Despite working from home while to completely feeling well, my friends and family have been checking on me to see how I have been doing especially health wise. There nothing like having Covid-19 to worry everyone for several reasons. One of which everyone want to make sure I am isolating so I don’t infect others which is a no brainer and something I am doing. Secondly, they are all worried that the Covid-19 can get worse for me due to having other health issues. I am so blessed to have friends and family that love me. Talk to you all later as now it’s time to spend more time cuddling my cat, Billie Dean. It appears that Billie want me to stop typing and give him attention.

Not Exactly How I Planned to Start my Weekend

Good Saturday Afternoon, World!!! I did not get much sleep last night due to insomnia. When I did finally get to sleep a neighbor pulled the fire alarm on several occasions due to the fact other neighbors weren’t wearing their mask. I understand being frustrated others not wearing mask because we are in a middle of pandemic with Covid-19. That doesn’t me you pull a fire alarm because someone is not wearing a mask. Needless to say, I am extremely frustrated that this is still continuing and the police and apartment management company are doing shit. The fire department is fining the individual pulling the alarm as well the apartment management. So, at least the fire department is doing something about it.

On that note, my grandpa and uncle came over to drop some things off for me. They brought me some cough medicine as well cough drops because I am still dealing with the annoying and painful cough that is still lingering from having Covid-19. They even made me one of my favorite food and brought it me which is Cheese Tortellini. It was yummy and have some left over for dinner tonight. Oh how I love that my grandpa made me my favorite dish and that my uncle drove him to give it to me. And much to my surprise my uncle paid me back the money he owed be and gave me an extra $20 “for interest” because it took him so long to pay me back.

Now I am going to cuddle with my cat, Billie Dean, on my lap and watch a couple of movies. I’m not sure what movies I am going to watch but I know for a fact that Billie won’t mind spending a few hours on my lap as I do nothing but watch a movie or two.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you all have an absolutely great weekend ahead of you and that it is a fun and relaxing one. Peace Out, World!!!

Just Rant about Covid

Hello, World!!! I am still Covid-19 positive and is sucks shit. I feel like crap but at least I am able to work from home. Even though I feel like shit, I am grateful that I feel well enough to be able to work and work from home. I would rather work from the office but at least I have the luxury to work from home due to having Covid.

Even though, working from home can suck at times, I am glad to be home with my cat, Billie Dean. Spending time at home is nice and all but I am going stir crazy. Going stir crazy because I have stay isolating due to having Covid.

I sadly cant volunteer at the moment due to Covid and miss it greatly. On the plus side they are being supportive. They having been checking on me which is feels good. Not only that my employer has been supportive as well.

I am just grateful to be feeling better and that I am able to work from home. I love the extra time with my cat, Billie. I am grateful that I have a cat that loves me.

I don’t have much more to say. Thank your for reading my blog. I hope you have a great week. Peace Out, World!!!

Lack of Human Interaction Sucks Shit

First and fore most, having Covid-19 sucks shit even when you are able to be home dealing with it which I am grateful for. The lack of sleep I got suck shit but at lease I am home dealing with it. The isolation is what sucks the most. I can’t visit friends, neighbors or family which makes it quite lonely. On the plus note I least get to talk with my friends and family on the phone. My neighbors has been quite helpful with getting me what I need and leaving it at my door so there is no interaction there. being lonely sucks but I at least I know people care about me. Even my work and volunteer jobs are checking in on me which makes me as lonely as I am at times. At least I know people care about me.

I desperately miss volunteering at Cat City and know that I will be back in February as a precaution to fellow volunteers, employers and the adopters, adopting cats. I just want to make sure nobody gets Covid from me. They same thing goes for my work situation at work. I don’t want to give Covid to my colleagues or my clients.

As far as my friends and family, I don’t want them having Covid either which is why I am not going to have any plans with them for at least month if not two months. Yes, all that isolation will make me lonely but at least I have blogging as well as social networking like Facebook.

I am thinking why I am feeling like this is due to the lack of sleep from last night and me being a cranky bucket. I hate being cranky buck it.

I do have to say that I will have some human interaction when I go back to work tomorrow. I just need to go back to work so I can feel productive. I may not be back to a hundred percent but I am feeling well enough to work from home. My employer is very cool about taking care of one self.

As far as my cat goes, I am grateful for him. He has been loving on me and not making me feel so lonely. I love my Billie Boy. He is an amazing kitty and I love him so much.

I am getting really tired due to the lack of sleep last night. So I think I will now take a nap now. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Thank you again from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Happy Belated New Year’s and Peace Out World!!!

Grateful to be Home

Good Morning, World!!! I am back home in Seattle. I got back home from Olympia yesterday. I am so glad to be home. Billie is back home with me as of yesterday evening. My apartment was colder than it was outside when I arrived home. When I got home it was 22degrees Fahrenheit outside and inside my apartment it was 19degrees Fahrenheit. The weather in the Seattle area sucks shite right now. Snow and ice are no fun.

I had a great Christmas with both sides of my family. I just wish I could of seen my brother when I was down in Olympia visiting my mom’s side of the family. My brother is in Oregon visiting his dad for the holidays. Best part of the holidays was that there was barely any family drama.

I’m so happy to be on vacation as I was able to get my Covid-19 vaccine booster shot today. The only responsibility I have till Sunday morning is taking care of Billie. I am so happy can just lay back and do nothing. Not sure what I am going to do the rest of my vacay as I want to see how my body responds to the Covid-19 booster shot.

I do not have much more to talk about in this particular blog post. I just want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it weren’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Happy New Years and Peace Out, World!!!

Intro to Poetry; Day 4: Journey

Untitled Poem

by Gertie

Life is meant to be a journey;

a journey that is meant to be full of

love and support.

Love and support many people

sadly don’t have.

Some don’t have the

love and support

due to mental health and/or addiction.

That’s where peers come

in;

to give hope

as well as love and support.

Peer Support is key to

ones journey to

recovery.