Tag Archives: Love

Snowy Sunday in Seattle

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! As I stated in an earlier post, its snowing in Seattle. It’s not snowing now but there is snow on the ground. It made this morning that much more special with Junior. Junior worked for 48hours straight as he is firefighter and snow just helped with the romantic part of the morning.

When he got off from work he came over to my place with breakfast ready to eat. I made us French toast, scrambled eggs and chocolate milk. After breakfast we cuddled up to watch a movie. A movie that we didn’t watch as we ended up making love. We had some serious and enjoyable sex for roughly two hours. Something we both needed. That contact was helpful for the both of us.

Something the Junior and I are doing later on today is spending time with my family. This is going to be the first time my family has spent time with each after my grandma’s death. We are going to go out to eat however I am not sure where yet.

I think I am going to get going as I want to spend more time with Junior. I’m really needing some cuddle time with him. He is an amazing man. Thank you for reading. It’s appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Tough Valentines Day

Posted on by Gertie

Today, has not been the easiest of days for me to say the least. My grandma passed away earlier today. As many of you know she has been in home hospice care for a week and as of today she is no longer suffering.

I had posted on social media about my grandma’s death and well I ended up getting bullied. Bullied because I didn’t acknowledge the shooting that happened in Florida today. I was completely unaware of it as I was at Social Security most of the morning and then my therapist office the rest of the day till I got the news about my grandma.

Thankfully, I have some good friends who stuck up for me and support me when the bullying was happening. Some of these friends live near me and came over with some food to check up on me. They brought me my favorite burger from Red Robin with a butt load of fries and campfire sauce. No matter tough a day a person has, friends and food always help.

Thank you for reading. I know I will get through this with the help of many other including the blogging community. Thanks!!! Peace Out, World!!!

Ugh, I Just Want to Sleep

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I am still wide awake. I’m not sure exactly why I am not able to sleep but it’s starting to get a little annoying. Yes, maybe it’s because I have “treatment resistant insomnia” but I think something is bothering me. I’m not sure what but something is.

Yes, I realize it could be my grandma and dealing with her being at deaths door because she is in hospice care. Dealing with my grandma being in hospice is not easy yet I honestly don’t think it’s the reason I am unable to sleep.

I just wish I knew why I couldn’t sleep because if I did then maybe I could sleep. It’s something that I need to be able to work on my recovery. Hell, it not only helps with my recovery be it helps with staying physically healthy.

Thank you for reading. It’s appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Grief Before Death

Posted on by Gertie

I’m not sure what to call it as it’s not quite depression yet I feel like its too soon to call it grief as my grandma is still alive. I’m feeling sad about my grandma as she doesn’t have much longer to live. I don’t want her to die yet I don’t want her to suffer anymore.

To help me through this I have been using my support system a great deal. They have been there for me. I, have realized though this difficult and challenge time is that some folks I thought would be there for me are not but others have stepped up to the plate while other have gone above and beyond the call of duty.

Junior of course being one of those folks going above and beyond the call of duty. He has been making sure I’ve been taking care of my basic needs. When he is at work he has made sure someone checks in on me.

Having friends to help me through this challenging time has been a blessing to me. I am grateful for those individuals. Without friends, life would be that much more difficult for me.

Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!

At Grandma’s House

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! It’s Sunday afternoon and things aren’t going so well for my grandma. She is having trouble staying awake and talking when she is awake. She still has her sense of humor and laughs at my purple hair. Hell, she doesn’t like my purple hair but thats okay, she’s eighty-eight years old.

Seeing my grandma like this is difficult yet rewarding. Being able to help my family especially my grandparents is rewarding for me because they helped my dad raise me. My grandma was like a mother to me or attempted to be a mother when she wasn’t being a grandma to me.

As difficult as it is right now for me I am doing good self care like blogging and other stuff. I need t get going and help my grandpa out with my grandma. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

A Quiet Thursday

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! Today, has been a quiet day. Junior and I visited my grandma at home as she is in home hospice care at the moment. It was difficult yet rewarding. I love my grandma very much.

After spending time with my grandma Junior and I came back home to have a quiet day. We spent the day watching movies. We also had some intimate moments that we both enjoyed immensely.

If it weren’t for my recovery, I don’t think I would be able to have romantic relationship much less have an intimate moment or two. For me having a relationship with Junior is proof that recovery is well worth it.

Junior and I are now watching the Winter Olympics. Specifically, ice skating. I’m not a big fan of ice skating but it’s one difficult sport. I do appreciate the sport of ice skating.

I better get going to continue to watching the Olympics with Junior. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Photo 1; Day 7: Big

Posted on by Gertie

Good Afternoon, World!!! Today’s topic is “BIG” and the first thing I thought of was Junior’s penis. I quickly realized it wouldn’t be appropriate for me to take a picture of it and then post it on my blog. I don’t know the ages of my readers and didn’t want anyone to get upset or angry with me for posting a picture of a penis so I chose not to do so.

IMG_0163The above picture is known as the UW Tower and is the tallest building in my neighborhood. It was the old Safeco Building and I still refer to it as such. The students at the University of Washington (UW) look at me strange when I call it that so I try to call it “The Tower” but old habits die hard sometimes.

Thank you for reading!!! Have a great day!!! Peace Out, World!!!

The Love Between Gertie & I

Posted on by jjuniorz

Hey! As Gertie mentioned last week, they want myself and Mama Bear to post every other Wednesday. I stepped up to the plate to post today and Mama Bear will do it next Wednesday.

I’ve decided to write about the love Gertie and I have. I originally met Gertie when she was found unconscious and unresponsive as well as barely breathing due to a suicide attempt. Gertie’s neighbor found them and called 911 when the engine company was called out to help Gertie. Fortunately, she survived that attempted suicide as well as a handful of others.

If it wasn’t for Gertie being survivor, I wouldn’t have become friends with them. Being friends with them is what helped me fall in with Gertie. Gertie has the endearing way about her that has people go to them as friends and for me it had me fall in love with them.

Thanks for reading. I hope this gives some insight of my love for Gertie. Have a great day.

Processing Grandma Being In Hospice Care

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! I wish Junior was not working for a multitude of reasons. Main reason is to help me through the fact that my grandma is in hospice care. But he has to work to pay his bills.

Having my grandma in hospice is really difficult for me and my family. Something that has been helpful to be are my DBT skills. I’ve been doing a lot of reading. It’s been helping me get out of head. Art has been helpful to me as a way to express my emotions. A way to not explode on myself or anyone else. Blogging has been helpful to process all this stuff.

I don’t deal well with painful emotions and my grandma being in hospice is quite challenging. She is aware of what is going on about eighty percent of the time which makes it that much more difficult. I love my grandma and hope she doesn’t suffer.

Thank you for reading my depressing post. I hope everyone has a good night. Enjoy the Superbowl tomorrow for those of you that live in the United States. Peace Out, World!!

Dealing W/Grandma In Hospice Care

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! I’ve been dealing with my grandma and her being in hospice care. It hasn’t been the easiest ordeal for me or my family. My dad isn’t taking it all that well. I wish I knew how to help him though besides just being a listening ear and shoulder to cry on. He is trying his best to be of support to me as well.

Something that helped today was therapy. I saw Gilbert today. We discussed my grandma and her being in hospice. I just broke down crying and Gilbert gave me a box of Kleenex and let me cry. Sometimes a good cry helps.

Therapy was pretty much the only productive thing I’ve done all day. The other things I have done is blog, color, read and watched TedTalks. Blogging helps me process shit while coloring helps me express emotions. Reading and watching TedTalks help me get out of my head. Maybe I’ll talk about the TedTalks later.

Thank you for reading. Have a good weekend everyone. Happy Friday!!! Peace Out, World!!!